I have to state for the record, online as well as I have offline, that I am looking for ONE woman, just one, who will love me, and be loyal, and who is FUN, has a sense of God, who is nice--yes, and sexy. I don't need or require more than one. I know she is out there. She has been out there in the past, as I have had three relationships that have lastest more than 5 years each on average. Presently, I am single, and it has been this way for a few months now. I hate it.

The woman who I really am attracted to emotionally, as well as physically, right now in my life, works two jobs and goes to school, and is often too tired, so she says, to see me. I hate that. So, I have filled my time with other people socially. Specifically, I met a lesbian woman, only 21 years old, who is so pretty, so sexy, a Pakistani/Nicaraguan mix, who, in words and deeds, seems to really enjoy my company. I mean, get undressed, climb into bed, stay all night, dinner, movies, partying....and she introduced me to her girlfriend, a 19 year old black female--stunning--who similarly seems to enjoy my company in all the same ways. On average, I think the three of us or at least one of them and I are together 3 or 4 nights a week.

So, along comes my ex, the woman who was the center of my world, who dumped me--even though we still hung out together al the time--who all of a sudden is sooooooo jealous, and curious, and wanting to be a part of this new dynamic in my life--the girls, I call them--and suddenly is choosing to have great ex sex with me. I am, among other things, a little annoyed.....more later.....

One more week of finals, and then off to vacation for the holiday on the 22nd of Dec. I can't wait to get out of here for awhile. I'll be back in time for New Year's Eve. I still gave to figure out what to do for that. And there's Christmas shopping between now and then. Ahh, the joys of online shopping!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone in SG land! I am spending it with my brothers and then the families of two friends gracious enough to invite me to join them.

It is a quiet week so far, as I am on on vacation right along with the students at school. Ah, the small benefits of being a teacher. Well, if I am not going to get rich doing this, I may as well get something good from it.

Right now, I am just waiting for my friend to show up to spend the afternoon with me...

I'm either going to be really busy or very disappointed this weekend. The good news is that my new friend told me to make a list of the ten things I want most for my birthday. That's kind of cool...but, for me, unnecessary. I don't want things. I just want her...in a really pretty pair of underwear...that's the gift I want.

Not incidentally, my aunt's funeral is on my birthday. Needless to say, I am not attending. I refuse to go to a funeral on my birthday. How would one ever get that association out of one's psyche? I choose to be happy on that day. Mourning can take a day off....

Yesterday was a good day. In fact, the past couple weeks have been better than the ones before. I realize the storm clouds have gone away, and the sun is shining through in my life again. I'll enjoy it while it lasts thank you very much.

My birthday is this week, and three friends are doing something separate for me, that I know of, so, it seems people are going to show me love. And, of course, since I am a triplet, I will be sharing my day with the two most important people in my life, my brothers. They are God's first and most enduring gifts to me (aside from my own life and health). As one of my brothers said..."I've known you since womb..." There is no greater love.

Tried to get Cirque du Soleil tickets for my birthday, but they aren't on sale yet, even though their big tent is up in the downtown area beckoning an audience to come.

And my new friend visited with me all day yesterday. I am normallly off on Friday's, but she works two jobs and took off from BOTH of them to spend the day with me. We picked up some Veal Parmagian (sp?) and stuffed peppers, a bottle of Zinfandel, and some kind of liquer that she likes bottled in South Africa, but made from some fruit native to Zimbabwe...kind of like Balley's really. Then we spent the afternoon in bed, watching horror movies, and having some great one-on-one time. I feel really content, sated, and flattered...I hope I am giving her the sae feelings.

"I fall upon the thorns of life. I bleed." I don't know why but there has been a dark cloud traveling with me these last couple of weeks. I should be stressed, I should be ridiculously apprehensive, and have a glass half-empty mentality, but I don't. With my rose-colored glasses, faith and perseverence, I see the glass as being half-full, and the sun coming up over the horizon. I know things are tough for so many of us everywhere. I thank God for my blessings every day.

I do need to party this weekend, though! May as well start tonight.

Construction continues on our little room rebuilding project due to the storms of a few weeks ago. Work is back to a frenetic pace, so I really value my free time, and I find myself sometimes craving opportunities to party, and searching for cool people to party with. Not a big deal...I know, everything in moderation.

A part itme job I have is going out of business after 10 years with them...it started to be like family and feeling like home. One simply has to remember that, in this economy, nothing and no one is safe, At the farewell dinner last night at the Marietta Fish Market, I ate like a pig...but it isn't my fault. The portions are huge.

Dating is going well with my new friend. I think she's really into me, but I always have this feeling like I am on probation...that has to stop, I guess. We ae nevertheless, having a lot of fun, getting closer, and enjoying each other's company. Saw a movie yesterday....saw in the back row and we had a hard time keeping our hands off each other...the simple pleasures should not be overlooked.

Off the Palo Alto next week to visit a friend at Stanford....I am already looking forward to airport security.

Another day, another yesterday full of rain here in Atlanta, as if we needed any more after the torrents and deluge of three weeks ago. Since we had a couple days of dry weather since then, we had the foundation work done due to the water damage we endured in my brother's room. Now we just need to go through a good hard rain to see whether the job was done properly, and we can start reparing the inside of that damaged room. Did I mention we had quotes of $19,000 for aforesaid foundation work? Crazy what contractors will try to get away with...thank God for competition.

Fourth day back at work...still a pain in the butt adjusting to my old schedule....going back made me realize that I work alot! I have no time during the week to do anything other than come home, eat dinner, and collapse in bed...

No wonder I party on the weekend (sometimes, lol). Do you blame me? I didn't think so.

P.S. I am still really liking my time with "the new girl." We'll see where this goes...keep wishing me luck.

It was a long weekend. There was some storm-related water damage to my house last week. Foundation work will have to be done, and one of the inside bedrooms had it's carpet water soaked and destroyed. We spent Saturday ripping it up and tearing it out. Wet carpet is soooooo heavy, but some friends came over, my brothers helped, It got done...now on with the recovery process. It will take awhile and some dollars. How do people who live in flood plains recover and recover again?? God bless us, every one.

Well, I went to a step show this weekend here in Atlanta. It was good, but not great, but my date, of wom you may have read a little, was wonderful....we had a near perfect evening. She wore one of the outfits I bought her for her birthday, she was attentive and affectionate...a partner in every way. I can get use to this....

I have completely enjoyed having this week off from work. I have been a bit of a hermit, though, as I haven't left my house except to get food. Oh well, I will call my friends and apologize...next week, haha! Anyway, a dear, long time friend is getting married in Morocco next week, so I am off to that next weekend. It's too early to invite the new friend right? Overkill?

Ah, the "rules" of dating. Anyway, looking forward to spending time with "her" this weekend. She has invited me to be her date...I am really liking that about her. She asks me out. What could be better than that? Nothing beats when a woman shows how she feels, rather than simply says words.