Sorry I haven't been around for a bit, but I'm pretty much over this site. It's been sorta' building for a while, and it's come to an official head tonight. Long story short, I'm pretty disgusted with the "real" SuicideGirls and I'm writing this blog in order to get my account zotted. I'll include some helpful literature at the end in order to both inform you further of what I'm talking about and to expedite the process.
Speaking on a personal level, the first straw, for me, was when I began to notice just how many sets of fake tits were going pink. Now, let me come out on record right now as saying I have absolutely nothing against people that choose to have breast augmentation surgery. However, the fact that this site is marketed as a supposed alt porn website and features girls like Lovely is a fucking laugh.
The second incident occurred when I voiced that very opinion in the Big Boob Appreciation forum and got absolutely lacerated by quite a few members and SuicideGirls. When I stated my opinion that breast augmentation stood contrary to the stated M.O. of the website, I had SGs actually telling me that fake tits are a "body mod", like something like a dermal punch or some shit.
My third run-in was immediately following the most recent site re-model and the bru-hah-hah resulting from a "Suicide Boys" tab being added to the photos link on the site's main page. After browsing some groups I came across a thread in one of the official site forums where scores of SGs were basically running a neck-and-neck race to see who could be the biggest whiny bitch on the issue in question. The very fact that it was a problem to begin with raised my eyebrows. It's a tab that's clearly labeled. The only people that are going to see the photos are the people that want to see the photos. If you don't want to see the photos, don't click the link. But apparently, quite a few SGs like a liberal dose of drama in place of their daily diet of logic. The girls were complaining about things like having to "share the spotlight", which was my first clue of an even bigger issue that I'll touch on momentarily. SGs were being absolutely brutal to the "Suicide Boys" that posted in the thread in response to their complaints, going so far as to call them the crybabies and insult their physical appearances. For a site that "prides" itself on supposedly being a haven for girls that want to escape that very sort of judgment from society as a whole, it seemed quite peculiar indeed that these featured models would go about business this way. I let them know. My account was threatened by a moderator.
Fourth, one afternoon, I was browsing the site's newsfeed when I came across an article about several SGs coming out to attend the premier of "Captivity". I find torture porn to be repulsive as a whole - not because I lack the stomach for it, but rather because it is just that, pornography, devoid of taste or art or purpose or merit of any kind, pointless gore and humiliation and depravity with no underlying story or characters - but "Captivity" was a new low, in my eyes. The entire movie is basically Elisha Cuthbert getting tortured for an hour and a half while the film does its best to present the shorter view that she, in some way, could possibly deserve her fate while at the same time sending the more distant message that one of the reasons she does could be because she's a woman. So, sure, of course, when I think of all those things... I think of "female-empowering woman-friendly rock porn". First thing.
This has gone on too long, so I'll make the rest brief. The site's real owner is a radical right-wing nutjob. The site re-sells its photographs to mainstream pornography sites without compensating or consulting the models. The site's highly-trained team of lawyers is set on permanent attack mode, and the caretakers have no problems whatsoever threatening to sic them on ex-talent. The whole being banned from a website you fucking pay for and probably have paid for for months just because of your opinion thing. The complete and total lack of integrity from a good portion of the models here - "do you wanna buy a print/tee shirt/book me please please please?"
This MySpace profile features a link compilation to a whole shit-ton of articles to tell you everything I just told you, and more, all in gory detail. Enjoy.
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=86101775&blogID=133950207
So, to close, to all the new friends I've made here, it was nice talking to you, and you're the only reason I stayed as long as I did. If you wanna' stay in contact, you can catch me at http://www.myspace.com/darry. I hope you didn't take what I had to say personally. If you choose to enjoy this website, I wish you fun.
And to the pencil-neck that's going to ultimately see this and zot me, I hope you made bank. You already know everything I just said and yet you're still doing this. What does that say about you?
Oh, and fuck Posh.
Speaking on a personal level, the first straw, for me, was when I began to notice just how many sets of fake tits were going pink. Now, let me come out on record right now as saying I have absolutely nothing against people that choose to have breast augmentation surgery. However, the fact that this site is marketed as a supposed alt porn website and features girls like Lovely is a fucking laugh.
The second incident occurred when I voiced that very opinion in the Big Boob Appreciation forum and got absolutely lacerated by quite a few members and SuicideGirls. When I stated my opinion that breast augmentation stood contrary to the stated M.O. of the website, I had SGs actually telling me that fake tits are a "body mod", like something like a dermal punch or some shit.
