I SAW THE SIGN - I OPENED UP MY EYES, I SAW THE SIGN:
I should have my chart read this week. Things seemed to go from bad to worse two weeks ago... Sure, some of it was just that I wasn't getting enough "me" time to write, to hang out at my house alone and listen to my records, to go to movies alone, to write in my journal, etc.. But seriously, things far beyond my control seemed to just keep adding themselves to my plate and I was totally getting crushed under the weight.
But this week things seem to be flowing in a much different current.. And it's affecting my in strange, but wonderful ways. One of the strangest things was my girlfriend slapped together a small homemade book with writing about us inside it. It sounds cheezy, but it was seriously the best present a lover has ever given me. Valentines Day is gonna be good this year. For once in my miserable life.
Also, my old job, and incidentally the most favorite job I've ever had, emailed me and offered me my job back, after a 2 year hiatus. It's running a print shop for an incredibly high profile software corporation here in the Silicon Valley. It's a hell of a commute, but the pay is worth it. I took a leave of absence at the end of March 2001 to go to Europe for tour & some travelling and when I came back they said they couldn't hire me back.. Ouch. So I temped around for awhile, which paid well but there is no stability in it, and then I landed this job I have currently at a retail copy shop. Ugh. And dealing with customer is not my forte'.
Anyways, those two things has got my mind racing about my future and the possibilities of what it holds. The two things, girlfriend and job have been shaky at best in my past, ultimately losing both. Now I am offered a new lease on the same job I didn't appreciate for what it was worth before, and now I have a great girlfriend that I am mature enough to love and care for, which is a big leap from before...
What a strange and metaphysical this has been. I don't go for that karma bullshit, but it's about time that I started recieving some good things and some good feedback from the gods for all of those years of growing up in shit. Cheers!
I should have my chart read this week. Things seemed to go from bad to worse two weeks ago... Sure, some of it was just that I wasn't getting enough "me" time to write, to hang out at my house alone and listen to my records, to go to movies alone, to write in my journal, etc.. But seriously, things far beyond my control seemed to just keep adding themselves to my plate and I was totally getting crushed under the weight.
But this week things seem to be flowing in a much different current.. And it's affecting my in strange, but wonderful ways. One of the strangest things was my girlfriend slapped together a small homemade book with writing about us inside it. It sounds cheezy, but it was seriously the best present a lover has ever given me. Valentines Day is gonna be good this year. For once in my miserable life.
Also, my old job, and incidentally the most favorite job I've ever had, emailed me and offered me my job back, after a 2 year hiatus. It's running a print shop for an incredibly high profile software corporation here in the Silicon Valley. It's a hell of a commute, but the pay is worth it. I took a leave of absence at the end of March 2001 to go to Europe for tour & some travelling and when I came back they said they couldn't hire me back.. Ouch. So I temped around for awhile, which paid well but there is no stability in it, and then I landed this job I have currently at a retail copy shop. Ugh. And dealing with customer is not my forte'.
Anyways, those two things has got my mind racing about my future and the possibilities of what it holds. The two things, girlfriend and job have been shaky at best in my past, ultimately losing both. Now I am offered a new lease on the same job I didn't appreciate for what it was worth before, and now I have a great girlfriend that I am mature enough to love and care for, which is a big leap from before...
What a strange and metaphysical this has been. I don't go for that karma bullshit, but it's about time that I started recieving some good things and some good feedback from the gods for all of those years of growing up in shit. Cheers!