What a weekend!
The Fantomas concert fuckin rocked!!! It was a blast!!! A great show and a great venue. Even the opening acts kicked ass. I am so sore tho from being in the pit but it was loads of fun! A boys night out. Need to have those more often.
I got to hang out with the coolest kid ever Sunday. She's 14 years old (no, I am NOT a pedophile you pervs) and she races cars, like real cars, like cars that go over 150mph and she doesn't even have a driver's license yet, still 2 years to go. And she's very fast too. I know how I drove when I was a teen and can you imagine her driving in high school? hehehe. Luckily her dad is mostly bald otherwise I am sure his hair would go completely grey. I can't imagine standing there watching my 14 yr old daughter spin towards a concrete wall at 100 something mph. Yowza.
Watched the movie Sideways a coupla nights ago. It was hilarious. I didn't realize it was supposed to be a comedy. I have that Blockbuster monthly membership thing so I just go in and grab two movies at a time. It's getting to the point that I have to look around to find ones I haven't seen yet.
Tenacious D is fucking hilarious. (Sorry, had a flashback to a T D moment this weekend.)
Doesn't look like I get to sell my jeep just yet. 3 hours left on Ebay and it's only at $7600. Might give it one more shot before exploring other options.
G came up with this crazy idea that we are running with. One of our friends, Mike, is getting married in a few weeks and we were all pondering the question of the wedding gift. G's brilliant idea was to all pitch in and get him a 1st gen RX-7. A car is probably not a usual wedding gift but it's absolutely perfect and he's gonna bawl like Tony on New Years.
Of course there is a story behind it but that's a tale for another day...
A week from tomorrow me and G are heading to Idaho Springs for a Personal Protection pistol course. Get to go do some shooting exercises and learn defensive pistol tactics. The class in and of itself would be really cool but it has the added bonus of qualifying us to get our Colorado CCW Permit. hehehe. Been wanting one of those for awhile now but only just recently has the legislation been supportive of granting them. The NRA at work I guess, making states issue them like they were supposed to be doing but didn't due to clintonomics. Why is it that gun laws are more strict during Democratic rule (when they are supposed to be for individuals rights) and less strict under Republican rule (which is supposed to be more conservative)? hmmmm
The Fantomas concert fuckin rocked!!! It was a blast!!! A great show and a great venue. Even the opening acts kicked ass. I am so sore tho from being in the pit but it was loads of fun! A boys night out. Need to have those more often.
I got to hang out with the coolest kid ever Sunday. She's 14 years old (no, I am NOT a pedophile you pervs) and she races cars, like real cars, like cars that go over 150mph and she doesn't even have a driver's license yet, still 2 years to go. And she's very fast too. I know how I drove when I was a teen and can you imagine her driving in high school? hehehe. Luckily her dad is mostly bald otherwise I am sure his hair would go completely grey. I can't imagine standing there watching my 14 yr old daughter spin towards a concrete wall at 100 something mph. Yowza.
Watched the movie Sideways a coupla nights ago. It was hilarious. I didn't realize it was supposed to be a comedy. I have that Blockbuster monthly membership thing so I just go in and grab two movies at a time. It's getting to the point that I have to look around to find ones I haven't seen yet.
Tenacious D is fucking hilarious. (Sorry, had a flashback to a T D moment this weekend.)
Doesn't look like I get to sell my jeep just yet. 3 hours left on Ebay and it's only at $7600. Might give it one more shot before exploring other options.
G came up with this crazy idea that we are running with. One of our friends, Mike, is getting married in a few weeks and we were all pondering the question of the wedding gift. G's brilliant idea was to all pitch in and get him a 1st gen RX-7. A car is probably not a usual wedding gift but it's absolutely perfect and he's gonna bawl like Tony on New Years.
Of course there is a story behind it but that's a tale for another day...A week from tomorrow me and G are heading to Idaho Springs for a Personal Protection pistol course. Get to go do some shooting exercises and learn defensive pistol tactics. The class in and of itself would be really cool but it has the added bonus of qualifying us to get our Colorado CCW Permit. hehehe. Been wanting one of those for awhile now but only just recently has the legislation been supportive of granting them. The NRA at work I guess, making states issue them like they were supposed to be doing but didn't due to clintonomics. Why is it that gun laws are more strict during Democratic rule (when they are supposed to be for individuals rights) and less strict under Republican rule (which is supposed to be more conservative)? hmmmm
Yay! The demons from hell have returned to their lair!!!