My third run-in was immediately following the most recent site re-model and the bru-hah-hah resulting from a "Suicide Boys" tab being added to the photos link on the site's main page. After browsing some groups I came across a thread in one of the official site forums where scores of SGs were basically running a neck-and-neck race to see who could be the biggest whiny bitch on the issue in question. The very fact that it was a problem to begin with raised my eyebrows. It's a tab that's clearly labeled. The only people that are going to see the photos are the people that want to see the photos. If you don't want to see the photos, don't click the link. But apparently, quite a few SGs like a liberal dose of drama in place of their daily diet of logic. The girls were complaining about things like having to "share the spotlight", which was my first clue of an even bigger issue that I'll touch on momentarily. SGs were being absolutely brutal to the "Suicide Boys" that posted in the thread in response to their complaints, going so far as to call them the crybabies and insult their physical appearances. For a site that "prides" itself on supposedly being a haven for girls that want to escape that very sort of judgment from society as a whole, it seemed quite peculiar indeed that these featured models would go about business this way. I let them know. My account was threatened by a moderator.
Fourth, one afternoon, I was browsing the site's newsfeed when I came across an article about several SGs coming out to attend the premier of "Captivity". I find torture porn to be repulsive as a whole - not because I lack the stomach for it, but rather because it is just that, pornography, devoid of taste or art or purpose or merit of any kind, pointless gore and humiliation and depravity with no underlying story or characters - but "Captivity" was a new low, in my eyes. The entire movie is basically Elisha Cuthbert getting tortured for an hour and a half while the film does its best to present the shorter view that she, in some way, could possibly deserve her fate while at the same time sending the more distant message that one of the reasons she does could be because she's a woman. So, sure, of course, when I think of all those things... I think of "female-empowering woman-friendly rock porn". First thing.
This has gone on too long, so I'll make the rest brief. The site's real owner is a radical right-wing nutjob. The site re-sells its photographs to mainstream pornography sites without compensating or consulting the models. The site's highly-trained team of lawyers is set on permanent attack mode, and the caretakers have no problems whatsoever threatening to sic them on ex-talent. The whole being banned from a website you fucking pay for and probably have paid for for months just because of your opinion thing. The complete and total lack of integrity from a good portion of the models here - "do you wanna buy a print/tee shirt/book me please please please?"
This MySpace profile features a link compilation to a whole shit-ton of articles to tell you everything I just told you, and more, all in gory detail. Enjoy.
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=86101775&blogID=133950207
So, to close, to all the new friends I've made here, it was nice talking to you, and you're the only reason I stayed as long as I did. If you wanna' stay in contact, you can catch me at http://www.myspace.com/darry. I hope you didn't take what I had to say personally. If you choose to enjoy this website, I wish you fun.
And to the pencil-neck that's going to ultimately see this and zot me, I hope you made bank. You already know everything I just said and yet you're still doing this. What does that say about you?
Oh, and fuck Posh.
Sort of in response to Phoenixgirl's comment on my last blog, I'm going to be attending West Valley College this fall to start my BA in Art and Design with a specialization in Animation and Illustration. I went out today to speak with a councilor and collect financial aid info. After I got home, I squared away some leftover tax stuff and finished a FASFA application. Tomorrow I go back to get a student ID, take my assessment, and register for classes, which will be a drawing class, a color theory class, an intro to philosophy class, and an English course this semester. Busy two days.
This is a boring entry.
This is a boring entry.
First, the gamer nerd shit, then some general life shit. Then pictures of hot naked bitches.
I bought Shadowrun. Everyone I talked to said they didn't like it. I really don't get that, because I'm in fucking love with it. It's like the bastard child of Counter-Strike and Team Fortress. I'm day-dreaming about quitting my job to become a Shadowrun player on the pro circuit.
I applied for college today, for the semester beginning at the end of August. I'm going to quit my full time job, find a part time job, and go to school full time, supplementing my income with a student loan. I'm going to be majoring in Art and Design. I'm excited. To say the least.
Sorry. No hot naked bitches. Unless some poor soul takes pity on you and posts hot naked bitches in the comments of this blog, then you just got tricked into looking over this blog entry in the search for titties. I'd be pissed, if I were you. I wouldn't stand for that shit.
Sayonara!
