In a previous comment on my blog I got accused of doing three different things by one person that I initially thought were complete fabrication. I saw them and thought either that I most have some how made same very strong enemies very fast or blacked out drunk without even realizing I black out (I swear I would remember any serious holes in my memory) and then did some horrible things I would never normally think of doing. I will none the less write down what I was accused of and what I see as the only logical explanations.
First I was accused of telling girls date rape jokes. This one really through me for a loop because I don't even know any date rape jokes so how could I tell them. I than finally made the connection, what had happened was the day before I had been told a joke from a friend that he was using to explain the type of humor the show was about. I will write the joke down in a few lines, but I will put it in spoilers so if you don't want to read it you don't have to. The next day, after only my first drink of the day I was walking down the street from pub to pub with several SGUK members at an event, and one of them kept talking about a kitten. This reminded me of the joke I had heard the previous day, so first I warned that the conversation reminded me of a really bad joke I shouldn't say. They said something along the lines of not to be worried they wouldn't be offensive so I proceeded to tell joke:
First I was accused of telling girls date rape jokes. This one really through me for a loop because I don't even know any date rape jokes so how could I tell them. I than finally made the connection, what had happened was the day before I had been told a joke from a friend that he was using to explain the type of humor the show was about. I will write the joke down in a few lines, but I will put it in spoilers so if you don't want to read it you don't have to. The next day, after only my first drink of the day I was walking down the street from pub to pub with several SGUK members at an event, and one of them kept talking about a kitten. This reminded me of the joke I had heard the previous day, so first I warned that the conversation reminded me of a really bad joke I shouldn't say. They said something along the lines of not to be worried they wouldn't be offensive so I proceeded to tell joke:
I thought that I had covered may basses by say it wasn't PC and I thought the humor is one way you can relate to people that you have just met. I may be very dense but I can not see how this is a date rape joke. It might make people who didn't know it was a joke think I didn't have sex with humans or something, but how does this make me come off as some sleazy disgusting asshole date rapist?
Next I was accused of grinding up against someone in a rather graphic manor. I do not possibly see how I could forget about doing this, it is not something I can ever see in my nature, grinding on a random girl, I remember the night pretty well and while I was along we didn't go to any place were people were dancing. I really don't see how it could have happened, not only that but completely slipped my mind. If for some strange reason I can't think of it did happen I feel bad for even writing this and I am terribly sorry, but I feel certain it didn't. The only explanation I can think of is at a previous event at Brighton I had a pole dancing competition with a member and then after words we danced and proceeded to hangout freezing outside in Brighton until my train came in the morning. I swear it was consensual and I have talked to her since. The only thing I can guess is that the member saw this from the wrong light?
Lastly I was accused of slapping some ones ass. I don't see myself just walking up to someone who is standing there and doing this, but if someone was bending over or in some other way sticking out there but I could easily se my self doing this on a regular day and not remembering. I do it to my friends and they do it back all the time, I guess I have just become to desensitized and no longer see or mean it as an at all sexual jester. I do apologize for this act because it upset someone and will try as hard as I can to not do this again to someone that I do not know incredibly well because obviously I am a horrible judge of who will and wont take offense at this.
I am sorry also if this letter sounds kind of mechanical, I had typed the entire thing out earlier but my internet died while I was sending it so this is my second draft of it.
I feel way to embarrassed to write this, but it is really on my mind and i hope by putting it down i can try and resolve it to some degree:
When i woke up today, i saw i had a new letter in my inbox on here, so i get kinda excited. i like getting emails, its great to receive something that someone has sat down and taken some time to compose and don't know its just fun for me and makes me feel cared about. I go to open it and to my dismay (insert really embarrassed sad blushing face) I discover it is a letter telling me that i have been kicked out of SGUK due to complaints about me from the meet yesterday and previous meets. Its sad, the people i met had all seemed like a really nice fun group of people and apparently all i can do is walk in and tread on there toes. For years i have tried to convince myself that other people didn't really matter and that if they didn't like me then they weren't worth my time. As part of trying to grow up and make being here into a great experience, I tried very hard to ignore this disposition. I figured i had a completely blank canvas. I knew almost no one, so i wouldn't have already judged anyone from prier experience or who they were friends with. I broke out of my shell more than i have before. I tried to just go out, meet new people, be wiling to go out on my own and not feel like a loser.
