So in 6 days its SP's and mine one year anniversary. I cant believe its been a year already. And I still cant believe that I have found the girl that I have been dreaming about since I was 15. I was in love with SP long before I met her. There was aplace in my heart that only she could fill and I never before believed in fate, but finding out later how many pieces had to fall in to place for us to meet that night it makes me think that we were meant to be. I know one thing is for certain though I am never letting her go.

woo hoo new digital camera means stupid new pics

Fuck fuck...I am missing so many show I want to see lately. Queens of the Stone age sold out.Ian MAcKaye sold out.The weirdos are playing ..cant go have to work.Grinding teeth.....

I fell asleep last nite with my head resting on my girlfriends lap.I woke up with her stroking my hair looking down at me smiling.She walked me to the bedroom and put me to bed.And for a moment I had the same feeling I had when I would wake up in my mothers arms when I would fall asleep on the couch watching TV.That warm covered feeling when you know that you are being watched over and taken care of.I dont give many oppurtunities for SP to take care of me,I know its outdated but I dont like appearing vulnerable or in need of help,so when there is an oppurtunity I think she very much enjoys taking me under her wing.

So SP and I are going back to North Carolina (shudder) so she can met me mum.And see where I grew up. I havent seen my mom in like 6 years and I havent been back home for ten years.SP is excited about the trip..so she can have a mental picture of the places I have lived ,bars that I was thrown out of , the college I went to and finally get to meet my family.She also as kinda of a romantic vision about the south.But that vision is abit askewed... I ran as far away as I could without crossing a large body of water from the south.But I do want my mom to meet the girl I am going to spend the rest of life with.I am sure they are going to get along fine,it was my mom who after all got me listening to Punk in the first place.The Clash,The Pistols and Iggy were my Lullibuys when I was kid.But it kinda strange because for the first time in my life I want to try and find my Dad.He split when I was like 2.Not to have some cheesy reunion or ask why he left,just to tell him that I turned out fine,and I am not angry at him.I guess even though I dont know him I want my Dad to be proud he has a son.

Grrrrrr I tried to get tickets for the Queens of the Stone Age show but it sold out like in 2 minutes.Fucking scalpers.I hope they add another show.

On the bright side of things while most other boyfriends are out buying flowers and candy as I write this,I get let off the hook by my spookey cool girlfriend when she looked me in the eye last nite and said NO FLOWERS TOMMORROW...Appearantly she is going to have a anti valentines dinner with her friends....That girl is my new black.

Went to the Panthers show last night at nord.The band was great but I think I was the oldest fucker in the place.Besides maybe some of the band memebers.I dont mind being older as long as I dont grow old.

Nothing like starting your day by stepping in a big wet slimey hair ball.Thanks kittie

Went to the S.F Independent Film Festival last nite and watched The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things.Wow what a feel good movie.As in, it feels good to know that someone elses childhood was more fucked up than yours.I would highly recommend it if your in to movies that leave you numb.It is going to open at the Castro later this year.Its also a book by the same title,I think.

yea i get my 15 minutes of fame this monday on the Animal Planet Channel.i am going to be on the show animal cops in san francisco.Well actually its like 5 minutes but hell ill take it.its going to be wierd seeing my mug on TV.i also think my girlfriend more jazzed up about than i am.