i don't know what made me to right this blog. but think i do know what 2 say i think.
its just about some random thoughts that come in 2 my head. as no one can really say there shore of there future or that they can see it. but when they do its like the present does not exist to them any more.
things get forgotten important things like friends and loved ones. i guess we are all guilty of that. i know i am.
iv let my mind wonder for years now and want a change well a change in pace. but as far as my past goes i want some of it back. i use to be a trainee nurse but lost my job due to ill health and i apparently
couldn't carry on there. well thats what human resources said and they didn't offer me work ells where. ok i guess this is the part where i tell you where this all took place. 2004 i started work at the royal
victoria hospital Edinburgh. it was just after my week doing my intro. i remember getting in the hospitals cafe and being greeted by a senior nurse who helped me fill in some paper work as I'm dyslexic. next part had
my knees knocking but i was all so excited but that came crashing down around me.
the doors to the ward was closed my ward manager greeted me at the door. wasn't good. if any of you have done the induction you'll know one of the first things about a type of brake out on a ward.................V
& D not fun.
guess this sound cruel but iv helped to look after pigs be for so the smell in the end didn't bother me.
the next key moment i can remember was when a patient died. and just the other day i had been feeding him. it just was so odd. can any one tell you how to think to feel when that happens. yes he was very old
frail. but it was just so sudden. the human races yer shore we have cars we have homes heating electricity we can go on holidays earn money be happy sad. but when are defenses are down one little bug and
render us all Senseless . that moment it hit me boom we are all in one bubble and with in this bubble and when it bursts we are all doomed. that day when i was told he had died i was all so disgusted ( i don't
know if i was being silly) when a student nurse was treating it like a freak show. she said COME ON LETS GO SEE THE 1ST DEAD BODY IT BE GOOD FOR YOU...
i made an excuse and when on with my day.
some months past and things got easier. then one day i went for a smoke ( i not any more ) and i was getting in the the hidden spot. i was walking over to the chair then i tripped on some loose patio and
landed on my knee. and thats when the shit hit the fan. this is when my HMS reared its ugly head.
so that it does not go on for to long IL just say this. i was let go from my job be for i had my diagnosis.
but the real last thing is this to ever reads this is. take care of the future now. try and put some safeguards in. try in inshore the future it cant be promised i know but at least you tried. i had that chance but i didn't take it. i should of sided up 2 the union for work but i didn't. if i had i guess i might of made it. so be smarter and do what it takes........
be smart be safe
its just about some random thoughts that come in 2 my head. as no one can really say there shore of there future or that they can see it. but when they do its like the present does not exist to them any more.
things get forgotten important things like friends and loved ones. i guess we are all guilty of that. i know i am.
iv let my mind wonder for years now and want a change well a change in pace. but as far as my past goes i want some of it back. i use to be a trainee nurse but lost my job due to ill health and i apparently
couldn't carry on there. well thats what human resources said and they didn't offer me work ells where. ok i guess this is the part where i tell you where this all took place. 2004 i started work at the royal
victoria hospital Edinburgh. it was just after my week doing my intro. i remember getting in the hospitals cafe and being greeted by a senior nurse who helped me fill in some paper work as I'm dyslexic. next part had
my knees knocking but i was all so excited but that came crashing down around me.
the doors to the ward was closed my ward manager greeted me at the door. wasn't good. if any of you have done the induction you'll know one of the first things about a type of brake out on a ward.................V
& D not fun.
guess this sound cruel but iv helped to look after pigs be for so the smell in the end didn't bother me.
the next key moment i can remember was when a patient died. and just the other day i had been feeding him. it just was so odd. can any one tell you how to think to feel when that happens. yes he was very old
frail. but it was just so sudden. the human races yer shore we have cars we have homes heating electricity we can go on holidays earn money be happy sad. but when are defenses are down one little bug and
render us all Senseless . that moment it hit me boom we are all in one bubble and with in this bubble and when it bursts we are all doomed. that day when i was told he had died i was all so disgusted ( i don't
know if i was being silly) when a student nurse was treating it like a freak show. she said COME ON LETS GO SEE THE 1ST DEAD BODY IT BE GOOD FOR YOU...
i made an excuse and when on with my day.
some months past and things got easier. then one day i went for a smoke ( i not any more ) and i was getting in the the hidden spot. i was walking over to the chair then i tripped on some loose patio and
landed on my knee. and thats when the shit hit the fan. this is when my HMS reared its ugly head.
so that it does not go on for to long IL just say this. i was let go from my job be for i had my diagnosis.
but the real last thing is this to ever reads this is. take care of the future now. try and put some safeguards in. try in inshore the future it cant be promised i know but at least you tried. i had that chance but i didn't take it. i should of sided up 2 the union for work but i didn't. if i had i guess i might of made it. so be smarter and do what it takes........
be smart be safe