The part that hits me hardest about it is i don't really know what i was doing wrong so i don't know how to fix it in the future so i don't push away and annoy everyone else i meet. Well to some degree i take that back, the one thing that i know i did that wasn't overly appreciated was dancing on a strip poll in brighton and taking off my shirt, but it was made clear that this one event wasn't the main problem. It really kind of scares me that I am alienating people and i am to dull to even figure out how i am doing it. I will admit out of social anxiety and or alcoholism i am probably drinking more than i should around a group of people i don't know particularly well. Still i haven't been blacking out or anything so it is not as if i don't know what i am doing and do things i would see as horrible and forgetting about them later. To end this, even though i am sure you don't read this because i obviously already caused you to dislike me, to anyone i offended, annoyed or in other forms caused displeasure to, i am truly sorry, and to everyone i met, thank you for putting up with me as long as you did, it was a wonderful time. sorry
When i woke up today, i saw i had a new letter in my inbox on here, so i get kinda excited. i like getting emails, its great to receive something that someone has sat down and taken some time to compose and don't know its just fun for me and makes me feel cared about. I go to open it and to my dismay (insert really embarrassed sad blushing face) I discover it is a letter telling me that i have been kicked out of SGUK due to complaints about me from the meet yesterday and previous meets. Its sad, the people i met had all seemed like a really nice fun group of people and apparently all i can do is walk in and tread on there toes. For years i have tried to convince myself that other people didn't really matter and that if they didn't like me then they weren't worth my time. As part of trying to grow up and make being here into a great experience, I tried very hard to ignore this disposition. I figured i had a completely blank canvas. I knew almost no one, so i wouldn't have already judged anyone from prier experience or who they were friends with. I broke out of my shell more than i have before. I tried to just go out, meet new people, be wiling to go out on my own and not feel like a loser.
The part that hits me hardest about it is i don't really know what i was doing wrong so i don't know how to fix it in the future so i don't push away and annoy everyone else i meet. Well to some degree i take that back, the one thing that i know i did that wasn't overly appreciated was dancing on a strip poll in brighton and taking off my shirt, but it was made clear that this one event wasn't the main problem. It really kind of scares me that I am alienating people and i am to dull to even figure out how i am doing it. I will admit out of social anxiety and or alcoholism i am probably drinking more than i should around a group of people i don't know particularly well. Still i haven't been blacking out or anything so it is not as if i don't know what i am doing and do things i would see as horrible and forgetting about them later. To end this, even though i am sure you don't read this because i obviously already caused you to dislike me, to anyone i offended, annoyed or in other forms caused displeasure to, i am truly sorry, and to everyone i met, thank you for putting up with me as long as you did, it was a wonderful time. sorry
Wooooo, so i just have to start with stating that being over here has been wonderful so far. SGUK and all people forced to witness me at such events i would like to greatly thank, you really are a fun group, and anyone who can put up with my shenanigans is fun in my book.
I know i shouldn't say this because i will probably regret it or get jinxed for it, but for the first time in my life i am truly enjoying my job. I know, maybe i'm a nerd, but getting to play with computers and work on designing things that may really get built is rather exciting, that and everyone in the office seems fun. where also do you get to go and party with the people from work, have your job pay for all the alcohol, and get drunk and talk with the guy who is in charge of an entire office of 240?
Last weekend i went down to Brighton and got pleasantly smashed, had some sort of a competition in pole dancing with Sonrisa and discovered how terribly cold it is there in the wee hours and how much beter my bed feels when i get back to it.
