i can't take this anymore
i hate me
i hate life
if i had a way out right now i woudl do it



i cut myself again tonight.... 9 years and still haven't stopped.


all guys are interested in is sex. all i was wanting was a new friend to hang out with and go to the bars with once in a while. fucker.
i'm not gonna be another notch on your belt.


i dont know what to do with myself

i suck at school

i suck at life.

i just want to go to sleep and never wake up again.

today is not a good day.

so lets drown these sorrows at the bottom of a bottle.

it's 2:10am, and slowly, but surely this essay is coming along, more slowly than anything, but whatever! i dont even care anymore. I"m in a good mood for once, as all today i was dreary and gloomy. no fun.

i'm excited for the weekend though as I'm getting buck wild! maybe i'll post some pictures of it. if i remember my camera. haha, won't be anything toooooo crazy, just some drunkenness of me. joy right?


xo
kitten

i'm completely useless.
school depresses me to no end.
why do i pay to put myself through this torture?
i have to write an 8 pg paper for thursday, and you would think 'go you for starting it on monday' and i also gave up my shift tomorrow night to do it, but nope. i've done almost jack shit. written some random stuff out, but basically i've done nothing. not to mention that i have 3 journals due this week, among other things.
i dont even want to start thinking of all the shit i need to do.
i also think i've gotten a bladder infection. not fucking cool. guess i'll wake up early to go to the clinic in the morning.

some days i just wish i could dissapear.

i suck at lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i,m never on anymore

i start volunteering tomorrow at the Children's Hospital! yay wish I didn't have to work tonight though, as it is now almost 3am, and I have to get up at 730 to get ready be there for 915, eeeek

i'm going to bed right away so this is gonna be short & sweet. I went to AILD last night soooo amazing!! i'm forever going to be heartbroken that they did not play parallels though *sigh*
i am uber sore from moshing and being thrown around, but holy mother, some of the best times of my life are in moshes! ! i must say i evacuated pretty quickly when i heard the wall of death was happening. lol

and then tonight was the Uproar concert! i didn't go to the entire thing, basically showed up when StoneSour was playing, got right up front for AVENGED SEVENFOLD and then watched 2 songs fr Disturbed then left. haha so basically payed $80 to see A7X, that's alright though, they had an amazing set! and all their props were friggen insane!!
here is a youtube vid from somewhere else, but its same thing as what they did tonight...



and here is my most favortie song by them !

okay so i was looking and decided its way to f*n hard to pick a favorite from them, so, i chose this one, as last summer it was my fav <3

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/user/avengedsevenfold#p/u/5/Fi_GN1pHCVc[/YOUTUBE]

so i'm basically gonna just ignore my audit till it comes and hits me in the face, which will be soon. fml. but i'm in a good mood atm so i don't wanna ruin it! here are a few youtube vids to keep you kids happy. lol

this one i got shown at work the other day



and this one is just cuuutee



annnd since I'm going to AILD on FRIDAY i will add this one too, omg i've been listening to their newest cd and its sooo good, same with their other ones, eek i dunno how i'm gonna pick just one to put on here..... but atm this is the one i'm loving



xoxo
kitten

i'm baaaack! yay

so i'm on here as oppose to doing homework, or cleaning my apt. but i feel that since before i left on friday i cleaned up anything that was mine in the living room and kitchen, and now i come home and fruit flies have made a home in my kitchen, and my living room is such a disaster that there is no where to even sit or attempt to walk in there.
bullshit.
i'm not cleaning it up, non of the mess in there is mine!
ugh.
frustrating.

but on a better note, i've been obsessed with this song for the past few days, sooo enjoy