Well that was a fucking weird weekend!! Massive night saturday, despite a plan not to have a massive night.
Im feeling like a little bit of a fucking arsehole today actually, breaking up a "casual" relationship (although they wanted more). Normally Im the one to be dumped and feeling like shit, to dump someone else also feels like shit albeit a different flavour of shit. Weird to have roles reversed a bit, last time I was dumped was for wanting more....
Being a massive manslut the night beforehand while that person was there is something i regret, for the most part. In my defence, I was very very drunk.
Still, could be worse, I didnt have an ex come around and kick my door in, this DID happen to someone I was hanging with last night.
Conclusions:
relationships are fucked.
Lex should drink less
Im feeling like a little bit of a fucking arsehole today actually, breaking up a "casual" relationship (although they wanted more). Normally Im the one to be dumped and feeling like shit, to dump someone else also feels like shit albeit a different flavour of shit. Weird to have roles reversed a bit, last time I was dumped was for wanting more....
Being a massive manslut the night beforehand while that person was there is something i regret, for the most part. In my defence, I was very very drunk.
Still, could be worse, I didnt have an ex come around and kick my door in, this DID happen to someone I was hanging with last night.
Conclusions:
relationships are fucked.
Lex should drink less
So last week I sat down to have this started. This is at one week.
Even the heart isnt finished completley, colours need finishing and the final touch up. Plan is to have this in the centre of a vine with roses and surrounded by little ace of spades as the background.
Pretty happy so far. The biggest pain I felt having it done was the kink in my neck. Pretty fuckin' awesome seeing as the one on my back nearly had me in tears......
Apart from that, I need to get serious about speciality training, must go talk to the right people after my little break. I probably also need an intervention seeing as a certain trashy club knows my drink and provides it with only a nod!
Even the heart isnt finished completley, colours need finishing and the final touch up. Plan is to have this in the centre of a vine with roses and surrounded by little ace of spades as the background.
Pretty happy so far. The biggest pain I felt having it done was the kink in my neck. Pretty fuckin' awesome seeing as the one on my back nearly had me in tears......
Apart from that, I need to get serious about speciality training, must go talk to the right people after my little break. I probably also need an intervention seeing as a certain trashy club knows my drink and provides it with only a nod!
So, Im back.
Basically bored, and figured this would serve as a distraction.
SInce being involved last time, had a turbulent breakup, Moved slightly further east, got another car for daily trips to work, got full registration as a doctor and a perscriber number....proof any system is fallable.
In addition, more cynical, jaded and with extra baggage!! Oh and ive started smoking.
So all in all.....I guess im doing ok???
Basically bored, and figured this would serve as a distraction.
SInce being involved last time, had a turbulent breakup, Moved slightly further east, got another car for daily trips to work, got full registration as a doctor and a perscriber number....proof any system is fallable.
In addition, more cynical, jaded and with extra baggage!! Oh and ive started smoking.
So all in all.....I guess im doing ok???
Life is busy, and has definite ups and downs.
Work, on the whole, is fufilling and not to busy at the mo, really, compared to how it has been, yes its sill busy as hell compared to anything ive ever done, but im dealing with it a bit better.
However, I did kill someone because I fucked up. It was my first independent kill, where Im really only the one whos responsible. Yes, it was understandable, and yes, it was an old demented vegetable of a man, but he deserved better, and I failed him.
Proof the karma system is topsy turvey, Ive got a wonderful super sexy UBERBABE to occupy my thoughts and essentially finished tooling around with the new (old) car. Got a proper stereo (with DOOF DOOF) into it, got it all working. Theres only one thing I have on the horizon for the batmobile, and thats not something I expect to do until next year after I sort out moving (if the need arises).
So I cant complain about life. Im even involved in a research projekt. Might go well.
Short term Aims at the moment are
1) See my friends more
2) Decide on a speciality
3) Buy more clothes and a goddamn futon!!
Medium are
1) Get into a speciality training scheme
2) Do final modifications to the batmobile (well, really, get someone else to as its crosses past what Im comofortable fucking around with
3) Look at buying a house
Yeah....
