what the FUCK was that all about?!?!?
i get weirded out when my dreams are so vivid and real that i end up thinking its going on well after i wake up. like, my emotions and thoughts are stuck on the feelings i had within the dream itself while it was going on. i once dreamt i accidentally threw a baby off the top of the Gates Rubber Factory whilst trying to save it from a fire. the fear and horror of what i'd just done even haunted me when i woke up.
but last nights dream was, for me anyways, unique. i've had a lucid dream only once, and i understand that its when you're aware you're in a dream and can control it. mine seemed to be more like some Inception type shit: a dream (in this case, sleepy daydream) within a dream. basically, i dreamt that i was falling asleep and having a vivid dream that i had no real control over, but was viewing in, it some ways, in the third person. this has never happened to me.
in this dream within a dream, i decide to see what'd happen if i rob a bank. i'm sure it was the bank that we use for work, but of course it looked different. also, it seemed to be in a basement. i walked in with no mask, just a coat and my work t-shirt. i'm holding a shotgun and the tellers recognize whats happening, and treat is as an annoying, but inevitable, aspect of their job. i collect a couple-of-grand from their tills and walk off, firing my shotgun in the year to scare people (in my head, the dreaming head that is, i knew this was pointless--and i was viewing it from an elevated postion, almost like a camera was shooting it). i most certainly knew i was recognized, but seemed to hope that if i ignored people enough and didin't go back in this bank, i could dely my eventual capture.
somewhat later, i managed to loose a whole cap in my mouth that covered three teeth. it chunk of gold filling (note: i do not have gold fillings) fell out of my mouth, and my jaw got swollen and my teeth hurt, badly. it felt like those three teeth were open caverns exposed to the elements. i needed a dentist, PRONTO! where was the nearest dentist? in the same building as the bank i'd only recently robbed.
i don't remember much after that. i do remember being in the parking lot, scared to go in but knowing i'd have to. a middle-aged blonde woman began telling me about the bank holdup, and i acted oblivious of course. she recognized my car as being the crook's car, but she didn't realise it was mine. i played along. for whatever reason, however she never made mention of calling the police or notifying the bank that the robber had returned to the scene of the crime.
this was about the time that it was no longer a dream within a dream, so i got very confused. had i awoken? had i never been alseep? was my robbing the bank a result of sleepwalking? or is there a gap in memory-i remember being asleep and dreaming about the robbery, but does that mean i have a blank space in my memory where, AFTER the dream, i went out and actually DID rob the bank? i mean, i'd have no logical reason to go to THAT particular dentist office if i was aware that the robbery had actually occured. so, that must mean that i didn't realise the robbery really did occur, but this woman confirmed that yes--i must have robbed the bank. unless in some unlikely coincidence, i dreamt i robbed the bank, someone stole my car, then they robbed the bank, and returned the car to me. but yeah, highly unlikely third scenerio.
so, seriously...what the FUCK was that all about?!?!?
i wish i could draw. i'd like to make a comic out of that whole spiel. anyone with comic-style artistic talents wanna take a stab at it?
i get weirded out when my dreams are so vivid and real that i end up thinking its going on well after i wake up. like, my emotions and thoughts are stuck on the feelings i had within the dream itself while it was going on. i once dreamt i accidentally threw a baby off the top of the Gates Rubber Factory whilst trying to save it from a fire. the fear and horror of what i'd just done even haunted me when i woke up.
but last nights dream was, for me anyways, unique. i've had a lucid dream only once, and i understand that its when you're aware you're in a dream and can control it. mine seemed to be more like some Inception type shit: a dream (in this case, sleepy daydream) within a dream. basically, i dreamt that i was falling asleep and having a vivid dream that i had no real control over, but was viewing in, it some ways, in the third person. this has never happened to me.
in this dream within a dream, i decide to see what'd happen if i rob a bank. i'm sure it was the bank that we use for work, but of course it looked different. also, it seemed to be in a basement. i walked in with no mask, just a coat and my work t-shirt. i'm holding a shotgun and the tellers recognize whats happening, and treat is as an annoying, but inevitable, aspect of their job. i collect a couple-of-grand from their tills and walk off, firing my shotgun in the year to scare people (in my head, the dreaming head that is, i knew this was pointless--and i was viewing it from an elevated postion, almost like a camera was shooting it). i most certainly knew i was recognized, but seemed to hope that if i ignored people enough and didin't go back in this bank, i could dely my eventual capture.
somewhat later, i managed to loose a whole cap in my mouth that covered three teeth. it chunk of gold filling (note: i do not have gold fillings) fell out of my mouth, and my jaw got swollen and my teeth hurt, badly. it felt like those three teeth were open caverns exposed to the elements. i needed a dentist, PRONTO! where was the nearest dentist? in the same building as the bank i'd only recently robbed.
i don't remember much after that. i do remember being in the parking lot, scared to go in but knowing i'd have to. a middle-aged blonde woman began telling me about the bank holdup, and i acted oblivious of course. she recognized my car as being the crook's car, but she didn't realise it was mine. i played along. for whatever reason, however she never made mention of calling the police or notifying the bank that the robber had returned to the scene of the crime.
this was about the time that it was no longer a dream within a dream, so i got very confused. had i awoken? had i never been alseep? was my robbing the bank a result of sleepwalking? or is there a gap in memory-i remember being asleep and dreaming about the robbery, but does that mean i have a blank space in my memory where, AFTER the dream, i went out and actually DID rob the bank? i mean, i'd have no logical reason to go to THAT particular dentist office if i was aware that the robbery had actually occured. so, that must mean that i didn't realise the robbery really did occur, but this woman confirmed that yes--i must have robbed the bank. unless in some unlikely coincidence, i dreamt i robbed the bank, someone stole my car, then they robbed the bank, and returned the car to me. but yeah, highly unlikely third scenerio.
so, seriously...what the FUCK was that all about?!?!?
i wish i could draw. i'd like to make a comic out of that whole spiel. anyone with comic-style artistic talents wanna take a stab at it?