So many things happenned in such a few time...
- I miss so deeply the only person I was crying with. She was my strength, my anchor. Now I don't know anymore who calling when I'm lost. Actually, there is this stupid reflexe to take my phone, look at 'Mum' to call and realise. No. She's not here anymore. This sentence is SO fucking hard to spell and to understand. Every nigjt I cry. Alone. Cause crying front of anyone is like officialize that she's dead. I still can't. It's like a very deep big black hole inside of me. And I'm always afraid to fall in. So I turn around, trying to not see it... Not falling. Not falling... Turning turning. Again. Faster. Not falling.
- Just before that I broke up with my sweet traveler lover. I realised (finally!) a big thing. It's over with boys. I cannot anymore. They disgust me. It's like that. I don't have to fight. Just accept. I did. Finally... I'm gonna stop crying each time I have sex. I'm gonna stop being afraid of reactions. I DECIDED.
- So now, I'm -not me actually, but my body- looking for a girl. I WANT a girl. Announcement is spent.
- I'm leaving. Again. I knew that I will not be able to stay in place so long... So, I'm leaving to INDIA. I'm dreaming about this country for so long... I think now is the good moment. My spirit needs it. My body needs it. I need it. I'm gonna travel with the girl I love the most there in this life. My room-mate. My Soul Sister. What a promising journey! Isn't it?!...
Soon...
So if one of you has some advice, anything, just MP me! You would be lovely! <3
- I changed my head again!!!
I think this one is one of my favorite! Red-head for real!! Yeah.
- I miss so deeply the only person I was crying with. She was my strength, my anchor. Now I don't know anymore who calling when I'm lost. Actually, there is this stupid reflexe to take my phone, look at 'Mum' to call and realise. No. She's not here anymore. This sentence is SO fucking hard to spell and to understand. Every nigjt I cry. Alone. Cause crying front of anyone is like officialize that she's dead. I still can't. It's like a very deep big black hole inside of me. And I'm always afraid to fall in. So I turn around, trying to not see it... Not falling. Not falling... Turning turning. Again. Faster. Not falling.
- Just before that I broke up with my sweet traveler lover. I realised (finally!) a big thing. It's over with boys. I cannot anymore. They disgust me. It's like that. I don't have to fight. Just accept. I did. Finally... I'm gonna stop crying each time I have sex. I'm gonna stop being afraid of reactions. I DECIDED.
- So now, I'm -not me actually, but my body- looking for a girl. I WANT a girl. Announcement is spent.
- I'm leaving. Again. I knew that I will not be able to stay in place so long... So, I'm leaving to INDIA. I'm dreaming about this country for so long... I think now is the good moment. My spirit needs it. My body needs it. I need it. I'm gonna travel with the girl I love the most there in this life. My room-mate. My Soul Sister. What a promising journey! Isn't it?!...
Soon...
So if one of you has some advice, anything, just MP me! You would be lovely! <3
- I changed my head again!!!
I think this one is one of my favorite! Red-head for real!! Yeah.
- I've one of the most important interview of my life next week. I will maybe leave in Antartica for one year next December... Another dream to come true... Maybe. Cross your fingers please!
It's there:
With them:
And them:
Mmmrrraw!!...
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raimei:
Je pense a toi.
zebrah:
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