so I've been gone for a little bit, finally got internet back at my place!

I've mostly been being social, spending too much money and sliding into melancholy land at various times during the day.

I'm to the point where I miss her, and I want her back and I know I need to let it go but right now my heart still doesn't want to. I want to think about her. I want to hear her voice. But I won't.

It was my decision, and my brain still knows it's what's best. She was my little slice of heaven but I don't want just heaven. I want life, and peril.

this is what i deserve and what's going to make me grow and learn.

Really not good with this mushy stuff. But denying how I'm feeling would be stupid.

I don't have anything new to say at this point, but if any random internet patron comes by here with a musical taste you should make a melody for this poem i wrote. and GO:

Writing history with lightning
Enveloped by bass nightly
Lost in sound our home is found
Sharing sight without sharing eyes

LEDs and fiber optics
What the fire forgers wanted
Flickering and shining like our
Star-crossed cinema eyelids

No grudges to harbor
None tainting our ardor
My past exploits a blur
Makes me a dreamer

A NEON ABORIGINAL
SYNTHEZISER HIPPY
BASSHEAD EMPATH
RAVING ROLLING GYPSY

Yay for not being a broke asshole! Glad to get to join a place that I can be myself and see others being themselves. Live Love etc etc