i'm not sure how someone who has ever met me could think that i would be motivated by someone being negative.

if you haven't met me - hi, my name is lexxie, and i have an absolute rebellious personality.

if you tell me that being fat makes me unattractive, i'm going to wear a shorter skirt next time.

if you tell me that i'm never going to get a job with my (minimal!) tattoos, i'm going to get another one.

if you tell me that i'm a disappointment, i'm not going to go out of my way to make you proud of me.

i don't understand how my father, who i have at this point lived with my entire life, could think that berating me on a constant basis could make me want to change to make him happier. if you are pissed off by ridiculous, small, insignificant things, i'm going to continue to do those things. because you're just being an asshole.

he's been on me lately because i haven't been able to get a job. he's gone out of his way to be condescending, rude, to belittle me, and generally treat me like a second class citizen. but he's also not giving me any money or even buying groceries, so i'm not sure why he's convinced i'm such a financial drain. no one else is paying for shit around here, and i don't take any more showers or do any more laundry or use any more electricity than anyone else around here. i'm really just occupying a small room he could otherwise use to store any ugly collectibles my stepmom won't let him display. BUT, he also insists he doesn't want me, my brother, or my stepsister to move out. mixed messages, much?


and meanwhile, my stepmother is acting oblivious, fanning the flames, and being a two faced bitch.


i would give anything to be able to move out of here.


who wants to take in a broke girl and a slightly abusive cat? i'll make cookies all the time....but you'd probably have to buy the supplies.

i know, sounds like an awesome deal, right?


here's a picture of my little baby cousin, aka the best little human in the world, trying to take my phone from me as i snapped pictures of her



she's the only part of the past couple days that didn't suck.


and here's a picture of me trying to take a too-dark picture of my hair, which was actually in a pretty cool wrap-around french braid.





well, i at least have a two-day paycheque coming up on friday, and visits to Luscious and Dane to fill in my foot tattoo and possibly have a drunken bonfire this weekend. so that should liven things up a little



and just under one month to gala, and a month and a half until our sgce camping - aka the best time ever.

see you guys soon!