No more babysitting adults. That is a good thing. I am such a bum. All I do these days is watch movies. I've seen some pretty interesting ones though. Sin City is awesome. And I saw this other one that I rented, "This Girl's Life", which is basically a feminist manifesto on porn. About a porn star who is dealing with her life, a straight bf, taking care of her dad with parkinson's disease, and the life of a porn star from a girls perspective. The other one I've seen that was really cool was "Acts of Worship". About the life of a crack addict in New York. Very well done. I've also seen some crap but what can you do, eh?
Got the jeep all fixed and purdied up and on ebay. Yay! Don't have high hopes tho. Got my motorcycle running decently. I am not sure I want to invest the time/money to make it perfect. Too much of a pain in the rear. But it does run better than before so that's good. Now I just have to get back into the saddle so to speak. I've been helping G get his bike all fixed or at least running once again. Not there yet but getting there.
This evening I am faced with a moral dilemma. I have been asked to assist with a euthanasia of sorts and I am pandering. One of my best friends needs help pulling the engine on a 1974 Jaguar E-type, V-12. He is supposed to be restoring the vehicle for his soon to be ex-wifes uncle. The dilemma occurs because the Jag is already in excellent condition and it's totally original and needs very little in the way of restoration. In order for it to be worth any real money, it needs to be all original. My friend has this idea in his head to turn it into a LeMan's version of the car, which means changing and altering the configuration and paint and adding a roll cage. He thinks that by doing these things the car will more than double in value because the other Lemans versions sell for that. But those are the original race versions, not the "tard" versions that he is going to make. It would be one thing if he were totally profressional and actually knew what he was doing but that is just not the case. I've seen how he works... It generally ends in either having extra bolts or not enough of them. Or extra parts. Not so good. Have to see how my damage control skills are coming along.
Being a bum is kinda hard work. I get roped into doing all sorts of things (like pulling the motor). Let's see, I am an airport taxi for my extended family, a janitor, a laborer, a plumber, a mover, a mechanic, I get to do yard work, a trashman, a reliable drinking buddy (cause I don't have to get up in the am and go to work so I can keep you out way later than you want to be), et cetera. I am going to a Fantomas concert on Friday which should be cool. Trying to figure out which T-shirt to wear. Do I go as kinda cool, slightly offensive but more humorous or do I go shove offense down people's throats. I am kinda leaning toward the latter cause it's members from Slayer, Faith No More, The Melvin's, and Mr. Bungle but I'll have to see if I can even find the old shirts first. Should be a pretty good show, I think or at least hope.
I've also been working on a few, I guess you could call them "personal projects." They are going really well and I've finished one of them, at least the rough draft. Ever since I turned 30 I've been having this like pre-mid life crisis and have been quite introspective and reflective, thinking how I got to where I am now so I've been writing stuff down, kinda like a journal. I was thinking of doing a blog, seeing how that all works, but am undecided as of yet. The one thing I did finish was a confessional of sorts for my parents. The things they always wondered about but just weren't sure, couldn't prove, or had no idea about. That's the rough draft I finished. I started one that was supposed to have the same theme but I got a bit too honest on that one and there are things that they don't need to know and I shouldn't really say, like ever, and it also got a bit too sexual so I had to write a different one for the units. I've also been thinking of writing down all the random little memories I have. That would be pretty interesting in an ADD sort of way. Hafta see how motivated or obsessed I get with that idea.
Ciao
The Fantomas concert fuckin rocked!!! It was a blast!!! A great show and a great venue. Even the opening acts kicked ass. I am so sore tho from being in the pit but it was loads of fun! A boys night out. Need to have those more often.
I got to hang out with the coolest kid ever today. She's 14 years old (no, I am NOT a pedophile you pervs) and she races cars, like real cars, like cars that go over 150mph and she doesn't even have a driver's license yet, still 2 years to go. And she's very fast too. I know how I drove when I was a teen and can you imagine her driving in high school? hehehe.
No more babysitting adults. That is a good thing. I am such a bum. All I do these days is watch movies. I've seen some pretty interesting ones though. Sin City is awesome. And I saw this other one that I rented, "This Girl's Life", which is basically a feminist manifesto on porn. About a porn star who is dealing with her life, a straight bf, taking care of her dad with parkinson's disease, and the life of a porn star from a girls perspective. The other one I've seen that was really cool was "Acts of Worship". About the life of a crack addict in New York. Very well done. I've also seen some crap but what can you do, eh?
Got the jeep all fixed and purdied up and on ebay. Yay! Don't have high hopes tho. Got my motorcycle running decently. I am not sure I want to invest the time/money to make it perfect. Too much of a pain in the rear. But it does run better than before so that's good. Now I just have to get back into the saddle so to speak. I've been helping G get his bike all fixed or at least running once again. Not there yet but getting there.
