Well day 2...
...and what a day it was!
(A little bit of back story - My G/F and I own and run a business together and we take alternate days off during the non-peak seasons. I had Tuesday off and had scheduled today off.)
I didn't get the day off as planned, instead my G/F asked for it off instead and I stupidly agreed.
I had a major strop about it all day - mainly feeling that I had been taken advantage of due to my helping nature.
Even more stupid was that I acted like a right twat towards her when she was just feeling under the weather and needed a longer recharge. It meant we "had to talk" afterwards and turned the day and evening into an entirely miserable situation.
Even though I know I should have been a bit more understanding and less like a child by having a strop I still feel aggreived. I still see it as though whenever she wants a day off, I will accommodate it. But if I ever want a day off it's met with guilt trips and emotional blackmail.....maybe I'm just seeing things like that cause that's what has happened before....
That's wrong, right? To feel that way....
I always promised that I would not let anyone make me feel like that again since I split and divorced my ex-wife (who was very controlling and overly dramatic) 2 years ago and maybe that's why I acted like that?
But surely that's no excuse.....
The result is that we are going to work things through step by step to try and improve things.
On the plus side, the business took more money today than any other this week and I got to see my niece.
I also have been given the green light to tattoo my mother as my gift for mother's day. Despite being my Mum I am still looking at this as professional client. i will need that mindset when I finish my apprenticeship.
Anyway, been an emotionally fraught day so headin' to bed early. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully things will get better....
Ciao
...and what a day it was!
(A little bit of back story - My G/F and I own and run a business together and we take alternate days off during the non-peak seasons. I had Tuesday off and had scheduled today off.)
I didn't get the day off as planned, instead my G/F asked for it off instead and I stupidly agreed.
I had a major strop about it all day - mainly feeling that I had been taken advantage of due to my helping nature.
Even more stupid was that I acted like a right twat towards her when she was just feeling under the weather and needed a longer recharge. It meant we "had to talk" afterwards and turned the day and evening into an entirely miserable situation.
Even though I know I should have been a bit more understanding and less like a child by having a strop I still feel aggreived. I still see it as though whenever she wants a day off, I will accommodate it. But if I ever want a day off it's met with guilt trips and emotional blackmail.....maybe I'm just seeing things like that cause that's what has happened before....
That's wrong, right? To feel that way....
I always promised that I would not let anyone make me feel like that again since I split and divorced my ex-wife (who was very controlling and overly dramatic) 2 years ago and maybe that's why I acted like that?
But surely that's no excuse.....
The result is that we are going to work things through step by step to try and improve things.
On the plus side, the business took more money today than any other this week and I got to see my niece.
I also have been given the green light to tattoo my mother as my gift for mother's day. Despite being my Mum I am still looking at this as professional client. i will need that mindset when I finish my apprenticeship.
Anyway, been an emotionally fraught day so headin' to bed early. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully things will get better....
Ciao