I finally have my replacement computer yeeeaaahh! It's even bigger than my last one and is specced as a GAMING RIG! Pretty damn exciting for this little gamer geek.

In other news, life has been fun lately!

Drinking with Crimsonpetals! That girl is so much fun


Dinner party shenanigans! This has been my facebook profile pic for months because really, I'm not sure that I can top this one.


Drunken selfies in the loo!


I signed up for OkCupid to try and meet chicks! Pretty sure that I don't want a relationship right away but I'd love to make some more lesbian friends and maybe somewhere along the way connect with one and then fall in love. This time around I want the friendship to come first. I reckon if I do it that way then love will smack me in the face when I've gotten to know someone really well. I'll also reduce the risk of hurting someone by jumping in face first and finding out later that the compatibility isn't right. I guess we all must live and learn. I just know I hate hurting people!

But for now, I write, I live, I hang with my friends and I GAME!!!!!!

I'm writing today. I'm up to Chapter 3 of my new novel. The skeleton is complete and I like how this one is developing.

Here's a taste!

Ollie pressed her hand into her bruise and tried desperately to remember. There was an impact. Something wooden? Her mouth began to water and her heartbeat quickened.
'Somebody hit me.'
She felt this to be true as much as her name was Ollie. Not because she thought it but because she felt it. Like a cat knows how to hunt and a mouse knows how to hide. She was Ollie, and someone was hunting her.

Eep it's been a long time...shouldn't have left you


Without a dope beat to step to...

Here's a bit of my writing - some 'bored at work' musing. Now - back to my Playstation lol!!!

There is a new world evolving in the bottom of my coffee cup. I have been watching it
for a week now. It is dry, arid. Lifeless. The cracked plane of dried coffee crystals is
coated with an oil slick. A chocolate coloured snowflake spreading outwards and upwards.
Each day I look at it, and then put it back on the universe of my desk. It seems as though
it belongs there, a china and acrylic paint star in orbit around the white-lit Flatron sun.

If I drowned the coffee cup world, tried to erase it from existence, it would
eventually release itself from its porcelain crust. It would not dissolve; it would float to
the surface, still a perfect flat disc. I allay the thoughts of ruin. I allow the world
another day. Tomorrow I will look at it again. Contemplate its future. Return it to its
universe next to the spent pen satellites and the single-serve milk-portion asteroid belt.

I am here but I am not here. Mostly I am not here. My body is here, I am an expert at
multi-tasking. My brain and body types, carries, sorts, files and collates. My heart and
soul explores, creates, wonders and longs

Got some more work done on my sleeve. The hand and wrist are done now.



All the arrows done now too. I have another appointment in December to get the background finished. Yay!

Anyone ever have one of those emo days where you have trouble remembering why you like yourself?

I'm having one of those days. I'm usually very optimistic and hopeful despite my past - and proud of being a fighter. Sometimes though, the doubt sets in and I feel shame and lacking in integrity. A fraud! A shell.

Maybe it's the fear of loneliness setting in or a pre-midlife crisis.

The older I get, the more I cling to life and the more it seems like it is not mine to claim a right to. The race is on to make an imprint, to leave something behind as proof that I wasn't a waste of air. Or is that need of mine a hopeless one, doomed to make me feel inadequate. You get the time that you get and you better have lived it well.

I hope it storms this afternoon.

I don't like feeling like this so I'm going to go have a shower and then maybe spend this afternoon writing and playing video games.

I sort of feel like kicking my emo arse, so here is a lol...

I'm winding down from two weeks off work. It's been great and I really needed it. Here's a pic or two of me in Byron Bay!





And the beach....the weather was perfect!



It's bittersweet because my girlfriend and I realised we aren't meant to be and we called it quits before we invested too much into each other. I don't regret any of our time and it's a shame because everything was so close to being perfect. But when you know it isn't right, there isn't any other option to my mind.

Apocalypse Pony! Plague!!



My awesome artist friend is now learning to tattoo. This is my new addition and her sixth tattoo. I'm going to get a Death Pony on my other calf to match!

Met a girl recently who I was so sure would be out of my league. So sure of it. I looked at her for the first time after emailing on facebook for three weeks, then had to lower my head and say to myself, 'Get a grip, she will only want you as a friend.'

Well I lost my mind later that night when she kissed me, and we've been officially together for a bit over a week now. She says I make her feel fuzzy. Me! Making HER feel fuzzy! Can you tell I'm smitten??

I have SUCH a crush on this woman!! Why can't she be gay...and my neighbour?



YAY for Easter long weekend.

I'll be drinking coffee, eating bbq, playing video games, then drinking and more video games hahaha!

I'm kinda feeling like this at the moment...

"And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

All of his questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it's always darkest before the dawn"