This evening I am faced with a moral dilemma. I have been asked to assist with a euthanasia of sorts and I am pandering. One of my best friends needs help pulling the engine on a 1974 Jaguar E-type, V-12. He is supposed to be restoring the vehicle for his soon to be ex-wifes uncle. The dilemma occurs because the Jag is already in excellent condition and it's totally original and needs very little in the way of restoration. In order for it to be worth any real money, it needs to be all original. My friend has this idea in his head to turn it into a LeMan's version of the car, which means changing and altering the configuration and paint and adding a roll cage. He thinks that by doing these things the car will more than double in value because the other Lemans versions sell for that. But those are the original race versions, not the "tard" versions that he is going to make. It would be one thing if he were totally profressional and actually knew what he was doing but that is just not the case. I've seen how he works... It generally ends in either having extra bolts or not enough of them. Or extra parts. Not so good. Have to see how my damage control skills are coming along.
Being a bum is kinda hard work. I get roped into doing all sorts of things (like pulling the motor). Let's see, I am an airport taxi for my extended family, a janitor, a laborer, a plumber, a mover, a mechanic, I get to do yard work, a trashman, a reliable drinking buddy (cause I don't have to get up in the am and go to work so I can keep you out way later than you want to be), et cetera. I am going to a Fantomas concert on Friday which should be cool. Trying to figure out which T-shirt to wear. Do I go as kinda cool, slightly offensive but more humorous or do I go shove offense down people's throats. I am kinda leaning toward the latter cause it's members from Slayer, Faith No More, The Melvin's, and Mr. Bungle but I'll have to see if I can even find the old shirts first. Should be a pretty good show, I think or at least hope.
I've also been working on a few, I guess you could call them "personal projects." They are going really well and I've finished one of them, at least the rough draft. Ever since I turned 30 I've been having this like pre-mid life crisis and have been quite introspective and reflective, thinking how I got to where I am now so I've been writing stuff down, kinda like a journal. I was thinking of doing a blog, seeing how that all works, but am undecided as of yet. The one thing I did finish was a confessional of sorts for my parents. The things they always wondered about but just weren't sure, couldn't prove, or had no idea about. That's the rough draft I finished. I started one that was supposed to have the same theme but I got a bit too honest on that one and there are things that they don't need to know and I shouldn't really say, like ever, and it also got a bit too sexual so I had to write a different one for the units. I've also been thinking of writing down all the random little memories I have. That would be pretty interesting in an ADD sort of way. Hafta see how motivated or obsessed I get with that idea.
Ciao
The Fantomas concert fuckin rocked!!! It was a blast!!! A great show and a great venue. Even the opening acts kicked ass. I am so sore tho from being in the pit but it was loads of fun! A boys night out. Need to have those more often.
I got to hang out with the coolest kid ever today. She's 14 years old (no, I am NOT a pedophile you pervs) and she races cars, like real cars, like cars that go over 150mph and she doesn't even have a driver's license yet, still 2 years to go. And she's very fast too. I know how I drove when I was a teen and can you imagine her driving in high school? hehehe.
Going, going, gone...
Mother nature still hasn't made up her mind about wether it's winter or spring. Last Sunday night it snowed again. There was 2 feet of snow on the ground that I got to shovel from the driveway. Of course, now it's almost all melted.
My jeep is in the shop getting the parking lot ding fixed and getting detailed so it's all pretty for the Ebay pics. Time to focus on selling it. Cannot wait to sell that thing.
I've been hanging out with lots of ice peeps lately. It's a lot of fun. Good times, good people but now we can go to real places and drink real beer and eat real food. hehehe. Found a "Southern" in Denver. On Tuesdays it's $2 drinks all night. Anything and everything, 2 bucks! Just like back on the ice...
Still have to fine tune the air/fuel mixture on the motorbike. I think it's a bit rich and it still has no mid-range.
Going to see Fantomas on the 22nd with a coupla friends. Have no idea what they are like but it should be a crazy show. Got the CCW class scheduled for the 3rd of May. It's an all day affair that will teach me and G some new and cool stuff and then I can get my concealed carry permit. yay!
A couple of my friends from AZ are in town for a visit. It's great to see them again but they are serious tweekers so it really kinda sucks. I'm not really into that kinda thing but it's all they do. So I've had a few interesting adventures lately. The major drama is that one of them broke the pipe so we went all around town trying to find a shop that sells crack pipes. Of course, you can't ask for a crack pipe or a meth pipe, you have to try to find a glass oil warmer or something like that. I was just along for the ride and to provide directions. Come to find out that no one in Colorado sells them. It's like all you can buy in AZ but they don't seem to exist in CO and I have no idea where to tell my friends to look. SOL, ha.
Cheers!
