I don't have any tattoos. It's only in the last couple of years, and mostly thanks to Suicide Girls and the company I have kept in the last year, that I have even begun to consider one.

I know now what I would get. If I was to get one.

This is a big step.

The beginning of 2012 hasn't been what I was expecting. Parts of it have been beyond my control but have distracted me from what I really want to be doing. I survived them though it wasn't easy. Now I need to try and get back on the path I was taking. Or do I? Part of me wants to do something different. To explore.

I can't believe it's thirty years ago that John Lennon was gunned down. Although I wasn't really aware of his music (except for some of the more poppy Beatles songs) at the time of his death, he went on to have a huge influence on me and the music I listen to now.

He is such a huge loss to music. If he hadn't died, how would history have changed? In my opinion the music written most recently to his death - songs like (Just Like) Starting Over, Woman, Beautiful Boy and Nobody Told Me - were among the best he'd ever written. If he'd gone on writing and recording to that standard throughout the Eighties he would have, no doubt enjoyed continued success. Would The Beatles ever have reformed? Yes, probably at Live Aid. What would he have thought of Madonna, Bono, Liam Gallagher?