I bought Shadowrun. Everyone I talked to said they didn't like it. I really don't get that, because I'm in fucking love with it. It's like the bastard child of Counter-Strike and Team Fortress. I'm day-dreaming about quitting my job to become a Shadowrun player on the pro circuit.
I applied for college today, for the semester beginning at the end of August. I'm going to quit my full time job, find a part time job, and go to school full time, supplementing my income with a student loan. I'm going to be majoring in Art and Design. I'm excited. To say the least.
Sorry. No hot naked bitches. Unless some poor soul takes pity on you and posts hot naked bitches in the comments of this blog, then you just got tricked into looking over this blog entry in the search for titties. I'd be pissed, if I were you. I wouldn't stand for that shit.
Sayonara!
First I'll post the fluffy stuff, and then I'll do the bitchin'.
I'm playing the fuck out of Overlord on the 360. I didn't think I'd enjoy it as much as I am. It's like this weird cross between Fable and Pikmin. When I'm not playing that I'm playing Gears of War on Live, entertaining dreams of quitting my job and becoming a pro gamer on the MLG circuit. Just to give you an idea of how good I am, take a rabid raccoon, tie it up in a burlap sack, beat it with a pillowcase filled with doorknobs, and then set it down on top of the controller. It'd probably get a better score than I.
My project at work submits to Microsoft next month, so we'll probably be pushing into crunch time next week. That means crazy overtime and possibly working the weekends.
Speaking of, I'm a little frustrated on a professional level, lately. I kinda' feel like I've peaked. I don't think I'm going to progress any further, in position or pay, without either an investment of time that I don't really feel like I have to give at my age or without some form of paid apprenticeship or schooling. I could sit in an entry-level position and hope to move up to a producer's salary in something like six years, meaning I'd be in my 30s before I even made it into the department I wanted to work in, and that's without a guarantee that'd ever happen in the first place. Or I can work full time, go to school when I can, and bury myself in debt with student loans. Unless I wanted to go to school full time, I'd be graduated at probably the same time I'd be moving up the ladder without school. A tattoo apprenticeship is my biggest hope, but I don't have the money to pay off an artist to allow me to apprentice with him, much less the savings or finances to live without an income for up to a year. I can try and save up a year's salary plus apprenticeship costs plus start-up fees... which will probably take about the same amount of time. And of the three, that's probably the most difficult. Since it's the one I want most, or course.
Sorry. Don't like to get negative. I'm going to do something. I can't sit in this position for much longer. I just haven't really decided on what, yet, and in the uncertainty I'm feeling kinda' bitchy, I guess.
I'm playing the fuck out of Overlord on the 360. I didn't think I'd enjoy it as much as I am. It's like this weird cross between Fable and Pikmin. When I'm not playing that I'm playing Gears of War on Live, entertaining dreams of quitting my job and becoming a pro gamer on the MLG circuit. Just to give you an idea of how good I am, take a rabid raccoon, tie it up in a burlap sack, beat it with a pillowcase filled with doorknobs, and then set it down on top of the controller. It'd probably get a better score than I.
My project at work submits to Microsoft next month, so we'll probably be pushing into crunch time next week. That means crazy overtime and possibly working the weekends.
Speaking of, I'm a little frustrated on a professional level, lately. I kinda' feel like I've peaked. I don't think I'm going to progress any further, in position or pay, without either an investment of time that I don't really feel like I have to give at my age or without some form of paid apprenticeship or schooling. I could sit in an entry-level position and hope to move up to a producer's salary in something like six years, meaning I'd be in my 30s before I even made it into the department I wanted to work in, and that's without a guarantee that'd ever happen in the first place. Or I can work full time, go to school when I can, and bury myself in debt with student loans. Unless I wanted to go to school full time, I'd be graduated at probably the same time I'd be moving up the ladder without school. A tattoo apprenticeship is my biggest hope, but I don't have the money to pay off an artist to allow me to apprentice with him, much less the savings or finances to live without an income for up to a year. I can try and save up a year's salary plus apprenticeship costs plus start-up fees... which will probably take about the same amount of time. And of the three, that's probably the most difficult. Since it's the one I want most, or course.
Sorry. Don't like to get negative. I'm going to do something. I can't sit in this position for much longer. I just haven't really decided on what, yet, and in the uncertainty I'm feeling kinda' bitchy, I guess.
Homophobia is for faggots.
Organizations like the Family Research Council would have you believe that their civil rights are being trampled because they "speak out against homosexuality". Specifically, they are lobbying against hate crime legislation in this country on the grounds that it violates their free speech rights guaranteed to them by the Constitution.