Mother nature still hasn't made up her mind about wether it's winter or spring. Last Sunday night it snowed again. There was 2 feet of snow on the ground that I got to shovel from the driveway. Of course, now it's almost all melted.
My jeep is in the shop getting the parking lot ding fixed and getting detailed so it's all pretty for the Ebay pics. Time to focus on selling it. Cannot wait to sell that thing.
I've been hanging out with lots of ice peeps lately. It's a lot of fun. Good times, good people but now we can go to real places and drink real beer and eat real food. hehehe. Found a "Southern" in Denver. On Tuesdays it's $2 drinks all night. Anything and everything, 2 bucks! Just like back on the ice...
Still have to fine tune the air/fuel mixture on the motorbike. I think it's a bit rich and it still has no mid-range.
Going to see Fantomas on the 22nd with a coupla friends. Have no idea what they are like but it should be a crazy show. Got the CCW class scheduled for the 3rd of May. It's an all day affair that will teach me and G some new and cool stuff and then I can get my concealed carry permit. yay!
A couple of my friends from AZ are in town for a visit. It's great to see them again but they are serious tweekers so it really kinda sucks. I'm not really into that kinda thing but it's all they do. So I've had a few interesting adventures lately. The major drama is that one of them broke the pipe so we went all around town trying to find a shop that sells crack pipes. Of course, you can't ask for a crack pipe or a meth pipe, you have to try to find a glass oil warmer or something like that. I was just along for the ride and to provide directions. Come to find out that no one in Colorado sells them. It's like all you can buy in AZ but they don't seem to exist in CO and I have no idea where to tell my friends to look. SOL, ha.
Cheers!
Spring...Winter...Spring...Winter...
I wish mother nature would make up her mind!!! I got here and the weather was gorgeous. Spring. About a week later, it snows. Winter. Then it's summer warm. Then it snows again. The last coupla days were amazing. Now it supposed to snow again tonight.
I don't get it. I just wish it would be spring already.
Hmmm, no luck selling the jeep yet. Haven't actually tried yet though. Thank good ol' murphy for that one and some annonymous light blue vehicle that decided my bright, shiny red jeep needed some light blue paint scraped into the left rear fender while my mom was borrowing it. of course, no note. :angry:
Got the motorcycle running last week. It needed a new battery (dad accidentally left the key in the on position so the headlight was on all winter long) and it was running. Not running very well, but it could at least go. I figured the carbs are a bit dirty but the dealership wanted $350 just to look at them and up to $700 for parts. HA!!! He knows where he can stick prices like that. So, my friend and I pulled off the carbs and cleaned them up. It runs much better, even tho they weren't very dirty. It's still got that really annoying mid-range lull/burp. It accelerates smoothly until between 5-8K it stutters then from 8-14k it goes great. Unfortunately, 5-8k is usually where I end up mid-corner when I need to have consistent power to exit the corner smoothly. There are still some adjustments to try but that'll have to wait a week for the snow to go away. This is why I am so lusting after a new bike...
Got to hang out with a bunch of ice folk on friday night. It was really cool and fun to see all of them again. Got to see Bruce, James travis, debbie townsend, brooke, joni z and chad (chad is rad and still a bit psycho) and big lemon and his girl Erin showed up at joni and chad's place at the end of the night. they were wasted on lots of different drugs. It was a crazy night and I haven't packed that many people into a car in ages. i've been going to lots of different bars lately, with different people and it's kinda cool. Lot's of tiny bars. They are kinda fun. Got to hang with the BOB as well this weekend. It's always good to see him and i am glad he's doing well. He's going through a divorce, which is kinda good and kinda bad. His job is going really well though and the fucker got to tear up a 550 Maranello at the track on Sunday. I'm so jealous, the bastard.
Things are pretty much back to normal on the home front with all the family gone. It would be pretty quiet if woody woodpecker hadn't come back this year but he did and this time he brought a friend along as well. Last year it took a coupla thousand dollars to fix the damage he did so I think it's time to sight in the BB gun.
Q: What's one of your favorite song lyrics?
I wish mother nature would make up her mind!!! I got here and the weather was gorgeous. Spring. About a week later, it snows. Winter. Then it's summer warm. Then it snows again. The last coupla days were amazing. Now it supposed to snow again tonight.
I don't get it. I just wish it would be spring already.Hmmm, no luck selling the jeep yet. Haven't actually tried yet though. Thank good ol' murphy for that one and some annonymous light blue vehicle that decided my bright, shiny red jeep needed some light blue paint scraped into the left rear fender while my mom was borrowing it. of course, no note. :angry:
Got the motorcycle running last week. It needed a new battery (dad accidentally left the key in the on position so the headlight was on all winter long) and it was running. Not running very well, but it could at least go. I figured the carbs are a bit dirty but the dealership wanted $350 just to look at them and up to $700 for parts. HA!!! He knows where he can stick prices like that.
