Alex went home on Tuesday... I wont get to see him again till August. Sucks. I fucking hate when she says she misses him when he's gone, it makes me sick. How dare she say that to me. She doesn't know the meaning of the word.

I wish I had more money at the time of the trial, I could have fought more, I could have won custody maybe. Theres nothing I can do now but wait.

It sucks... I really try not to hate her, but she says things about me that I don't deserve. I shouldnt care what she thinks about me, but something tells me that my son will one day hear her say something about me. I hope he doesnt beleive it.

I love him so much, more than he ever know until he has a child of his own. He makes me want to be a better man, and I wish he was with me all the time.


he's gonna be a rockstar