I think your mind was already set to leave the moment you wrote this blog, and I'm sorry to hear that
because there's no denying we adore your sets and that your beauty is immense, but beyond the physical I'm going to miss reading your lyrics/poems, miss that melancholy about life and loneliness you write about so vividly and how I can relate to that, but I'm going to miss hearing about your desire and craving for music and growing musically the most

I always thought of SuicideGirls as more of an online community than anything else: A place to chat, leave comments on the boards and on the blogs. I've found the SGs and the members to be smarter and nicer than the people I encounter in real life. I really love this site. I just wish you'd stay and remain part of it.

Tough choices, yes. I'm sure you'll make the right choice for you.
I don't see SG as essentially sexual. It's more sensual than sexual, I think. I think that's the goal, anyway.
There are no graphic sexual images in any of the sets I've looked at.
If you want to prevent anyone from having sexual thoughts about you, you'll have to become a nun and wear the penguin suit for the rest of your life (and even that won't work for some people.) Or, join Islam and wear a shapeless black bag and veil. Neither are very realistic choices.
I, too, would like you to remain a part of the SG community.

Ahhh... well this is something that truly you have to follow your base instinct and your heart for. I stopped going out for a long time because personally many things were (and some still) not right with how I felt about others. I am also a musician, now solo, and I can tell you that it isn't easy sometimes. To get people to see what you are on the inside is sometimes only something that time alone can help you with.

In my humble opinion, from some of your photos, I can definitely see that there is easily so much more to your character, which is why I find you adorable and real. I am touched (as I'm sure others are too) and happy to know you exist. For a lot of us humble souls, that is all we could hope for to keep it together in such a world. Let me say that I for one, stand by whatever you decide as long as it makes you happy, and helps you evolve to that beautiful human being you deserve to be. There's always MySpace to keep in contact with those you have grow to call friends in the end.

Meilleurs voeux mon cherie, et vous bénisse!

whether you stay or you go, i wish you luck in all you do!