it never really occured to me as to how much of a nerd i really am until just now.
it just hit me out of the blue, i play friggin WoW,eve-online, played dark age of camelot for almost 5 fuckin years. and ultima online, yes ultima online, from the time it started till i got deployed for the first time.
hell ive played video games just about my entire life.

games aside, ihave friggin myspace (the bane of relationships lol) got instant messengers out the wazoo, and what i think gives me the local nerd champioship, the fact that i own 4 computers. 3 desktops 1 laptop. all high end performance machines.

i worked at computer shop building and repairing comps before i joined while i was in highschool, till the day i actually enlisted.

i got back from this last deployment, and god damn if the i didnt have cable internet and my comps setup within 2 days. thanks goes out to the people at time warner of central new york LOL.
with out you i might have actually been quite bored here in my cave.

and with the shit ive gone through the internet has pretty much been my main tether to sanity. if i couldnt be doing something online ie; chatting, gaming, furiosly masturbating to porn lol , i am usually fucking up, like starting shit at the bar for purely personal amusement. >

and somehow despite all that, i feel ok. its kinda weird actually, i know that because of this, who i am, i probably be single my entire life, and i can see myself still doing what i do now, when ill be old and decrepit. have to show the youngins how its done
look there arent alot of moments in my life thus far where i get to be genuinely happy. but it feels right. when im doing what i do. its like my mind is phased by alot of the bullshit that world likes to throw at it.

lol i dont know if this is statement, or somekind of speech to someone.

well if anyone actually reads this and actually gets something out of it
ill be extremely surprised
if you figure out what im saying, do tell. cause at this point i dont know WTF is going through my head.

and i guess here is where i post something pro nerd, if your a real nerd and your happy with it, keep on keepin on, and pwn any asshole that trys to tell you otherwise

L33T HAXXOR FOR LIFE BITCH!!!
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