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MAY 25, 2008 @ 10:28 AM

an other try in English this time (hope i don't make mistakes):

You believe me young, beautiful and fresh,
You think I have my life before me
But if you come closer
You'll see (I am not what i seem to be)

You'll see that my body is so rotten from the inside
that life escapes, leaving only that rottenness I try to hide, infesting me

You'll see my smile does not smile to life
but to the death that guide each of my steps
My eyes does not shine happinness
but are blinded by tears of hate, of disgust

you'll see that my too short skirts are just an illusion of that false youth and naivete,
you try to take advantage of
that all my efforts to remain a pure little girl were in vain
and i feel so dirty, so old and useless now

You'll see i suffer so much from my hatred, that i hurt myself
So you can punish me too, i don't feel anything anymore at all

You'll see if i avoid your gaze
it is because i am ashamed of what i am
and i fear what i see in your eyes

So you 'll say to yourself
that you don't want to waste time with me
as you live, and you have your life before you
that i have no reason to complain
and i would continue my path all alone, without you
hoping that one day you will understand
and take me in your arms, give me your hand
coz i have nothing more to live now
except only that.

(thanks to soix for helping me to translate it)


and as usual:
leave me love on my hopefull set!!

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ABE83

ABE83

I'm lost
January 2008

MAY 25, 2008 10:31 AM

Great wrighting smile

bald_eagle

bald_eagle

Indianapolis, IN
November 2006

MAY 25, 2008 11:44 AM

Vous avez le sembler beau, et vous êtes beau. Vous êtes jeune et frais. Permettre à d'autres de voir votre beauté ne la diminue pas. (Excusez svp les Français faibles.)

rabiddedbare

rabiddedbare

I'm lost
February 2006

MAY 25, 2008 12:12 PM

biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin

drowyn

drowyn

Austin, TX
October 2005

MAY 25, 2008 12:38 PM

You have such a deep burning gaze...and the ability to capture the view.

Peace to you.

Light_Bringer

Light_Bringer

Raleigh, NC
October 2007

MAY 25, 2008 03:41 PM

I really like it.

Hey, are you familiar with the bands Alcest and Amesoeurs? They're both incredible.

smokebombhill

smokebombhill

Providence, RI
January 2008

MAY 25, 2008 04:04 PM

Beaux mots, mademoiselle. love kiss

Light_Bringer

Light_Bringer

Raleigh, NC
October 2007

MAY 25, 2008 05:17 PM

Yeah, both of those groups are French. Here are some links:

Alcest

Amesoeurs

Dimmu Borgir is my favorite Metal group. We do have a lot of groups in common.

Light_Bringer

Light_Bringer

Raleigh, NC
October 2007

MAY 25, 2008 05:37 PM

I had a friend here recommend both groups to me. I instantly fell in love with them both. It all really is beautiful music. Neige is the mastermind in these groups, and he's also in a French Black Metal group called Peste Noire (another favorite of mine).

soix

soix

USA
April 2004

MAY 25, 2008 06:20 PM

Wow....I think it was pretty close to what I thought you meant....but even better written than my translation!
Aside from that, i see someone pretty special just wanting to feel ok...and you will. kisskiss

Twinace

Twinace

Redondo Beach, CA
June 2004

MAY 25, 2008 06:42 PM

I think we all feel that way.
Eckhart Tolle has some good advice in his books. You may want to check them out.
Hope you are having a great weekend!

Tunnel_Vision

Tunnel_Vision

Westbrook, CT
November 2007

MAY 25, 2008 07:42 PM

Wow smile

Altamedic

Altamedic

High Level, AB
September 2006

MAY 25, 2008 08:39 PM

lots of love sent to your set ((not hard to do considering you are by far the sexiest lady on this whole site!!!)) and love you thoughts.....hugs

ImAPoseur

ImAPoseur

Watertown, NY
November 2007

MAY 25, 2008 10:19 PM

It's kind of weird because my mom is 100% German, and all my relatives on her side are actually in Germany and don't really know any English, but yet I don't speak a word of it, LOL. I wish my mom would have taught me when I was younger, but oh well.

JoeMallik

JoeMallik

Milwaukee, WI
April 2007

MAY 26, 2008 01:02 AM

Ah, my dear, you do need some psychological help. You don't need their drugs, at least not for long-term use, but you need some counseling. You hate your mom? Because she failed to protect you from a certain situation? Or maybe she _was_ the situation? Fine, go ahead and hate her. Live for the day when you can shit on her grave. And yet... feel sorry for her, too. What she did to you she did because...someone did it to her, too. This kind of thing runs in families. You have the opportunity to break the cycle. Dying is easy, it is living that takes courage. You need to find a way to turn your self-pity into anger. Clear, bright, sharp, anger. And then do something creative with it. I don't know what, but the anger may take your life into a completely different direction.
Whatever she did, or failed to do, that's on her, NOT you.
Repeat after me, "It's not my fault. It's not my fault. It's not my fault....."

gregnog

gregnog

Rancho Cucamonga, CA
January 2006

MAY 26, 2008 02:01 PM

im not sure what it is but you smoke it and trip out for like 15 minutes then you are done. i feels like you are flying through space. there is no come down either ARRR!!! ARRR!!!

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