So, my friend and I pulled off the carbs and cleaned them up. It runs much better, even tho they weren't very dirty. It's still got that really annoying mid-range lull/burp. It accelerates smoothly until between 5-8K it stutters then from 8-14k it goes great. Unfortunately, 5-8k is usually where I end up mid-corner when I need to have consistent power to exit the corner smoothly. There are still some adjustments to try but that'll have to wait a week for the snow to go away. This is why I am so lusting after a new bike...Got to hang out with a bunch of ice folk on friday night. It was really cool and fun to see all of them again. Got to see Bruce, James travis, debbie townsend, brooke, joni z and chad (chad is rad and still a bit psycho) and big lemon and his girl Erin showed up at joni and chad's place at the end of the night. they were wasted on lots of different drugs. It was a crazy night and I haven't packed that many people into a car in ages. i've been going to lots of different bars lately, with different people and it's kinda cool. Lot's of tiny bars. They are kinda fun. Got to hang with the BOB as well this weekend. It's always good to see him and i am glad he's doing well. He's going through a divorce, which is kinda good and kinda bad. His job is going really well though and the fucker got to tear up a 550 Maranello at the track on Sunday. I'm so jealous, the bastard.
Things are pretty much back to normal on the home front with all the family gone. It would be pretty quiet if woody woodpecker hadn't come back this year but he did and this time he brought a friend along as well. Last year it took a coupla thousand dollars to fix the damage he did so I think it's time to sight in the BB gun.
Q: What's one of your favorite song lyrics?
Well, I got to meet my cousin yesterday for the first time. She is 19 months old and absolutely adorable. One of those really cute kids and she's already talking pretty well. Of course, her mom is a college professor and her dad is (still) a student. It's great seeing them again but it also means that I am momentarily displaced as the kid needs her own room. So, I get to crash on the couch at my best friends place. It's kinda wierd seeing him all domesticated. His girlfriend (and her two cats) moved in and they bought a dog together. It's different but cool.
My little sister (one of them, the youngest) is in town for spring break. She's about to finish her first year at Marist College in P-town, NY. She seems to like it alot and she's doing really well. My brother comes in on Thursday night, taking some vacation from his job in DC, so the kids will be hitting the bars on friday night. Best thing about that is when we get too plastered to drive anywhere we can crash at one of my other sisters condos downtown. hehehe.
Went looking at motorcycles the other day. Very tempting. The new Yamaha R-1 in black (or Raven, as they call it) would be a kick ass bike! That's the ideal bike for me. Now it's just a matter of funds. If it were just the bike, no problem, but there's also the insurance. Not so good. Totally understandable but still... Insurance for the bike I have right now is about $100.00 a YEAR. The R-1 is $200.00 a MONTH! Bloody fucking hell!!! Can't quite afford that with the Jeep payments and insurance for the Jeep. And then there's the matter of health insurance, as I have none at the moment...
I hate fucking insurance.
My little sister (one of them, the youngest) is in town for spring break. She's about to finish her first year at Marist College in P-town, NY. She seems to like it alot and she's doing really well. My brother comes in on Thursday night, taking some vacation from his job in DC, so the kids will be hitting the bars on friday night. Best thing about that is when we get too plastered to drive anywhere we can crash at one of my other sisters condos downtown.
hehehe.Went looking at motorcycles the other day. Very tempting. The new Yamaha R-1 in black (or Raven, as they call it) would be a kick ass bike! That's the ideal bike for me. Now it's just a matter of funds. If it were just the bike, no problem, but there's also the insurance. Not so good. Totally understandable but still... Insurance for the bike I have right now is about $100.00 a YEAR. The R-1 is $200.00 a MONTH! Bloody fucking hell!!! Can't quite afford that with the Jeep payments and insurance for the Jeep. And then there's the matter of health insurance, as I have none at the moment...
I hate fucking insurance. Hmmmmm... Goals, thoughts, randomness.
Back in Colorado and off the ice for the summer! Yay!!! So the question is, Now what?
Things to do (Goals):
1. Get a life!
I'm bored, idle, not feeling completely satisfied with my life at the moment. It needs some depth, some feeling, some reality, something, something new, something distracting, something different, something exciting, need something to learn, to play with, to perfect, to experiment with. I've lost my easy, happy go lucky smile and carefree attitude and I don't like that, I don't like the way I am at the moment, I'm lost and am not sure how to go about finding myself.
