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JESSIEMARIEP (7:27:59 PM): W@hat's up Benthra
Darkfist 1 (7:28:08 PM): hey
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:09 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:20 PM): you still madely in love like me?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:43 PM): I'm in love with a klepto maniak bipolar lunatic
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:10 PM): he's on xiprexa and depakote
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:23 PM): I'm on abilify and lithium
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:45 PM): he sounded pretty miserable the last time I talked to him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:27 PM): I told him I would give him his space and he could call me when he's ready BUT I HAVE TO TORMENT HIM
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:37 PM): I really want to talk to him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:53 PM): so I'm trying not to call him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:06 PM): Fuck it I'm calling him now
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:11 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:25 PM): undecided imulsed in half
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:37 PM): impulses of halves
Darkfist 1 (7:32:19 PM): awesome
JESSIEMARIEP (7:34:17 PM): ok I feel better now
JESSIEMARIEP (7:35:09 PM): :-$hhhhuuuuaaahhhggggg AAAAAaaaahhhhhhh sigh of content
JESSIEMARIEP (7:36:22 PM): I just hope I can torment him into tormenting me back with words and touch & healing rocks and such
JESSIEMARIEP (7:36:53 PM): GOD I WANT HIS ASS BLOOD SO BAD
Darkfist 1 (7:37:01 PM): what the heck
JESSIEMARIEP (7:37:13 PM): I've never really had a true crussh before
Darkfist 1 (7:37:23 PM): why is this any different
JESSIEMARIEP (7:37:42 PM): because it works psycologicaly on every level
JESSIEMARIEP (7:38:46 PM): its not just liking some one Its wanting to consume eachothers brain for eternity wheather its eating it cuz your a zombie or degenerating it cuz your a klepto
Darkfist 1 (7:39:18 PM): are you still fucking that one guy
JESSIEMARIEP (7:41:10 PM): the consept of every thing I loved and wanted scince 2003 manifest in something that didn't understand me when it tried to imitate what was important to me and couldn't understand my articulation even though deep down I know he did the game of trying to see whaqt makes me tick how to seduce me how to destroy me how to truely have me
JESSIEMARIEP (7:42:39 PM): its keeping me bound in anticipation the more I talk about knowing from the first time I saw him walk b y me in the hall (Clown love) (the dark carnival) A drunken ninja master who I had to seduce to see me
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:02 PM): It totaly worked
Darkfist 1 (7:43:15 PM): did you move?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:29 PM): I wasn't thinking about him two much or the whole story of what happened
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:47 PM): I was in a mental institution for a while
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:58 PM): 7-28to8-10
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:06 PM): so was he
Darkfist 1 (7:44:35 PM): did you move
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:41 PM): I want to seduce him into playing with me for eternity
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:54 PM): but he's gotten my mind wriong this far
JESSIEMARIEP (7:45:24 PM): so I'm guessing he'll go with the abandon Jess theory until I can proove him wrong
JESSIEMARIEP (7:46:12 PM): I just want to hear happiness in his voice and look in his eyes and laugh about every thing we both know again
Darkfist 1 (7:46:15 PM): did you move
JESSIEMARIEP (7:46:45 PM): no still by chatfeild resivor just not living with him on a mental health hold any more
Darkfist 1 (7:47:01 PM): ar eyou going to move?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:47:13 PM): oh yeah I met a girl named KC who might be a potential room mate
JESSIEMARIEP (7:48:37 PM): both of us need to get some money together I could move to portland I just don't want to right now cuz I feel atached to my computer and I would have to rent a car to take my computer to portland probably and the shit I would wwant up there
JESSIEMARIEP (7:48:56 PM): and my friend up there might move back here any ways
JESSIEMARIEP (7:50:09 PM): basicly I wana work at the whole foods in cherry creek by the mall but I need to convince or a doctor needs to convince my mom that I am capable of sainly and responsibly driving it
JESSIEMARIEP (7:50:53 PM): or I just need to find some onje in CC and sleep on their caoch and pay some rent and make my art and work at whole foods
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:07 PM): get discounts on eucaliptus oil
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:31 PM): The happier walgreens thats truely fake and evil
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:41 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:17 PM): rich evil people tend to accept their egos and matterialistic needs more
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:30 PM): in a clepto wway
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:46 PM): It would be so much fun
JESSIEMARIEP (7:53:12 PM): I have a ssi benefits for disability interveiw tomaro
JESSIEMARIEP (7:54:31 PM): I want madicade but if I end up with a check tooo (whitch they say will never happen the first time) then I could concievalby get a really shitty concreate box studio apt and work pout of that
JESSIEMARIEP (7:55:40 PM): I guess I could start asking around who's looking for roomates that I could live will and not piss off to no end
JESSIEMARIEP (7:57:00 PM): but for now the "in a few months goal maybe a couplle" I'm thinking my friend kc might be good she has a fiance too maybe he'd want to move in too maybe not we haven't talked about it that elaborqately
JESSIEMARIEP (7:57:51 PM): but if anything my friend Jeff should be getting a house and concievably I could rent a room or basement or closet or some shit from him then
"Darkfist 1" signed off at 8:00:53 PM.
