so I've been gone for a little bit, finally got internet back at my place!

I've mostly been being social, spending too much money and sliding into melancholy land at various times during the day.

I'm to the point where I miss her, and I want her back and I know I need to let it go but right now my heart still doesn't want to. I want to think about her. I want to hear her voice. But I won't.

It was my decision, and my brain still knows it's what's best. She was my little slice of heaven but I don't want just heaven. I want life, and peril.

this is what i deserve and what's going to make me grow and learn.

Really not good with this mushy stuff. But denying how I'm feeling would be stupid.