2. Get rid of the Jeep.
Biggest mistake, no, STOOPIDEST decision I've ever made. I knew full and well I was going to get screwed on that deal but didn't realize quite how bad an ass-fucking I was in for. Definitely no lube and there were a few spikes on the strap on as well. Ever seen the movie seven? Enough said. In actuality, it's not a bad vehicle at all, it's actually a pretty decent machine and it doesn't have any problems. I'm just mad at myself, severely disappointed and astounded in the apathy, ignorance, can't think of the word, but not helping someone who is trying to help you, of a friend. The jeep is just not my style, not me, and not something I (personally) would ever buy or own, yet I did (kinda) and do. Grrrrrr.
3. Get a new motorcycle.
Not an absolute necessity but very high on the list. I really wish I knew someone with an R-6 or could get to ride one. I would like to see how one rides but am apprehensive that it won't be enough bike and won't have enough power but I also think it could be okay. I almost bought an R-1 today, the bike I really want, but I am not quite organized enough and not sure about the money situation until I resolve the issue with the Jeep. I am also hesitant to get the R-1 cause it's a whole lot of bike and knowing me and the way I ride, I could get into some really good trouble on an R-1. Lots of trouble. I've got a bike now and I love it, it's an awesome bike and lots of fun and I hang with or pass all the super-sport bikes down the canyons and twisty roads but on the straights and up hill they accelerate away like someone pressed the fast forward button. Here I am down shifting 2-3 gears, maxing the 14k rpm redline each time to keep them in sight and all they did was twist their throttle about ½ way. Frustrating!!!
4. Get a job.
Hmmm. Might need to do this depending on what happens with the previous two goals. Question is, what to do? Need a decent job that only lasts for about 6 months. Anyone have any ideas? Cool ones?
5. Get a creative hobby or outlet.
This goes along with the first thing. I am a very imaginative person but haven't developed an output for that creativity. I need to find some way to express it. I've kept it dormant and suppressed for so long that it's starting to fade. I need to find an outlet, let it breathe, develop it. I just have no idea where to start or how to go about doing that.
6. Quit being so skeptical and argumentative/opinionated.
I have found myself arguing with friends over nothing and just being very skeptical and doubtful and just assuming that they are wrong because I don't agree with them. I realize it and it makes me even more annoyed so I keep arguing. I never used to be that bad though I have always been a bit of a skeptic when it comes to other peoples opinions. Once again, it ties in to the first goal.
7. Figure out what to do with T.
Let T pull me under for the sake of personal conviction, sense of honor/duty, pride, personal integrity or go against the grain of my existence and cut the rope to survive. Here in lies the solution to the first goal. What to do?
8. Make some new friends.
Variety is the spice of life and friends are always a great thing. Might help with a few of the other goals as well. Expanding a bit, I would like to become better friends with people. I just feel, distant, lately. I have a few really good friends, close friends, ones I know I will always be friends with, ones I can count on no matter what, ones I would do anything for. I have a few good friends, ones I used to be much closer with but have grown apart from due to stupid, petty shit on both sides, not helped by my skepticism and argumentation. I have some good friends, ones that I would really enjoy being closer with but am not able to or can't seem to do what I need to. I think the problem is mine. I have never been much of a talker, I'm the strong, silent type, and have never been good at expressing myself through speech. I'm the kind, thoughtful, very attentive, quiet guy mostly alone in the crowd. I have the hardest time coming up with small talk and chatting people up. I also have a hard time phrasing a conversation to clearly get my thoughts across. I either can't say it correctly or I am too ambiguous and people infer a different point or I say it how I am thinking it but my explanation is not at all what I mean because I don't know how to express the whole thought. Kinda like a dictionary, you have the word then all the definitions and when I have the thought in my head, I see all the different uses and meanings but I can only manage to say the first one. I need to find Conversation for Dummies!
9. Get rid of old shit and clean out the basement.
I suffer from TMS. Too Much Shit. I've got way too much crap, stuff I don't use, ever, but that someday I might. It kinda runs in the family. My crap happens to be stored in the corner of my parents basement. To get to the corner my stuff is in, you walk through a narrow walkway that is lined with boxes, empty and full, turn the corner into another room where there's old toys from 30 years ago piled up on one side and empty, some old some new, suitcases, duffels, backpacks, and luggage in a pile on the other, this room is also piled high with boxes, books, miscellaneous garbage with a walkway through the middle which is blocked halfway down by a mattress and box spring set which I have to tilt from leaning against my pile of crap in the corner to the other pile of crap on the other side. The whole basement is like that. It's ridiculous. But I am finally home for more than a month and I can get rid off all the junk! Yay! Going to be a major project though and I have to at least go through my stuff.
and the marathon entry comes to an end...
Back in Colorado and off the ice for the summer! Yay!!! So the question is, Now what?
