I wish i was drunk all the time.
Is it just me or does life feel more honest that way? For some reason the depression I feel now and then when I'm drunk feels so much more honest than any happiness I have sober I often wake up singing and laughing, and despite my life's trouble, I feel a "can do" attitude. And it never feels right.
i fell in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. She told me that she was falling in love with me, and that she was depressed and it had something had to do with living with her boyfriend. So i got a really stupid idea in my head. Despite what my older friends told me, despite my better judgment, despite all that i'm supposed to have achieved by 25 years of age, I decided to just go with the flow. And everything that a drunk old hasbeen might have betted on at the track actually won.
Trying to make my peace with her and saying, "I understand. This won't work. I love you, but it just won't work" I called and did just that. Then I decided to just tell her everything about how I feel. I think friends should be honest. Then her boyfriend came home and she immediately hung up the phone without a word. And there I was talking to a picture on my cell phone.
Now I'm calling her again.
And I'll want to drink in the morning.
Is it just me or does life feel more honest that way? For some reason the depression I feel now and then when I'm drunk feels so much more honest than any happiness I have sober I often wake up singing and laughing, and despite my life's trouble, I feel a "can do" attitude. And it never feels right.
i fell in love with a girl who has a boyfriend. She told me that she was falling in love with me, and that she was depressed and it had something had to do with living with her boyfriend. So i got a really stupid idea in my head. Despite what my older friends told me, despite my better judgment, despite all that i'm supposed to have achieved by 25 years of age, I decided to just go with the flow. And everything that a drunk old hasbeen might have betted on at the track actually won.
Trying to make my peace with her and saying, "I understand. This won't work. I love you, but it just won't work" I called and did just that. Then I decided to just tell her everything about how I feel. I think friends should be honest. Then her boyfriend came home and she immediately hung up the phone without a word. And there I was talking to a picture on my cell phone.
Now I'm calling her again.
And I'll want to drink in the morning.
clairific:
I'm so sorry, bud. You knew the warnings, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. Hope you find a good way to lessen the blow and do the right thing by this one.