Got the call yestarday morning my brother had died, this close to my fathers death sucks, but really it has hit me much harder my brother was truly an amazing loving man he will be missed by many

Came home today, will be going to the funeral home soon, at 07:00 here my father passed away, I think he was ready to go, it was peaceful in his sleep and with loved ones around him

Wish I could say this was a good update, been really bad here as of today I've been sitting with my father in the hospital for 3 days watching him die and his mind fail he is 82 years old today he fully stopped eating and doesn't want his meds, then got news they said 48-72 hours the way he is then its over, I have seen lots of death in my day, but this is different 1) it's my father 2) it's been so slow and painful, watching him go from my dad to pretty much some stranger invalided is truly heartbreaking, don't know how often I'll get on here over the next few weeks



Peace and love
Sapper24Fox(Andrew J. Wright)

Been so busy lately, and every time I check more and more friends are going anomous or just away kind of sad to see them gone

Happy veterans day, is it really a day hat you say happy on, it's like hey happy you got fucked up day, or am I looking to much into it ?

I wake up back on the beach the soft warm black sand, then the sounds of war come back rolling through the forest, I get dressed put on my armor check my weapons look for others no one on the beach I move into the forest looking for the battle I hear then I see it battle but the forest is gone we are in a city people are dieing, fear takes me as I return fire knowing we are going to die but still fighting on. The medic working to save lives as I work to take them, I take a hit and wake up in bed shaking sweating afraid of going back to sleep

So been having lots of nightmares again, all involving the same beach of black sand weird

Going to be hiding in a basement for the forth, I fucking hate fireworks

Got the confirmation Wednesday yep it's lung cancer, or so they say hell I've had it since 2002/2003 haven't got me guess it's not that bad, anyway more radiation more meds good times

Nightmares back again called doc he said that's not good I'm on dangerously high levels of meds as it is fun fun. So here was last nights, I woke up lying on a tropical beach with black sand as my eyes got used to the light there are corpses everywhere it was some kind of battle the sea is red with blood, some faces I know others I don't, so I treat my wounds and look for weapons and armor because I still hear the battle, as I move inland there are people fighting monsters and demons it looks hopeless but I join in anyway, the fight was long and bloody in the end we pushed them back, made camp treated the wounded sing songs tell jokes rest and wait till the next battle, and it comes dark thunder midnight I wake again they are in the camp, people are being ripped apart, I see a flash of light feel burning pain in my chest looking down a hole burns through me, this time I wake up to reality sweating shaking still in pain then I come back down my phone rings, and that's what I live with every night when the meds don't work