Things to do (Goals):
1. Get a life!
I'm bored, idle, not feeling completely satisfied with my life at the moment. It needs some depth, some feeling, some reality, something, something new, something distracting, something different, something exciting, need something to learn, to play with, to perfect, to experiment with. I've lost my easy, happy go lucky smile and carefree attitude and I don't like that, I don't like the way I am at the moment, I'm lost and am not sure how to go about finding myself.
2. Get rid of the Jeep.
Biggest mistake, no, STOOPIDEST decision I've ever made. I knew full and well I was going to get screwed on that deal but didn't realize quite how bad an ass-fucking I was in for. Definitely no lube and there were a few spikes on the strap on as well. Ever seen the movie seven? Enough said. In actuality, it's not a bad vehicle at all, it's actually a pretty decent machine and it doesn't have any problems. I'm just mad at myself, severely disappointed and astounded in the apathy, ignorance, can't think of the word, but not helping someone who is trying to help you, of a friend. The jeep is just not my style, not me, and not something I (personally) would ever buy or own, yet I did (kinda) and do. Grrrrrr.
3. Get a new motorcycle.
Not an absolute necessity but very high on the list. I really wish I knew someone with an R-6 or could get to ride one. I would like to see how one rides but am apprehensive that it won't be enough bike and won't have enough power but I also think it could be okay. I almost bought an R-1 today, the bike I really want, but I am not quite organized enough and not sure about the money situation until I resolve the issue with the Jeep. I am also hesitant to get the R-1 cause it's a whole lot of bike and knowing me and the way I ride, I could get into some really good trouble on an R-1. Lots of trouble. I've got a bike now and I love it, it's an awesome bike and lots of fun and I hang with or pass all the super-sport bikes down the canyons and twisty roads but on the straights and up hill they accelerate away like someone pressed the fast forward button. Here I am down shifting 2-3 gears, maxing the 14k rpm redline each time to keep them in sight and all they did was twist their throttle about ½ way. Frustrating!!!
4. Get a job.
Hmmm. Might need to do this depending on what happens with the previous two goals. Question is, what to do? Need a decent job that only lasts for about 6 months. Anyone have any ideas? Cool ones?
5. Get a creative hobby or outlet.
This goes along with the first thing. I am a very imaginative person but haven't developed an output for that creativity. I need to find some way to express it. I've kept it dormant and suppressed for so long that it's starting to fade. I need to find an outlet, let it breathe, develop it. I just have no idea where to start or how to go about doing that.
6. Quit being so skeptical and argumentative/opinionated.
I have found myself arguing with friends over nothing and just being very skeptical and doubtful and just assuming that they are wrong because I don't agree with them. I realize it and it makes me even more annoyed so I keep arguing. I never used to be that bad though I have always been a bit of a skeptic when it comes to other peoples opinions. Once again, it ties in to the first goal.
7. Figure out what to do with T.
Let T pull me under for the sake of personal conviction, sense of honor/duty, pride, personal integrity or go against the grain of my existence and cut the rope to survive. Here in lies the solution to the first goal. What to do?
8. Make some new friends.
Variety is the spice of life and friends are always a great thing. Might help with a few of the other goals as well. Expanding a bit, I would like to become better friends with people. I just feel, distant, lately. I have a few really good friends, close friends, ones I know I will always be friends with, ones I can count on no matter what, ones I would do anything for. I have a few good friends, ones I used to be much closer with but have grown apart from due to stupid, petty shit on both sides, not helped by my skepticism and argumentation. I have some good friends, ones that I would really enjoy being closer with but am not able to or can't seem to do what I need to. I think the problem is mine. I have never been much of a talker, I'm the strong, silent type, and have never been good at expressing myself through speech. I'm the kind, thoughtful, very attentive, quiet guy mostly alone in the crowd. I have the hardest time coming up with small talk and chatting people up. I also have a hard time phrasing a conversation to clearly get my thoughts across. I either can't say it correctly or I am too ambiguous and people infer a different point or I say it how I am thinking it but my explanation is not at all what I mean because I don't know how to express the whole thought. Kinda like a dictionary, you have the word then all the definitions and when I have the thought in my head, I see all the different uses and meanings but I can only manage to say the first one. I need to find Conversation for Dummies!
9. Get rid of old shit and clean out the basement.
I suffer from TMS. Too Much Shit. I've got way too much crap, stuff I don't use, ever, but that someday I might. It kinda runs in the family. My crap happens to be stored in the corner of my parents basement. To get to the corner my stuff is in, you walk through a narrow walkway that is lined with boxes, empty and full, turn the corner into another room where there's old toys from 30 years ago piled up on one side and empty, some old some new, suitcases, duffels, backpacks, and luggage in a pile on the other, this room is also piled high with boxes, books, miscellaneous garbage with a walkway through the middle which is blocked halfway down by a mattress and box spring set which I have to tilt from leaning against my pile of crap in the corner to the other pile of crap on the other side. The whole basement is like that. It's ridiculous. But I am finally home for more than a month and I can get rid off all the junk! Yay! Going to be a major project though and I have to at least go through my stuff.
and the marathon entry comes to an end...