For some strange reason they let me show up to another ecent this weekend, so i drank the 7 deadly sins, but i was feeling under the weather so i had to leave early do to the horrible head ache and the like,
In my closing remarks i will say i go my hair done to day and i think it us lovely, maybe i'll change some profile pictures ot something and post it. hope all is well for you all
-oren
I know i shouldn't say this because i will probably regret it or get jinxed for it, but for the first time in my life i am truly enjoying my job. I know, maybe i'm a nerd, but getting to play with computers and work on designing things that may really get built is rather exciting, that and everyone in the office seems fun. where also do you get to go and party with the people from work, have your job pay for all the alcohol, and get drunk and talk with the guy who is in charge of an entire office of 240?
Last weekend i went down to Brighton and got pleasantly smashed, had some sort of a competition in pole dancing with Sonrisa and discovered how terribly cold it is there in the wee hours and how much beter my bed feels when i get back to it.
For some strange reason they let me show up to another ecent this weekend, so i drank the 7 deadly sins, but i was feeling under the weather so i had to leave early do to the horrible head ache and the like,
In my closing remarks i will say i go my hair done to day and i think it us lovely, maybe i'll change some profile pictures ot something and post it. hope all is well for you all
-oren
Woo, haven't been on here in years. The last two/three weeks have mostly been a drunken oblivion. Well, no not entirely but i think it sounds more fun that way. I had to get in my "summer" in two weeks break between school and brake. I was also on chat when i was on this site instead of posting anything. I have now successfully been in London for 4 days, accomplishments include going to my first day of work on Friday. I am working at HOK international, who's office is on trendy oxford st. in the same building as niketown and other such monstrosities. I'm getting paid better than any job so far in the states, but as we all know london is ridiculously expensive, but really i wouldn't wan it any other way. I pretty excited about my job since i get my own desk, computer, phone/phone number that even says my name on the digital read out. It appears I will be spending my time there working on a competition for designing a "aerospace city" in Qatar. aka an airport, university where you learn to do anything that has to do with an occupation of flying or working at an airport, an astro/areo theme park, various commercial space, a residential area, really, a lot of buildings and a master plan for a small city. ONce i finish reading the 250 page brief on it i'll have a little better of an idea.
Now to continue with lists of accomplishments for the last four days. Thursday it was an accomplishment enough to make it from heathrow to were i am briefly staying with family friends. the beginning of friday i covered in my job description, that evening i went down to a random bar right off of Holborn and saw some girls hanging out in very eighties outfits/make up so i had to sit down and invite my self to join them in a drink. Turns out they were waiting to go to an eighties club, so i tagged along.
Saturday i searched for a place to live and found one! I now have a double room all to my lonely in what i can best guess as mooregate. Regardless i put down a deposit and tomorrow or the next day it will be all mine!
Last night i went out to Fabric (a club) stayed there until 7 am and realized somethings about myself that i have been off and on trying to forget/ignore for a long time now. well, i've even managed to bore myself, so thats all for now
best wishes
Now to continue with lists of accomplishments for the last four days. Thursday it was an accomplishment enough to make it from heathrow to were i am briefly staying with family friends. the beginning of friday i covered in my job description, that evening i went down to a random bar right off of Holborn and saw some girls hanging out in very eighties outfits/make up so i had to sit down and invite my self to join them in a drink. Turns out they were waiting to go to an eighties club, so i tagged along.
Saturday i searched for a place to live and found one! I now have a double room all to my lonely in what i can best guess as mooregate. Regardless i put down a deposit and tomorrow or the next day it will be all mine!
Last night i went out to Fabric (a club) stayed there until 7 am and realized somethings about myself that i have been off and on trying to forget/ignore for a long time now. well, i've even managed to bore myself, so thats all for now
best wishes
so previously mentioned blind date contrary to everyones expectations was fun. Apparently i am actually not quite as weird as everyone thinks i am that and after a couple drinks we started getting along great, and we knew a bunch of people mutually that we both disliked so we got to talk shit 
The next day I drove the 500 miles back home to Marin (had to bring all my stuff back or i would have flown). Have been hanging out and partying with my friends back home which is defintly fun. Went to a hooka bar on the haight (which is actually a first for me, usually just smoke hooka in people's garage's) I believe a good time was had by all, even the girl who when we got back to my friends house i had to holder her hair back while she 
in the toilet.
TODAY I FOUND OUT I HAVE A VISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!yayayaya I fly out of this sill country in 12 days! and get to work at HOK international in basically down town london (200 block of oxfard st.
I got ravaged by some wasps (and not the kind that are full of old money) yesterday and the back of my hand looks like it is pregnant; it has led to typing not being on of the most enjoyable experiences, so i am going to keep this short and end here.
hope all is well for you,
-oren
The next day I drove the 500 miles back home to Marin (had to bring all my stuff back or i would have flown). Have been hanging out and partying with my friends back home which is defintly fun. Went to a hooka bar on the haight (which is actually a first for me, usually just smoke hooka in people's garage's) I believe a good time was had by all, even the girl who when we got back to my friends house i had to holder her hair back while she in the toilet.TODAY I FOUND OUT I HAVE A VISA!!!!!!!!!!!!!yayayaya I fly out of this sill country in 12 days! and get to work at HOK international in basically down town london (200 block of oxfard st.
I got ravaged by some wasps (and not the kind that are full of old money) yesterday and the back of my hand looks like it is pregnant; it has led to typing not being on of the most enjoyable experiences, so i am going to keep this short and end here.
hope all is well for you,
-oren
Wooooooooo, i took my last final today and i am done with uni for the year. lets not talk about how i did since i am just hoping at this point to pass all my classes. I was way too burnt out this quarter, but usually at the end of the year that is how it goes.
Last Thursday I went into LA proper (over by universal studios) to see the premier of "Suicide Girls Must Die" (a working title for now i believe?). Its really silly how giddy i was at first seeing Missy and Sash there; i guess i thought i was above the whole thing of worshiping celebrities, but it took till the screening started for me to stop being awkward and nervous. I still feel kinda guilty for being the only person in the entire test audience not to love the film, but i am a weird cynical bastard and found out that i don't fit in as the target audience of "adult male 18-34" but i guess i already knew i was kinda a freak. Since everyone else loved it, and I think it is good to support SG in there numerous ventures I would still highly recommend anyone else to go out and see it/buy it once it is released and I think it has a very good chance of making it to theaters all over. Missy is a total sweet heart in person and even managed to put up with me (a task in its self
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Time to start moving things out of my apartment/dorm all thats left of school is to go to the "bauhaus ball" aka end of the year dance and award ceremony. It should be interesting to say the least; they were desperate for people to go so half jokingly i told the president of the AIAS that i would go and buy two tickets if she came up with a date for me to go with, who knew she actually would do it? Apparently now i have a blind date, and even my professors think the combination of us is a bad idea
Last Thursday I went into LA proper (over by universal studios) to see the premier of "Suicide Girls Must Die" (a working title for now i believe?). Its really silly how giddy i was at first seeing Missy and Sash there; i guess i thought i was above the whole thing of worshiping celebrities, but it took till the screening started for me to stop being awkward and nervous. I still feel kinda guilty for being the only person in the entire test audience not to love the film, but i am a weird cynical bastard and found out that i don't fit in as the target audience of "adult male 18-34" but i guess i already knew i was kinda a freak. Since everyone else loved it, and I think it is good to support SG in there numerous ventures I would still highly recommend anyone else to go out and see it/buy it once it is released and I think it has a very good chance of making it to theaters all over. Missy is a total sweet heart in person and even managed to put up with me (a task in its self
)Time to start moving things out of my apartment/dorm all thats left of school is to go to the "bauhaus ball" aka end of the year dance and award ceremony. It should be interesting to say the least; they were desperate for people to go so half jokingly i told the president of the AIAS that i would go and buy two tickets if she came up with a date for me to go with, who knew she actually would do it? Apparently now i have a blind date, and even my professors think the combination of us is a bad idea
I haven't written on here for a while, partially because i have been really busy, but also i was trying to wait until i had a visa for the UK to brag about, but i still don't know yet.