Some how I need to make a power point or something about my positive volatility and optomom production "do what the fuck I want to" plan to my mom so that she won't think I'm evil for not having a job and I can sell abunch of cool shit I make on ebay and treasures lying around so I can make money and maybe do some art walks abnd stuff maybe build a real portfolio of some kind and show it (probably wopnt do that) sell some poems or submit them for sale freelance and sell bs
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Just a bunch of meaning less trash From !A-time not far from her aka last night
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JESSIEMARIEP (7:27:59 PM): W@hat's up Benthra
Darkfist 1 (7:28:08 PM): hey
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:09 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:20 PM): you still madely in love like me?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:28:43 PM): I'm in love with a klepto maniak bipolar lunatic
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:10 PM): he's on xiprexa and depakote
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:23 PM): I'm on abilify and lithium
JESSIEMARIEP (7:29:45 PM): he sounded pretty miserable the last time I talked to him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:27 PM): I told him I would give him his space and he could call me when he's ready BUT I HAVE TO TORMENT HIM
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:37 PM): I really want to talk to him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:30:53 PM): so I'm trying not to call him
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:06 PM): Fuck it I'm calling him now
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:11 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:25 PM): undecided imulsed in half
JESSIEMARIEP (7:31:37 PM): impulses of halves
Darkfist 1 (7:32:19 PM): awesome
JESSIEMARIEP (7:34:17 PM): ok I feel better now
JESSIEMARIEP (7:35:09 PM): :-$hhhhuuuuaaahhhggggg AAAAAaaaahhhhhhh sigh of content
JESSIEMARIEP (7:36:22 PM): I just hope I can torment him into tormenting me back with words and touch & healing rocks and such
JESSIEMARIEP (7:36:53 PM): GOD I WANT HIS ASS BLOOD SO BAD
Darkfist 1 (7:37:01 PM): what the heck
JESSIEMARIEP (7:37:13 PM): I've never really had a true crussh before
Darkfist 1 (7:37:23 PM): why is this any different
JESSIEMARIEP (7:37:42 PM): because it works psycologicaly on every level
JESSIEMARIEP (7:38:46 PM): its not just liking some one Its wanting to consume eachothers brain for eternity wheather its eating it cuz your a zombie or degenerating it cuz your a klepto
Darkfist 1 (7:39:18 PM): are you still fucking that one guy
JESSIEMARIEP (7:41:10 PM): the consept of every thing I loved and wanted scince 2003 manifest in something that didn't understand me when it tried to imitate what was important to me and couldn't understand my articulation even though deep down I know he did the game of trying to see whaqt makes me tick how to seduce me how to destroy me how to truely have me
JESSIEMARIEP (7:42:39 PM): its keeping me bound in anticipation the more I talk about knowing from the first time I saw him walk b y me in the hall (Clown love) (the dark carnival) A drunken ninja master who I had to seduce to see me
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:02 PM): It totaly worked
Darkfist 1 (7:43:15 PM): did you move?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:29 PM): I wasn't thinking about him two much or the whole story of what happened
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:47 PM): I was in a mental institution for a while
JESSIEMARIEP (7:43:58 PM): 7-28to8-10
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:06 PM): so was he
Darkfist 1 (7:44:35 PM): did you move
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:41 PM): I want to seduce him into playing with me for eternity
JESSIEMARIEP (7:44:54 PM): but he's gotten my mind wriong this far
JESSIEMARIEP (7:45:24 PM): so I'm guessing he'll go with the abandon Jess theory until I can proove him wrong
JESSIEMARIEP (7:46:12 PM): I just want to hear happiness in his voice and look in his eyes and laugh about every thing we both know again
Darkfist 1 (7:46:15 PM): did you move
JESSIEMARIEP (7:46:45 PM): no still by chatfeild resivor just not living with him on a mental health hold any more
Darkfist 1 (7:47:01 PM): ar eyou going to move?
JESSIEMARIEP (7:47:13 PM): oh yeah I met a girl named KC who might be a potential room mate
JESSIEMARIEP (7:48:37 PM): both of us need to get some money together I could move to portland I just don't want to right now cuz I feel atached to my computer and I would have to rent a car to take my computer to portland probably and the shit I would wwant up there
JESSIEMARIEP (7:48:56 PM): and my friend up there might move back here any ways
JESSIEMARIEP (7:50:09 PM): basicly I wana work at the whole foods in cherry creek by the mall but I need to convince or a doctor needs to convince my mom that I am capable of sainly and responsibly driving it
JESSIEMARIEP (7:50:53 PM): or I just need to find some onje in CC and sleep on their caoch and pay some rent and make my art and work at whole foods
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:07 PM): get discounts on eucaliptus oil
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:31 PM): The happier walgreens thats truely fake and evil
JESSIEMARIEP (7:51:41 PM): :-)
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:17 PM): rich evil people tend to accept their egos and matterialistic needs more
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:30 PM): in a clepto wway
JESSIEMARIEP (7:52:46 PM): It would be so much fun
JESSIEMARIEP (7:53:12 PM): I have a ssi benefits for disability interveiw tomaro
JESSIEMARIEP (7:54:31 PM): I want madicade but if I end up with a check tooo (whitch they say will never happen the first time) then I could concievalby get a really shitty concreate box studio apt and work pout of that
JESSIEMARIEP (7:55:40 PM): I guess I could start asking around who's looking for roomates that I could live will and not piss off to no end
JESSIEMARIEP (7:57:00 PM): but for now the "in a few months goal maybe a couplle" I'm thinking my friend kc might be good she has a fiance too maybe he'd want to move in too maybe not we haven't talked about it that elaborqately
JESSIEMARIEP (7:57:51 PM): but if anything my friend Jeff should be getting a house and concievably I could rent a room or basement or closet or some shit from him then
"Darkfist 1" signed off at 8:00:53 PM.
Some how I need to make a power point or something about my positive volatility and optomom production "do what the fuck I want to" plan to my mom so that she won't think I'm evil for not having a job and I can sell abunch of cool shit I make on ebay and treasures lying around so I can make money and maybe do some art walks abnd stuff maybe build a real portfolio of some kind and show it (probably wopnt do that) sell some poems or submit them for sale freelance and sell bs
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Just a bunch of meaning less trash From !A-time not far from her aka last night
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