Work, on the whole, is fufilling and not to busy at the mo, really, compared to how it has been, yes its sill busy as hell compared to anything ive ever done, but im dealing with it a bit better.
However, I did kill someone because I fucked up. It was my first independent kill, where Im really only the one whos responsible. Yes, it was understandable, and yes, it was an old demented vegetable of a man, but he deserved better, and I failed him.
Proof the karma system is topsy turvey, Ive got a wonderful super sexy UBERBABE to occupy my thoughts and essentially finished tooling around with the new (old) car. Got a proper stereo (with DOOF DOOF) into it, got it all working. Theres only one thing I have on the horizon for the batmobile, and thats not something I expect to do until next year after I sort out moving (if the need arises).
So I cant complain about life. Im even involved in a research projekt. Might go well.
Short term Aims at the moment are
1) See my friends more
2) Decide on a speciality
3) Buy more clothes and a goddamn futon!!
Medium are
1) Get into a speciality training scheme
2) Do final modifications to the batmobile (well, really, get someone else to as its crosses past what Im comofortable fucking around with
3) Look at buying a house
Yeah....
So,this morning, I was greeted by a red dawn sky, It red dust cloud that had blown in.
I was so exicited, I thought the apocalypse had finally arrived! What a dissapointment.
The evening sky, with a crescent moon and a full compliment of stars that was above me as I left work was a consolation though.
Also, Please world, don't take this the wrong way or take this as me being (overly) arragont, but if you want to talk to me about something. Just fucking tell me. Dont skirt the issue. Dont make small talk. If you have something you want to say, say it, I just dont have the time to fuck about generally.
I was so exicited, I thought the apocalypse had finally arrived! What a dissapointment.
The evening sky, with a crescent moon and a full compliment of stars that was above me as I left work was a consolation though.
Also, Please world, don't take this the wrong way or take this as me being (overly) arragont, but if you want to talk to me about something. Just fucking tell me. Dont skirt the issue. Dont make small talk. If you have something you want to say, say it, I just dont have the time to fuck about generally.
I really Must remember I now live in a set of units, and stumbling out the back in a state of undress (read, not dressed at all) runs the risk of having the neighbours see all.
Hi neighbours! Apoligies for the image, and apoligies to you for the mental image, dear reader.
Also, boo for scalpers, but I did get megadeth tickets on ebay, for a princely sum, but they will be mine regardless!
Hi neighbours! Apoligies for the image, and apoligies to you for the mental image, dear reader.
Also, boo for scalpers, but I did get megadeth tickets on ebay, for a princely sum, but they will be mine regardless!
Im winding up my time in the ED. Its been a love/hate experience.
You get to be largely independent, someone comes in and after an hour or so you have worked out whats wrong with them (usually), started treatment, got them admitted (or set up plans for discharge) and got the plan and story for the admitting team. As a (very) junior doctor, there's not many opportunities to have that much control and responsibility.
When it all goes well, and you have this neat little package ready to be sent off, its a hell of a good feeling of competence, accomplishment and relief.
When you have NFI WTF is going on, or the patient is 'difficult' its a nightmare. There was one day I had 5 of these 'difficult' patients in a row. I nearly walked out. The next day I had a beautiful run. They may have been very sick patients (2 ended up in ICU and another died a week later) but we did a good job of identifying issues and starting a plan to sort them. Compared to the relatively mundane activity of the wards, this sort of stuff makes me think I might have made the right choice to forgo a 'life'.
Interesting things I came across worth a mention:
Aerosol Can up a blokes backside. (Lynx deodorant for those interested)
Burns to 80% of a chap after "cooking fish, on the BBQ, with metho"
A waiting room of completely fucking mad patients (as in 10 psych cases) when it was a full moon. (no lie!)
Dislocated shoulders (pop)
Being asked, can you take this patient? they are quite ill and complex, but you're not an idiot so you can manage it (apparently thats a complement???)
