I understand that friends come and go, but only precious few hold on. Yet it is still so depressing thinking back on all the great times you've shared and not really knowing where it went wrong? Was it something I said, something I did, did I do nothing at all? Maybe that was it you needed me and I wasn't there. Or did I simply win to many times playing uno?
Yes most of the time people come and go, you hang out for a few months a year maybe two then drift away. Those don't really hurt, those people aren't loved ones, aren't people you would consider your inner circle. What I'm talking about is when someone in your inner circle leaves you. When it's someone you talk to every day, tell everything to, can count on to have your back and you have theirs. It's almost worse than a romantic break-up.
It's been almost two years since I last talked to said person and I haven't stopped thinking about them, not a day goes by something doesn't remind me of them. I've tried reaching out a few times but nothing ever comes of it. Maybe it'd be easier if I knew exactly what happened that caused us to go our separate ways. It's almost like they passed away without saying goodbye, yet I know they are alive and well, just holding on to and keeping for themselves the answers I so desperately desire.
I needed to get this off my chest, thou I fear even this won't help clear my mind and help me better understand. What else is there for a person to do? When a relationship ends most of the time there is a reason and both parties are aware of it, there is closure. How do you get closure when you don't know why it had to end?