so i started to dating a guy last year that i had dated two years ago. when we got back together he told me he was going to have a baby with a random chic. i accepted that cuz i know shit happens. anyway it has been a whole year and it has been a hard and trying year for me. i feel like i'm constantly on the outside looking in. there is this huge tug of war where my bf wants me to be involved and every time i get involved it's like he holds me me at arms length. it's like he wants me close but not to close. i have drama with the baby's mom and now the baby has taken to crying hysterically when hug my bf. she has even gons so far to smack me when i do. i know i shouldn't let a one year old make me feel sooo bad but she does. my feelings are hurt pretty bad

well i'm back...again lol! life just has been keeping me sooooo busy! i recently just moved to my own place in camarillo with my boyfriend and a really good friend of mine. it's great to have my own place again but everything is so damn expensive. i've been needing some excitement to break up the monotamy of life. i was looking into pole dancing classes because i think that would be fun and hear it is an awsome workout but there aren't many places in the area that offer that and the couple of places that do are sooooooo expensive. so i have settled for yoga three times a week and a hip hop class once a week. i was also thinking about getting another tattoo (ok well several tattoos!). this next one i want should be a celebration about the beauty of life but i can't come up with any ideas that don't seem cheesy lol! if anyone out there has some suggestions please send them my way. last but not least i have been thinking seriously about submitting photos to sg. i think there is no better way to bring excitement into my life! i'm only going to be young once and i think the female body is beautiful! I would like to share that with all of you (hopefully you will think my body is beautiful too!) well it's time for me to go i hope everyone has something to be thankful for on this day of thanks i wish you and your families and friends a safe and happy thanksgiving!

So i'm being a bumb today i took the day off work well kind of i will be doing some work from home...but i had an awsome day at the beach yesterday. the weather wasn't that great but we had some hard lemonade and my friends did a little surfing and we also took some "America's next top model" pictures. It was a pretty good day. I realized that i need to go to the beach more often, maybe what it is is that i need to go to the beach more often with alcohol. Alcohol makes everything better

i'm back guys glad to be home in so cal...florida was cool but has nothing on cali...my bday was very nice. and now it is time to party anyone wanna join me?

Thank you all for commenting on my sexyness i greatly appreciate it! that's why i love SG because no one is afraid to see beauty and sexiness in everyone! So i'm pretty tired right now but i'm also very happy i had some great sex last night in the front seat of my car. if you havent had sex in th car in a while i suggest you try it. it can be pretty fun with the thrill of getting caught lol! anyways i'm a hppy camper but i was hopping for more lusty lovemaking but alas my boom boom is off shore in long beach so no hot sexy love in the front seat of the car til thursday so what has everyone else been up to? any hot nakedness going on with you all/? i don't know if i want to always be the one that shares my nakedness i think i need a litlle reciprocation... who am i kidding i love sharing my nakedness with you all but i wouldn't mind if you shared some with me too

hey all... the weather is finally nice in cali. which of course is giving my nudity needs a little scratch. it is summer time (practically) and the less clothes the better. i think that once a week i should have a naked day. maybe i should become a stripper but only work like one or two nights a week. i once enter a novice stip contest at a strip bar. but i lost for some reason people didn't find me all that sexy lol oh well maybe i can enter the contest again at least it would be for fun now cuz i don't depend on anyone elses opinion on my sexiness factor. well i'm off to get ready for work and try to enjoy my day in sun without taking my clothes off...i'll let you know how that goes

i should be in bed sleeping because i have a full day at work tomorrow but i couldn't sleep... do you ever get the feeling that you want something exciting to happen? you know like it is right around the corner but you have the great potential to miss it if you don't pay attention? that's how i feel right now. i don't have anything new and exciting going on right now. i'm still on my search for that nude photographer i just think it would be fun to pose naked for some photos. it will be cool to look at them 20 years from now and to see myself so free and willing to be vulnerable.

i have decided that whether or not i find someone to go with me to the nudist resort i am going in aug. i think that i am ready to do something like that on my own, though it would be more fun with a friend or two . i have decided that this summer should have a theme it should incorporate concepts of fun, nakedness, and the sun. as soon as i come up with a nice catchy slogan i will come back and let you all know...or if any of you have any suggestions you know i am all ears.... and then that will be my mantra for this summer and possibly every summer to come

goodnight my sg family how i you all

so i'm tired but i can't sleep i just got home from work not to long ago...i just found out that i will be working extra hours at my nanny job this up coming month. i'm really glad for this exta work because i am going to orlando and miami next month and could really use th extra money...well i guess i should try to get some sleep since i do have a game in the morning goodnight all

well i had sex last night ... it was great but it just left me wanting more...guess i will go over to his place and help myself since hinting and asking doesn't seem to work lol what are your plans for this weekend people? plus i was wondering if anyone knew of any photographers who take nude pics? i was thinking about having some pics done professionally