Moving date is Good Friday. Next week into a new place. I've only had one true experience living with another person other than a family member. College dorms do not count. I still had my own place to share besides a bathroom. My experiences with my former roommate are mixed. It started out great. We were both living with the same circumstances. We were single, shared common goals for our individual lives. Things changed when she fell in love. I am happy for her. I just wish there was a way I could show her how her choices hurt me.
I don't think people think rationally when they are in love. Hell, call me guilty of the same thing. I know I've made mistakes on behalf of my own choices in previous relationships and dragged people down with fears and emotional madness when things didn't go my way. I learned from that. It's about trying to remain calm and positive while still giving 100% of your love. I'm learning now.
I'm still trying to remain calm. There are times here when I know I'm being taken advantage of. When I brought it up, I was forced into a corner. I either had to deal with it or somehow manage this apartment by myself. It wasn't fair. It's still not fair. There's no way to force someone to understand how their actions are completely unfair. I shouldn't have to feel like this place is no longer mine. He's here every weekend, which is much better than the beginning. I've tried everything to belong to my home. I've tried to talk, fit in, take back and to no avail. I'm just here to clean up. It's like sharing for 2 people that are so focused on each other that you become nothing.
I've tried to see the other side. I've been told to at least try. I can't. When I try to understand her point, I still cannot fathom the fact that someone else is here consequence free. I cannot see a side that refuses to consider my feelings. I cannot see a side of someone who I feel takes advantage of me. I truly dislike thinking that of a really good friend. Sometimes you learn the hard way. I only ask for respect out of my friends. One day I'm sure it will be realized. I'm not hoping for that. I'm just very glad I only have a week left. Something else to look forward to. Someone who I will at least share the same common goal together.
I don't think people think rationally when they are in love. Hell, call me guilty of the same thing. I know I've made mistakes on behalf of my own choices in previous relationships and dragged people down with fears and emotional madness when things didn't go my way. I learned from that. It's about trying to remain calm and positive while still giving 100% of your love. I'm learning now.
I'm still trying to remain calm. There are times here when I know I'm being taken advantage of. When I brought it up, I was forced into a corner. I either had to deal with it or somehow manage this apartment by myself. It wasn't fair. It's still not fair. There's no way to force someone to understand how their actions are completely unfair. I shouldn't have to feel like this place is no longer mine. He's here every weekend, which is much better than the beginning. I've tried everything to belong to my home. I've tried to talk, fit in, take back and to no avail. I'm just here to clean up. It's like sharing for 2 people that are so focused on each other that you become nothing.
I've tried to see the other side. I've been told to at least try. I can't. When I try to understand her point, I still cannot fathom the fact that someone else is here consequence free. I cannot see a side that refuses to consider my feelings. I cannot see a side of someone who I feel takes advantage of me. I truly dislike thinking that of a really good friend. Sometimes you learn the hard way. I only ask for respect out of my friends. One day I'm sure it will be realized. I'm not hoping for that. I'm just very glad I only have a week left. Something else to look forward to. Someone who I will at least share the same common goal together.
You can "jump the shark" and still be a star.
Meaning: Better times ahead.
If the V.U. can do it, anyone can.