So I got this while I was away from SG. I got this in Japan, by the artist Matt Ahn.

So once again I got fucked on my orders to go to Japan. Not sure if I'm at the mercy of the Navy now. Can't find out what is out there for me and it's really frustrating cause the system is down and don't know when the server is going to be up and running. Worst part is that I have to be at my next command by September. Not sure if they know, but that is right around the corner. Hopefully I can get the orders that I want. Worst case scenario is that I go IA (Individual Augmentee). Meaning that I would be attach to another unit that is deployed to Afghan or Iraq. Really wish that I can stay in Cali cause my friend from Florida is moving here and it would be nice to have her as a roommate.

On a good note, going back to Florida for Warped Tour in St. Pete. Parents don't know that I'm coming home. I know they will be extremely surprised.

Well wish me luck on getting my orders that I want.

Warped Tour bound...time to knuckle up.

So I got my LASIK done. It's really weird not to have to wear glasses or contacts anymore. It's gonna take me a while to get use to. Not liking the fact that I have to take steroids and antibiotics, but I guess it's the healing process. I just hate the taste of steroid in the back of my throat cause it drips from my eyes.

So this is my first time having a friend with benefits. It's fun and everything, but I guess feelings are getting involved. I don't know if I should stop what we are doing, but we are living in the moment. Trying not to think too far into the future just cause of the fact that I'm leaving hopefully in September. I guess I'll see when the time comes.

So there's two concert going on July 31 that I really want to see. The Norma Jean Tour and Warped Tour. Both are in different locations. I've seen Norma Jean and The Chariot and they are ridiculously good live. But Warped Tour would be my last concert with my friends back home in Florida. It's really a tough decision.

Also I gotta say that Uva Suicide made my day when I received her prints. Thanks again Uva.

It's been a while since I've last posted. Things have been a little crazy, like having a friend with benefits, lasik, and still in limbo on if I'm going to Japan or not. I did some research and not sure if my pup is gonna make the trip with me. I don't think it will be right if he's not with me. He's my little baby that has gotten me through things here in Cali.

Well the glasses who made me who I am will be gone tomorrow, for I will be having LASIK done.

You will be missed...

Now that I'm back in Cali, something just feels different. I don't know if it's just me going back to see all my old friends and getting away from all the drama that Cali has to offer or just being away from work. I guess I've accepted the fact that I'm single again and seems nice for the time being. I know I'm gonna have the feeling of missing someone being next to me, but that will pass in due time. Now I just gotta concentrate on getting my orders to Japan so I can situated. Hopefully I can bring my car there cause I haven't driven it yet since I've gotten back from Afghan. Just due to the fact that the shop is still working on it for almost a year. I know I know I should have taken the car back and done the work myself or took it someone where else. But that would be more time consuming or money.

Now I just can't wait till Warped Tour comes to Ventura and possibly flying back to Florida for that show too.

I want this...

So Friday was a pretty eventful night. My brother passed out hella early for his own party. Never listens to his older brother and didn't eat anything before he got hammered. Two jello shots and he called it a night in his bed. So pretty much spent the rest of the night cleaning up after his messy ass.

Saturday was a fun night. Went to my friend's wedding. He finally tied the knot with high school sweetheart. It's not often now a days that someone marries their high school sweetheart, well I don't hear it. I took my long time friend, who I've had feelings for but never really pursued because i didn't want to ruin the relationship. She feels the same way about me, but I don't know if I should take that risk. I know that feelings with get hurt in the long run cause of the fact that I'm in the military. Long distance relationship don't work out very well for me. I can vouch for three of them lol. I rather her be with someone that can be there for her physically and mentally. I can only offer her one. She's been through some rough times and I really wish that I could have been there for her.

It feels good to see all my old friends that I grew up with in Florida. So I thought that I wouldn't be seeing Florida for a while, but I guess that I'll be back for another friend's wedding. Not sure when that's going to happen but I'm sure within two years. Hopefully by then I'm not totally covered in ink lol.

So I'm back in Florida for my buddy's wedding. Pretty excited cause I'm taking my long time friend with me. We have been there for each other through thick and thin. When I asked her to be my date for the wedding, it just made her world so much better. I miss that feeling of doing something so little and making a big difference in someone else life you know. Well since I've been back, my main concern is my little brother. He's throwing a lingerie party for his 16th birthday. Shit is getting out of control. Worst part is that I'm helping him out and getting him a hotel for his party. I found out that he's no longer with friends with our next door neighbor. They were friends for so long and now they are no longer friends, which is upsetting. I really hate how he is hanging out with the wrong crowd, but i think he needs to learn his lessons and learn the hard way. I just don't how to deal with it cause I'm not here any more to give him guidance and it's not going to help now that I'm getting orders to Japan. Parents can't really do much cause my dad is in his 60's and mom is a push over. She doesn't admit that things are wrong and they want me to tell him what to do. Not sure how he's going to listen to me when he doesn't really care about others but himself. What to do???

So it's been a while since I last wrote a blog. Pretty much had a rough week. Found out that my orders got cancelled to stay in California, so now I'm at the needs of the Navy. They need me in Japan or Hawaii. I know both places are great, but I prefer to go to Japan right now. Maybe getting away from the things will be good for me. Plus if I go to Japan, I can get more ink done and keep with the theme that i have. Speaking of that, this is what I got done yesterday: