so i just got back from a shortie show...i needed that...they always cheer me up when im down...i havnt been that down lately, but enough to need a good show...this show was crazy....jason from 7th standard stopped 3 songs into the set and lets just say a huge fight broke out cause of this one fat fuck who was ruining it for the rest of us.....
i have a fat headache cause i have this new love for whisky.....im not so sure if i love it that much after having the worst hang over ever......wierd things happen....first time i ever had it i ended up at a hotel party with vendetta red....crazy nights....
so another night goes by where the guy that i like isint getting the clue....we spend like every day with eachother and i think ive gived plenty hints...and he even stayed the night in my bed....and we were actually sleeping....i dont get it...i used to be so good at this....
i have a fat headache cause i have this new love for whisky.....im not so sure if i love it that much after having the worst hang over ever......wierd things happen....first time i ever had it i ended up at a hotel party with vendetta red....crazy nights....
so another night goes by where the guy that i like isint getting the clue....we spend like every day with eachother and i think ive gived plenty hints...and he even stayed the night in my bed....and we were actually sleeping....i dont get it...i used to be so good at this....
well ive been living on my own for about a month now...funny how lonely this really can be....its starting to get scary...how much i really did rely on my family and friends...and now they really arnt there to support me....and my job sucks...i just feel really alone... 
i apsolutly love living on my own...hard to be sober when i can just do whatever i want right in my own living room
i had gotten so sunburned from the sf warped tour....that i wore a hat and kept my sweatshirt over my shoulders and tryed to stay out of the sun as much as possible....now somehow being around all those people...i woke up with a sore throat....so im sun burned from head to toe and sick.....but it was warped tour.....and nothing compares to it....i can be burnt to hell and still have a good time....thank god it wasnt at boreal though.....at least this year we didnt have to deal with all the dust.....oh and im never ever going to wear capri pants in the sun ever again....enough of me complaining about my sun burn....warp tour rocked 
4 more days til im 20...as excited as i am....birthdays just dont seem that exciting anymore....im not old enough to get shitty...and im not young enough to just invite over hella people to chill.....so i guess i'll go to a show...music and concerts always are a good time....i'll just end up being more dressed up for this show..... 
well i worked 9-5 again today...seems like all i do now is work....its those days that i work 3-close that really get me....im the only manager on shift working with 5 15 yr olds...and i come home and im all alone..just to go right back to the same thing the next day....is the paycheck really worh it....all it does is make it so i can afford the gas, car and insurance so i can get to work....and the cell phone that only gets used when my work calls me in early....i guess its time for me to rest up for work agian..... 