Let's address it on its face. I believe that hate crime legislation is unnecessary. There is no need to punish someone double for committing a crime when there is already a law on the books that punishes that person for committing the crime to begin with. If I murder a black man, the crime isn't that I murdered a black man, it's that I murdered a man. Even if I murdered him specifically because he was a black man, making me go to prison longer than someone who killed another man in a crime of passion is unjust.
Yes, I do believe that our Constitution protects hate speech. Once we begin to allow for restrictions on the free speech clause of the Constitution, we open the door for every group with a personal concern in America to step forward and attempt to curtail our behavior. I think that a strong disdain for hate speech is universal in this country, but what about something like graphic descriptions of sexual acts? What if you could get slammed with a lawsuit or jail time if you were out with a friend giving him the full details on the girl you were with last night and someone overheard you? To some of these people, graphic sexual language, profanity, or hate language is all the same, and they'd just as soon be rid of all of them, which is why we shouldn't be rid of any of them.
That said, there is a world of difference between "discriminating" against Christians and discriminating against homosexuals. Nobody is born a Christian, or a Muslim, or any other homophobic faith. That's why the argument that homosexuality is a choice is so integral to the fundamentalists in this country who would like to go so far as to ban the very existence of homosexuality altogether - it's much more acceptable to openly discriminate against someone who is simply making what you can convince everyone else to be an immoral choice.
But therein lies the rub, therein lies the irony. I place absolutely no value in "morality" beyond my own personal morals - what is moral for me may not be for you, and vice-versa - but to me, it is immoral to choose to discriminate. And that's what this is for these folks. They are choosing to be members of an organization that openly discriminates against homosexuals. Even if you're the sort of person that believes that homosexuality may be immoral, that the Bible is telling us that God is wrathful with sodomy and will punish those that are sexual with the same gender, it is completely within your rights as a Christian to not be discriminative. The Bible tells us in several places that we should not judge others, that that is the sole domain of heaven, that we should love all mankind, even the undesirables, openly and honestly and earnestly. These people choose to be members of this organized religion that has open hostility towards an entire sect of persons that are born a certain way, and then they take that choice a step further by choosing to participate in that bigotry.
So I will squirt absolutely no tears for the trampled free speech of these persons, who only care about free speech when it comes to their ability to spew hate. I will openly mock these folk, as I always have, as I always will, for being a bunch of faggots that can't admit to the fact that this entire thing revolves around how they used to daydream about sucking John Quaraterback's cock and drinking his cum back in high school and entire sections of their brains shut the fuck off because they had clue zero how to deal with that desire.
Fuck all those assholes.
Organizations like the Family Research Council would have you believe that their civil rights are being trampled because they "speak out against homosexuality". Specifically, they are lobbying against hate crime legislation in this country on the grounds that it violates their free speech rights guaranteed to them by the Constitution.
Let's address it on its face. I believe that hate crime legislation is unnecessary. There is no need to punish someone double for committing a crime when there is already a law on the books that punishes that person for committing the crime to begin with. If I murder a black man, the crime isn't that I murdered a black man, it's that I murdered a man. Even if I murdered him specifically because he was a black man, making me go to prison longer than someone who killed another man in a crime of passion is unjust.
Yes, I do believe that our Constitution protects hate speech. Once we begin to allow for restrictions on the free speech clause of the Constitution, we open the door for every group with a personal concern in America to step forward and attempt to curtail our behavior. I think that a strong disdain for hate speech is universal in this country, but what about something like graphic descriptions of sexual acts? What if you could get slammed with a lawsuit or jail time if you were out with a friend giving him the full details on the girl you were with last night and someone overheard you? To some of these people, graphic sexual language, profanity, or hate language is all the same, and they'd just as soon be rid of all of them, which is why we shouldn't be rid of any of them.
That said, there is a world of difference between "discriminating" against Christians and discriminating against homosexuals. Nobody is born a Christian, or a Muslim, or any other homophobic faith. That's why the argument that homosexuality is a choice is so integral to the fundamentalists in this country who would like to go so far as to ban the very existence of homosexuality altogether - it's much more acceptable to openly discriminate against someone who is simply making what you can convince everyone else to be an immoral choice.