Last weekend i flew up to San Jose to go to my sisters graduation. It was fun, and rather amusing; she just finished her masters degree in library science. When i got up there i went out for a bit to eat and drinks with her, her husband/my brother in law and a friend of hers and her friends husband. I never realized that people could make it to 25-30 while still being entirely socially awkward, i'm normally i nice person i swear, but i had to hold my self back from accidently making fun of the guy, he just made so many comments that reminded me of myself as an annoying fourth grader. It was really great though getting to see my sister, i freakin' love her, and the lucky duck got a a full time job the day before she graduated. I also got to see my mom and dad which was nice, but better than that i got to drive my father's audi TT he bought literally hours after my spring break was over and i was flying back to school. I think i may have accidently jizzed my pants a little bit getting to drive it, there will always be a week spot in my heart for cars with a good amount of power that can corner well; it really made me miss when i had my 300zx...
The end of the school year is near so i'm trying to teach myself how not to sleep, we will see how it goes. I found out about something that freaked the fucking shit out of me recently, but i am hoping for the best and trying not to worry about it, hopefully its nothing. Well its 2 am so its time to go steal some street signs; no really, i've found one's with a friends first and last name on them and her birthday is coming up so i see it as a fitting present. maybe sometime i will be lame and post some of my architecture projects on here. well good night!
-neor | oren
xoxo
Last weekend i flew up to San Jose to go to my sisters graduation. It was fun, and rather amusing; she just finished her masters degree in library science. When i got up there i went out for a bit to eat and drinks with her, her husband/my brother in law and a friend of hers and her friends husband. I never realized that people could make it to 25-30 while still being entirely socially awkward, i'm normally i nice person i swear, but i had to hold my self back from accidently making fun of the guy, he just made so many comments that reminded me of myself as an annoying fourth grader. It was really great though getting to see my sister, i freakin' love her, and the lucky duck got a a full time job the day before she graduated. I also got to see my mom and dad which was nice, but better than that
i got to drive my father's audi TT he bought literally hours after my spring break was over and i was flying back to school. I think i may have accidently jizzed my pants a little bit getting to drive it, there will always be a week spot in my heart for cars with a good amount of power that can corner well; it really made me miss when i had my 300zx...The end of the school year is near so i'm trying to teach myself how not to sleep, we will see how it goes. I found out about something that freaked the fucking shit out of me recently, but i am hoping for the best and trying not to worry about it, hopefully its nothing. Well its 2 am so its time to go steal some street signs; no really, i've found one's with a friends first and last name on them and her birthday is coming up so i see it as a fitting present. maybe sometime i will be lame and post some of my architecture projects on here. well good night!
-neor | oren
xoxo
Unlike recently previous (and well technically all of my blogs on here) I am writing one on how freakin' awesome i think the world is right now. To start of with I woke up at 2pm (at this point yesterday) checked my hotmail account, and sitting there waiting for me was an email from London! Not only was it from London, but it was from a contact i have there who i have been trying to see if she could get me a summer internship in architecture over there. I had been expecting a yes or no reply a week or so ago, so by this time i had been loosing faith and thought it wouldn't happen. No, i jumped for joy, well actually headbanged for joy, when i saw the email from her titled simply "you have a job!". I didn't need anything more, regardless of other drama I get to go out of the country for 3 monthes, while doing something i like for money, and get to visit the place that was very top on my list of places i wanted to visit once i had the money! YAY i'm going to London in mid June! If anyone is reading this from the UK i would live it if we could hang out, because right now i only have one friend over there and i really want someone to hang out with and show me around the awesome places there. LONDON
I also went to a rave tonight/last night, it was so glorious. I haven't been to one in quite a while, i don't know, maybe close to 9 months and i had forgotten how truly wonderful they are! I can't do ecstasy anymore, or rather i can but the antidepressants i am on keep me from feeling anything from it, but it was just as wonderful. Its just such a fun completely mixed and different group of people yu can just jump around with and have a great time. Gay, straight bi, metal, punk, hip hp, young, old, black, white, Asian, any race, and even scary as it is white supremacists they are all there, getting along, not fighting and having a great time. Just had a great time dancing and jumping around from 11pm to 5am. Well it is light out again, so i should probably start thinking about sleep, espically with all i have to get done in the near future.