Yay me!!!!
Off the ice and in New Zealand! I love this place! It rawks!!! Just got back from a week on the beach in Takaka at one of my friend's houses. It is a way cool place to stay. Very nice.
Heading to the Dux de Lux in Christchurch on Wednesday for a Sean Corkery and Quinn show. They are really good and played at the Mussely Inn in Takaka last weekend. That should be lots of fun.
Then I am off to Wanaka/Twizel for a week to hang out with some friends and kick back and relax. I'll be back in Chch for St. Paddy's Day on the 17th then back to Auckland/LA/Denver on the 18th. Yay! Can't wait...
Will update when possible
Off the ice and in New Zealand! I love this place! It rawks!!! Just got back from a week on the beach in Takaka at one of my friend's houses. It is a way cool place to stay. Very nice.
Heading to the Dux de Lux in Christchurch on Wednesday for a Sean Corkery and Quinn show. They are really good and played at the Mussely Inn in Takaka last weekend. That should be lots of fun.
Then I am off to Wanaka/Twizel for a week to hang out with some friends and kick back and relax. I'll be back in Chch for St. Paddy's Day on the 17th then back to Auckland/LA/Denver on the 18th. Yay! Can't wait...
Will update when possible
Almost back to normal...
We are in the middle of ship offload right now, though it's almost over, and, of course, my birthday falls right in the middle of it so everyone is working 7 / 12's and is absolutely exhausted, the weather has gotten quite a bit colder and shittier, and all the bars are closed Damn the luck...
But only about 2 weeks left! Yay!!! Then off to where ever whim takes me.
So, my current vice/addiction is Alias. Very intriguing show. Kim had the first 2 or 3 seasons on DVD and I am watching them. She has the best outfits EVER for a TV show. My god man, I wanna know who the does the costumes for that show!!!
I know I am horrible at updating this journal but there really isn't much going on and it's kinda hard to access Sg from the public kiosk...
We are in the middle of ship offload right now, though it's almost over, and, of course, my birthday falls right in the middle of it so everyone is working 7 / 12's and is absolutely exhausted, the weather has gotten quite a bit colder and shittier, and all the bars are closed
Damn the luck...But only about 2 weeks left! Yay!!! Then off to where ever whim takes me.
So, my current vice/addiction is Alias. Very intriguing show. Kim had the first 2 or 3 seasons on DVD and I am watching them. She has the best outfits EVER for a TV show. My god man, I wanna know who the does the costumes for that show!!!
I know I am horrible at updating this journal but there really isn't much going on and it's kinda hard to access Sg from the public kiosk...
Hello, hello, hello... is there any body out there?
WOW!!! What a day! It was GREAT!!! tons of fun, as Ice Stock usually is. gotta say, Run FNG Run took the cake. And it wasn't just because it was Ilko, Swindy, the Tony, and Dish or because they called us up on stage to sing a song with them, they just have their shit together. I've never been much of a guitar fan, much more of a bass/drums fan. The tony is such a rockstar (of course) but he's gotten really fuckin good!!! Damn, they rocked!!! Even better than the Sara Russel band, which is hard to beat. Sara is too much fun. good times tho. then i moved "the poof" to the 211 lounge and set up the new toy, the projector, and we watched the extended version of Return of the King. Way cool! Reminded me of Fleur when I saw Arwen...
This X-mas and New Year's have been so good. It's great. Ok, can't ramble too much more. Have a great year and have lots of fun!!!
WOW!!! What a day! It was GREAT!!! tons of fun, as Ice Stock usually is. gotta say, Run FNG Run took the cake. And it wasn't just because it was Ilko, Swindy, the Tony, and Dish or because they called us up on stage to sing a song with them, they just have their shit together. I've never been much of a guitar fan, much more of a bass/drums fan. The tony is such a rockstar (of course) but he's gotten really fuckin good!!! Damn, they rocked!!! Even better than the Sara Russel band, which is hard to beat. Sara is too much fun. good times tho. then i moved "the poof" to the 211 lounge and set up the new toy, the projector, and we watched the extended version of Return of the King. Way cool! Reminded me of Fleur when I saw Arwen...
This X-mas and New Year's have been so good. It's great. Ok, can't ramble too much more. Have a great year and have lots of fun!!!
