Its been almost 4 years to-the-day since Ive posted on here. I think within those past 4 years Ive only logged on twice maybe 3 times.

Everything in my world has been slowly changing... for the better.

Life:
I was lucky enough to land the most amazing woman I have ever known. She has everything I ever wanted in a person and rocks the shit out of my world. We're in love and thats a first for me.

Mania:
I finally got a proper diagnosis in November of 2009.

After living in an extended period of a painful "mixed state" with extreme paranoia and again more psychotic idealizations I was, at first, reluctantly admitted to a mental hospital outside of Chicago. It was my fourth hospitalization and second longest stay at 11 days (14 days being my longest stay)
It had been around 4 years since my last hospitalization. This time around I was way more receptive to treatment, therapy, group therapy and the biggest part which is finally getting on the best working meds for me that my mind finally responds well to.

so manic bi-polar with agoraphobia, mild hallucinations and occasional heavy social anxiety. Im still working on being able to go to the grocery store by myself and being able to leave the house on a regular basis without panic and fear.

At the hospital one of the therapists keyed me into a wild idea which was boredom and isolation will always result in another mixed state, a manic episode, and or another hospitalization.

tattoo:
Just got a few new ones and have appointments for a few more.

I cant find any good artists that have the style i like around here. so I have a lot more traveling to do ahead of me... hurray!

car:
im in the works of getting my 62 meteor to be shipped down here to Florida (where im living till 2012) so i can make it a street creeper and all the badass shit. its all money though so its a slow process.

art:
Im rebuilding my motion graphics website to gear it more towards abstract and experimental video pieces and focus less on the actual horse shit business side of video stuff... since i only do it freelance now. Im siked to have a website thats more about video art than just a site to get work.

I have a few painting projects im undertaking, as well as a whole series of mixed media projects. Im busting ass hard on these 3 things cause someday id like to be a part of a show where i can show not just painting and mixed media but also experimental videos. but thats really only a dream right now... if it happens, it happens.

Thats it for now.

OH. i also started a flickr page. when things level out im gunna upload more skateboard stuff art projects and tattoo type things.... when they happen.

and i just uploaded this video to the site


its my last (unfinished) skate video from 2001. during making it i got hit by an SUV which destroyed my knee and had lost all my sponsors.

so making steps again...


UPDATE:
Thanks to all the people who have expressed their best wishes, concerns, hopes and kind words (this is mostly in response to the mental health stuff). Its been at times a real shit road along the way but being open and upfront is very helpful and therapeutic for me. I know its a lot to take in and is a major turn off to many (even "open minded") people. But I guess thats all just a part of being alive.

Thanks everyone