I hope that any one who reads this is doing well!
-oren; my real name, just scramble the letters in neor, i figure if you care enough to read my blog you deserve to know my real name.
LONDON I also went to a rave tonight/last night, it was so glorious. I haven't been to one in quite a while, i don't know, maybe close to 9 months and i had forgotten how truly wonderful they are! I can't do ecstasy anymore, or rather i can but the antidepressants i am on keep me from feeling anything from it, but it was just as wonderful. Its just such a fun completely mixed and different group of people yu can just jump around with and have a great time. Gay, straight bi, metal, punk, hip hp, young, old, black, white, Asian, any race, and even scary as it is white supremacists they are all there, getting along, not fighting and having a great time. Just had a great time dancing and jumping around from 11pm to 5am. Well it is light out again, so i should probably start thinking about sleep, espically with all i have to get done in the near future.
I hope that any one who reads this is doing well!
-oren; my real name, just scramble the letters in neor, i figure if you care enough to read my blog you deserve to know my real name.
BLAH! Architecture work and i really aren't getting along. It all needs to be fun, and initial concepts are fun, but then i get over the project and want to move on. I still haven't figured out whether i am going to coachella Friday and Saturday, or whether i should just go on Friday, because i wont have time on Saturday. I needing to be in Silver lake at the VDL house at 8 am on Saturday for our freaking "celebrity" fundraiser breakfast there, but at least it will give me an excuse to play dress up; that i have school work, and i promised i would have a set of drawings done for real work (money) by Sunday :/
Well i think i have sufficiently bitched and whined for now, so its time to make to make a grocery list for tomorrow nights dinner and buy the ingredients so i will be prepared for the weekly Wednesday night dinner with the usual suspects.
I would say good night, but i am sure i will be back later and still haven't decided whether i am going to sleep tonight since i need to be out of the house by 5:15.
hope who ever reads this is doing well
-neor
Well i think i have sufficiently bitched and whined for now, so its time to make to make a grocery list for tomorrow nights dinner and buy the ingredients so i will be prepared for the weekly Wednesday night dinner with the usual suspects.
I would say good night, but i am sure i will be back later and still haven't decided whether i am going to sleep tonight since i need to be out of the house by 5:15.
hope who ever reads this is doing well
-neor
In a very uncharacteristic move i have decided to write a blog. Do you know how much of a bitch it is to be 2 days away from being 21? Sure the last 9 years since i started drinking and couldn't buy it myself were a pain, but i go out this weekend and walk by bars and just think, if i was back home in SF i might be able to get in but more importantly if it was just march 18th i could. Though in all reality i should probably concede that the wait is probably more fun than the actual thing. I have been drinking since i was 12, so its not like it is going to be some new great experience, I have already ordered alcohol in bars and restaurants in the united states and purchased it from slightly seedy liquor stores. it kid of feels like the forbidden flesh thing, where ankles were so sexy during the renaissance simply because you weren't allowed to see them. Since i don't see myself as a regular to clubs and bars, really the only thing that will change is that now i will have to buy other people alcohol instead of getting to leech of friends. I will probably drive somewhat intoxicated more, and feel guilty about it later and get to be more of a closet alcoholic : / Really i think the reason i am writing this is because i love getting to moan and bitch about things much more than working on the pressing things at hand such as studying for my finals that start in less than a day. I'm still debating weather i should come in drunk to the ones after celebrating my birthday are hung over as hell, anyone have any opinions on the thought? Well since i have already showered within five hours and have done absolutely nothing all day i think i will now continue the trend by soaking in a bubble bath and being reading Saving Fish From Drowning, seems like a fitting enough title.
au revoir,
oren
au revoir,
oren
