I went to the beach today and just feel like sharing some pictures I took. Nothing special. Hope there's something for someone to enjoy.

It's so bloody hard, sometimes, to not get down on, and about, myself. I'm 29. I've never had a girlfriend or a date or anything with a girl. As far as I know, no girl has ever been interested in me, at all, or even thought I'm attractive in some way. I don't have the personality to go to bars and meet girls. There's not much in my area to do to meet girls. I don't know how to meet girls. I'm a quiet, introverted, shy person. I can't talk much to friends, let alone girls. To lose my virginity, finally, last year, I went to a legal brothel and that's all I've had.

I'm trying OkCupid. I'm messaging girls. I ask them something about something I see on their profiles (something about what they do, for recommendations of authors they like; if they're into art or photography or something, I ask what type of stuff they like/do; if record collecting, I ask what type of records). And I have gotten ZERO responses. Not a single response.

All my friends are married, they don't go out or do anything. They don't try to help me meet anyone. No one cares if I'm single and lonely.

It's disheartening. I have no idea what it's like to feel wanted by someone. As far as I can tell, there's just absolutely nothing about me to like. I can't get responses to simple questions. If I see, or meet, a girl, I just can't imagine any reason why she'd want to talk to me, so I don't try to talk to them (even if I did try, I wouldn't know what to say because I suck at talking to people).

I don't know what I'm supposed to do or what I can do. It's just really, really hard. And seems so easy so everyone else.