Jesus, was I ever lied to. All of this bullshit we're fed as kids about how we all get to be astronauts and we all get to have this perfect fucking life and how there's someone out there for everyone. Well I call bullshit. I've been trying as hard as I can to get that life for as long as I can remember, and I'm no better than I was when I started.
I mean how pathetic is it that so much of our lives are spent doing some bleak nine to five job that sucks our souls out of our heads and all we get for spending 50+ years of our life doing something we hate is 10-15 years where we dont have to do it anymore (if we're lucky). Why not just cut that bullshit out and spend the entire time, i don't know, not doing things that we hate?
The absolute worst part is this whole lie that there's someone out there for everyone. What a load of shit. I've tried everything and made no progress, but have been fortunate enough to not only watch as my friends all get paired with people, but to watch as they leave whoever they're with and find some new "soulmate." The whole idea is just mind numbingly retarded. Is there some fucked up karmic reason why I should have to live my life alone? Why should I have to turn myself into an emotionless shell to get through the day when no one else does?
This wouldn't all be so shitty if the world had just outright told me what life would be like. I would have been much happier if instead of feeding me this bullshit story to keep me toeing the company line they had told me, "Luke, you'll never find someone, you'll probably die alone, and you're going to hate your job but will have to do it anyways because thats what growing up is. Growing up is nothing but an endless 50 years of grey, bleak misery, and at the end you get to die alone."
Well fuck me.
I mean how pathetic is it that so much of our lives are spent doing some bleak nine to five job that sucks our souls out of our heads and all we get for spending 50+ years of our life doing something we hate is 10-15 years where we dont have to do it anymore (if we're lucky). Why not just cut that bullshit out and spend the entire time, i don't know, not doing things that we hate?
The absolute worst part is this whole lie that there's someone out there for everyone. What a load of shit. I've tried everything and made no progress, but have been fortunate enough to not only watch as my friends all get paired with people, but to watch as they leave whoever they're with and find some new "soulmate." The whole idea is just mind numbingly retarded. Is there some fucked up karmic reason why I should have to live my life alone? Why should I have to turn myself into an emotionless shell to get through the day when no one else does?
This wouldn't all be so shitty if the world had just outright told me what life would be like. I would have been much happier if instead of feeding me this bullshit story to keep me toeing the company line they had told me, "Luke, you'll never find someone, you'll probably die alone, and you're going to hate your job but will have to do it anyways because thats what growing up is. Growing up is nothing but an endless 50 years of grey, bleak misery, and at the end you get to die alone."
Well fuck me.