Being in ED for 17 hours because 4 doctors (out of 7) Called in sick and almost telling the wrong patient she had a heart attack.
Hearing the medical director of ED (as in, the head doctor) call the administration a "pack of fucking fuckwit cunts who can go fuck themselves with the fucking bullshit they fuck the patient with" in a phone call to administration.
My very own 'house' moment. Lady with vommiting resistant to every medication, no significant medical history but significant use of pot. Other intern couldnt work it out.
I asked 'had they run out of hot water?'
Other intern asked, what relevance had that got?
We went and asked. She had.
Other intern, and patient is wondering how on earth I could have known that.
Its because the patient had "cyclical cannabinoid hyperemesis" which is nausea and vommiting caused by chronic cannabis use, which is strangely relieved by hot showers! Patients present when they run out of hot water.....
BOOYAA!
(course I had seen it the week before and had NFI what it was either first time I saw it! but hey, no-one needs to know that)
Of course I had a few fuckups. No-one died, nothing serious, but not brilliant stuff. First one was not realising the girl in front of me didnt get the bump on the head from falling over while drunk, but rather from her boyfriend abusing her. Second was telling the mother of a 6 month old "we dont need to take blood, you should be out of here in an hour" then having to backtrack...badly.
All in all, It wasnt too bad. Im kinda looking forward to doing it again. Having to work the last 6 motherfuckin weekends though, is fucking fucked.
You get to be largely independent, someone comes in and after an hour or so you have worked out whats wrong with them (usually), started treatment, got them admitted (or set up plans for discharge) and got the plan and story for the admitting team. As a (very) junior doctor, there's not many opportunities to have that much control and responsibility.
When it all goes well, and you have this neat little package ready to be sent off, its a hell of a good feeling of competence, accomplishment and relief.
When you have NFI WTF is going on, or the patient is 'difficult' its a nightmare. There was one day I had 5 of these 'difficult' patients in a row. I nearly walked out. The next day I had a beautiful run. They may have been very sick patients (2 ended up in ICU and another died a week later) but we did a good job of identifying issues and starting a plan to sort them. Compared to the relatively mundane activity of the wards, this sort of stuff makes me think I might have made the right choice to forgo a 'life'.
Interesting things I came across worth a mention:
Aerosol Can up a blokes backside. (Lynx deodorant for those interested)
Burns to 80% of a chap after "cooking fish, on the BBQ, with metho"
A waiting room of completely fucking mad patients (as in 10 psych cases) when it was a full moon. (no lie!)
Dislocated shoulders (pop)
Being asked, can you take this patient? they are quite ill and complex, but you're not an idiot so you can manage it (apparently thats a complement???)
Being in ED for 17 hours because 4 doctors (out of 7) Called in sick and almost telling the wrong patient she had a heart attack.
Hearing the medical director of ED (as in, the head doctor) call the administration a "pack of fucking fuckwit cunts who can go fuck themselves with the fucking bullshit they fuck the patient with" in a phone call to administration.
My very own 'house' moment. Lady with vommiting resistant to every medication, no significant medical history but significant use of pot. Other intern couldnt work it out.
I asked 'had they run out of hot water?'
Other intern asked, what relevance had that got?
We went and asked. She had.
Other intern, and patient is wondering how on earth I could have known that.
Its because the patient had "cyclical cannabinoid hyperemesis" which is nausea and vommiting caused by chronic cannabis use, which is strangely relieved by hot showers! Patients present when they run out of hot water.....
BOOYAA!
(course I had seen it the week before and had NFI what it was either first time I saw it! but hey, no-one needs to know that)
Of course I had a few fuckups. No-one died, nothing serious, but not brilliant stuff. First one was not realising the girl in front of me didnt get the bump on the head from falling over while drunk, but rather from her boyfriend abusing her. Second was telling the mother of a 6 month old "we dont need to take blood, you should be out of here in an hour" then having to backtrack...badly.
All in all, It wasnt too bad. Im kinda looking forward to doing it again. Having to work the last 6 motherfuckin weekends though, is fucking fucked.
