Well, this time I avoided jinxes at all and got to see the friend, which was good.
That's the problem- its always good and I feel I'm trusting her again, then it gets distant.
Oh well. Small bricks placed into the wall are better than none at all.
Strangely enough, while waiting for her a girl came up started chatting to me, which never happens, and I mean never; I have complete date-o-phobia so I don't approach girls and it's generally the blokes who are supposed to do that... which is probably a vicious circle...
But at least it happens I suppose, so perhaps it will when not about to meet somebody I'm still kind of in limbo with!
Anyway I hope this kickstarts us carrying on getting to know eachother again, as friends or whatever. Once that's settled and I feel comfortable knowing her, I really think I'll feel comfortable with the phobia again.
Its just difficult- she went off to the 'bathroom' and I'm pretty sure I saw her outside crying before she came back, but I don't know- she's been up and down recently and I can only be friendly and help when she asks.
Apart from that, I simplified and punkified my sleeve design/s but need to get a proper consultation etc so I know how it'll all fit together.
And job wise, I just can't get to the airport, I know I perhaps should have worked out the cost involved and whether there was a night service before I signed up, but hey- at least I didn't start, get the training then started being unreliable.
I'd still like to work for a charity tho so I'm going to keep applying for that, and perhaps something will come up before I get an offer from one of thise nasty corporate retail jobs.
That's the problem- its always good and I feel I'm trusting her again, then it gets distant.
Oh well. Small bricks placed into the wall are better than none at all.
Strangely enough, while waiting for her a girl came up started chatting to me, which never happens, and I mean never; I have complete date-o-phobia so I don't approach girls and it's generally the blokes who are supposed to do that... which is probably a vicious circle...
But at least it happens I suppose, so perhaps it will when not about to meet somebody I'm still kind of in limbo with!
Anyway I hope this kickstarts us carrying on getting to know eachother again, as friends or whatever. Once that's settled and I feel comfortable knowing her, I really think I'll feel comfortable with the phobia again.
Its just difficult- she went off to the 'bathroom' and I'm pretty sure I saw her outside crying before she came back, but I don't know- she's been up and down recently and I can only be friendly and help when she asks.
Apart from that, I simplified and punkified my sleeve design/s but need to get a proper consultation etc so I know how it'll all fit together.
And job wise, I just can't get to the airport, I know I perhaps should have worked out the cost involved and whether there was a night service before I signed up, but hey- at least I didn't start, get the training then started being unreliable.
I'd still like to work for a charity tho so I'm going to keep applying for that, and perhaps something will come up before I get an offer from one of thise nasty corporate retail jobs.
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way too much detail? nah... no such thing. you might provide more detail than is feasible for a tattoo, but you can never provide too much info or detail for a tattoo artist (I think... at least you're not handing him the original and saying "yeah... just the buddha and the deities, but can you anime and punkify it for me as well?")
I'm no longer coloured curious, as I've moved onto being coloured intrigued...
definitely looking forward to seeing this once it's done, although ever since you said 'punkified', I've had this image of bhudda with a spiky mohawk...