But therein lies the rub, therein lies the irony. I place absolutely no value in "morality" beyond my own personal morals - what is moral for me may not be for you, and vice-versa - but to me, it is immoral to choose to discriminate. And that's what this is for these folks. They are choosing to be members of an organization that openly discriminates against homosexuals. Even if you're the sort of person that believes that homosexuality may be immoral, that the Bible is telling us that God is wrathful with sodomy and will punish those that are sexual with the same gender, it is completely within your rights as a Christian to not be discriminative. The Bible tells us in several places that we should not judge others, that that is the sole domain of heaven, that we should love all mankind, even the undesirables, openly and honestly and earnestly. These people choose to be members of this organized religion that has open hostility towards an entire sect of persons that are born a certain way, and then they take that choice a step further by choosing to participate in that bigotry.
So I will squirt absolutely no tears for the trampled free speech of these persons, who only care about free speech when it comes to their ability to spew hate. I will openly mock these folk, as I always have, as I always will, for being a bunch of faggots that can't admit to the fact that this entire thing revolves around how they used to daydream about sucking John Quaraterback's cock and drinking his cum back in high school and entire sections of their brains shut the fuck off because they had clue zero how to deal with that desire.
Fuck all those assholes.
Konichiwa, bitches. That's me using proper Japanese.
I am seriously trying to teach myself some Japanese phrases. I think that when I get around to enrolling in school that I'll consider some Japanese courses. This week I realized that being fluent in a second language is probably very useful professionally. In the line of work I'm in right now, that seems like a good choice for a second language. Plus, were I to ever make it as a tattoo artist, once I knew the language, then I could teach myself kanjii. When someone came to me, they could be sure I wasn't tattooing characters that meant "vaginal discharge" on their arm.
Today, my thoughts run the gamut from the basic to the typical to reflections on patriotism and this nation's history of true patriots. I will refrain from rambling. I'll just say that today, I'm thinking a lot about guys like Thomas Paine and Thomas Jefferson.
I hope you have a fun fourth of July.
I am seriously trying to teach myself some Japanese phrases. I think that when I get around to enrolling in school that I'll consider some Japanese courses. This week I realized that being fluent in a second language is probably very useful professionally. In the line of work I'm in right now, that seems like a good choice for a second language. Plus, were I to ever make it as a tattoo artist, once I knew the language, then I could teach myself kanjii. When someone came to me, they could be sure I wasn't tattooing characters that meant "vaginal discharge" on their arm.
Today, my thoughts run the gamut from the basic to the typical to reflections on patriotism and this nation's history of true patriots. I will refrain from rambling. I'll just say that today, I'm thinking a lot about guys like Thomas Paine and Thomas Jefferson.
I hope you have a fun fourth of July.
Continuing on with the photos from Seattle...
I had a lot of fun on our trip. The time away gave me time to not only explore a lot of cool locations, but to also retreat within myself to stand at my center and refocus. Self-exploration, constant music, great books, wonderful art, delicious beer, yummy tater tots, and good company all tumbled together to inspire me to perhaps try new steps on a new path. Naima and I had the most passionate love-making I've ever experienced laying on a tiny bed in the moonlight beneath the illuminated Seattle skyline. The exploration on whether or not to "swing" in our life ended and the decision, in my mind, was made; rather than diverting my attention in a relationship that I felt was already sufficient, I would focus myself solely on Naima, more than I ever have, and push our love beyond and onto that next level. She seemed to concur.
In other news, I started my job at Bandai/Namco this week, on Tuesday. So far, things have gone okay. I spent the week in training, testing "Pac Man World 3" for the XBox. On Friday, before I left, I was handed my assignment for my first real project. It's an XBox 360 game, but I don't think I can name it, since I don't know if that breaks my NDA. The environment has its quirks, but for the most part, I have no real complaints.
We now have a small home theater in our bedroom that I have way fucking excited about. I am hopefully going to spend the better part of my afternoon cuddled up in our bed and enjoying it. I hope you find a similar nice place to relax and enjoy the rest of your Sunday!
As promised, here's some of the photos Naima and I took on our trip.
To be continued!
I'm home from my road trip. I have a lot of pictures and things to talk about. For now, I need to catch up around my life. I'll talk to you guys soon.
Today, I got a new job. I am going to be working for Namco, or Bandai/Namco as they're known now.
Tomorrow, I'm leaving on a mini-road trip to Washington state. I'll talk to you guys when I get back.
Tomorrow, I'm leaving on a mini-road trip to Washington state. I'll talk to you guys when I get back.
