Feeling a bit better since my last blog,STill sad,but feeling better.

December is going to ROCK.Cali. Intern. MArathon.NIN & Metalica shows.....and a week in LA/San Diego!
Running in the Angelas Crest mountains.....martinis.....tattoo work(hopefully)......ROAD TRIP!!

I am going to be a reptile women for Halloween. I have a fantastic idea for my makeup effects using fishnets and some of my pigements I have.




Good Bye.

Also you all should go comment this set by noidd
Seriously!! That is what SG is about,she is stunning adn the set is beautifully shot

Loss:

Today we had to put my 14 year old cat Abra to sleep.

It was the hardest thing we have ever have had to decide on.

She was very sick,and it was time.

I am heartbroken.

I am relieved she is not hurting,but my heart feels shattered.


She was one tough cookie,and was a awesome cat..

I LOVE YOU ABRA...1994-2008

I want the straight edge life, hmm but how??

I desrie to be clean and sober and live life that wya buut everytime I try I get bored and end up drinking.

How do you guys do it??
Its hard or maybe its me?

Wine is my downfall, I can down a bottle myslef,yes lil ole me.

fuck!

I stopped smoking pot, I was a now and then toker but amd done..now my issue is 18 years of pill popping with 'bouts of stopping and now 2+ glasses a wine a night...I feel LAME!!!

Ooo damn its Friday and I have to work tomorrow.

6 days a week, fuck..I have been doing it for awhile and this is the last one.

thank god.

I really want a job, I want to do makeup...as a career.Dont get me wrong I love being a vet nurse,but I love doing makeup too.

I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.

my glass of wine is almost emtpty and that is a problem....I must open a new bottle.

uggggggggggggh, what is it I want?

Things are ok

Oct 5th Sacramento cowtown 1/2 marathon

Nov 1st Helen Klein 50k

Dec 7th Cali. International marathon.

April 5th 2009 American river 50 miler:25 bike path/25 trail.


thos are my current runs I am reg. for...I have mult. training and fun runs ahead.

Still crossfitting like made. www.crossfit.com check it out.

I love the new cult of cherry line from Mac cosmetics.

I love makeup

I love sushi

BYE

everything sucks

whatever....................thats all I got.

Does anyone have any remadies or a fix for insomnia that has lasted 6 MONTHS!!
melatonin does not work.
Valerian does not work.
Benedryl does not work.
WIne is not working anymore, I am turning into a fucking wino!
Other various drugs people give me are not working and it is effecting my job.I had to call in sick again because I had not slpet in 48 hours!! It gets to where I am up for 72+ hours and cannot sleep.
I have no insurance so I cant go to the dr, I am poor. lol
It is driving me CRAZY!!! I quite smoking weed because I run and smoking pot and running do NOT mix...I am proud to be pot free but damn I slept great when I did
I am super depressed

I have been incredibly busy. So a update has not happened in days, not that it matters much because I dont think anyone really reads this.

Lets,see work work and more work. Saving the lives of animals and limiting the pet population and all taht jazz.

Crossfitting like a mof, if you dont know what corssfit is www.crossfit.com go see.

Traing and running.I have a 50k tomorrow, did a 20 miler last Sunday, it was 101 and we were supposed to do 31, needless to say it all ended badly. I have a 30k on June 21 on the most gorgous trails. We just reg. for 12 hour night run...so moving forward with my ultra running life..love it.

Spending far too much money at the MAC & Sephora store that is fo sho.....I have a makeover on May 31 at MAC, there new Neo Sci fi comes out and we get to buy before everyone else...that rocks.

I need a vacation ...I have 5 days off the first week of JUne. Hope to do some camping. I wish I could be on some Island, lieing topless on some beach......soaking up the sun. Yeah that is what I need, *sigh*

I also need more ink...why is it so $$$

anyway ...I am happy top see my fav SG with some lovely sexy sets up. These girls rock and if I could I would marry them al lol I am sure my hubby would love that hhehe

alrighty..I am out for now...here are a few pics....

New hair on Monday, finally.

I am straving, but cant have what I want to eat because I am broke and it is expensive to go to Tokyo Fros.

I have a new pet, a rat and yes its weird being a total cat lady(of 4 cats) and having a rat.He is 2.5 yrs old and I adopted him(or he adopted me) from work. They wanted to put him to sleep and I was not having that.He is one cool dude and loves almonds.

Heres som more pics of me whoring it up for the cam yet once again.

.....and last but not least I NEED SOME MORE INK!!!!