i really didn't want to update.
it amused me greatly having the update where the character i've created and been for a long time now was born.

but bitches- i'm BACK!!!

and speaking of bitches, why haven't i been approved for SGBC?!
it's not like i don't know you people.

lol.

are you worried that in the time i've gone i've become a giant creeper?
well, i have.
but i still wants to be back in the group.
it's been soooo long.

someone vouch for me or whatever it is that you do now.
i'm fantastic!

there was a practical at school today.
diana is a lovely bunny.
she looked good.
[well i think so at least]
and i'm relatively happy with how it turned out vs experience i have with the products/techniques i used.

now i am most tired.
but i wanted to show off a couple candids that were taken.
'cause you know.
i rock that way.

oh right.
i now have my own wow account.
it is sooo good.
unfortuately leading me to abandon my other characters i have made.
but i now have a perma-character to call my own, dumarae.

if anyone could tell me what language i used to create the name, i will bone the crap out of you.

yeah.
so i play warcraft now.
in a sneaky sort of way.
i have a character.
she is wicked.
a level eight. or is it nine?
sheesh, i cannot remember.
but i'm good.
i started her today.
a gnome warlock, named MAlexandra.
she's a cutie.
and most vicious.
with a little minion who sometimes dies.

i dream of the day i will ride a mechanostrider.
those things are bitchin'.

maybe one day i'll even have my own account.
until then.
i will play my little gnome when mister hethral allows it with great glee.
because you know what?
i like it.

i have not updated in forever and a half.
that is because i suck.
see?



i like going to school now.
it is very fun.
soon, very soon i will learn how to airbrush.
this excites me.
and then i will airbrush everything.

fx are fun.


other than school.
my life is boring.
boringly overwhelming.

i should get out more.
but i don't.
and oh well.

i am jealous of my sister who is in blisland.

and lookie.
more pictures of me in black and white and dripping blood.



this makes me smile.


sometimes smugly.


and sometimes i try to hide how it makes me feel.
but it always comes out in my eyes.

so.
what's new?null

i want my usb cord/cable whatever you want to call it.
i want it.
it seems to be missing.
i have a camera full of pictures that i cannot upload.
therefore, i am completely bored with the idea of journal updates- i prefer them with pictures dammit.

there is an unending mess of drama in my little freak world.
so i believe i will be leaving it.
at least for a little while.
just long enough to maybe get me some?


sgbc party tonight.
a welcome distraction.
i will be there.
looking a fool and a mess.
which doesn't really bother me.
i'm just announcing it ahead of time.

i wish for cranberry and vodka.
although this time maybe not as many as last time.


now i'm going to take a bath.
possibly with bubbles.
and maybe a bath bomb too.
because i deserve it god fucking dammit.

i have the plague.
or rather i did.
i am getting over it.

spent monday night in the hospital.
what a dreadful place to be.
i spent my time there hungry, thirsty, freezing and in pain.
i could have done better at home.

had to drag myself to school all week.
which was a complete adventure.
good thing i only go three days a week otherwise i think i may have expired.

yesterday i got my hair cut.
and dyed.
i again have raven tresses.
i'm not sure on the cut though.
i may have to go back and get more chopped off.
we shall see, we shall see.

i may just be crazy from too much cough medication.
and hairspray.
my shit i hate hairspray.
all in my freaking lungs.

*cough*
i slept until one o clock today.
that fact makes me smile.

...i think i will take more cough syrup.
i wish i had someone to feed it to me.
it feels like torture doing it to yourself.
it's JUST not right!

i've gotten into school now.
i like it.
it gives me something to do.
to occupy some of my time.
and hopefully soon, it will occupy more due to some fun volunteer opportunities.

i'm going through a rough, dramatical patch at the moment.
it's getting to be a bit more than i can bear.
but things are changing.
oh how things will change.
i'm almost welcoming to it for once- i think i may be ready.
i may appear to be melancholy and maudlin but it doesn't always go much deeper than appearances.
it's a pensive state.

i have a presentation tomorrow at school.
i am terrified and unprepared.
i also have an exam tomorrow.
not as scared, but quite unprepared.

i am having a hard time getting my head into it this evening.
i want to sit around and take pictures.
i want to write.
i want to create.
i really don't want to do school projects.
but i'm learning...
life isn't all about what i'd like to do.

but i would like to have some green and blacks.
and tomorrow i shall get some.
as a reward you see.
because i will have stayed up all night preparing for that darn presentation and exam.
why oh why do i always leave things to the last minute?
oh right.
i like the challenge.
*grin*

hello and welcome to another installment of megan's mind.

people are strange.
this i already knew.
but my goodness.
school is cementing that fact in my head.
cement, cement, cement.

bubble heads.
fucking bubble girls.
they giggle and squeal and bounce.
they are the worst stereotypes.
i am still disappointed at the lack of queers in my class.
but i'm starting to get over it.
as my fear of bubble heads diminishes.

this journal [or just an excuse to post silly pictures]
is brought to you by the letter hungry and a little of the number sleep deprived.

so moving on.
pictures.

mostly of my fort.
my fort being under a desk.
with pillows.
and couch cushions.
and a sleeping bag.
quite often with a dash of chocolate and a smattering of juice.
i love my fort.
it is a wonderful place for naps.
enamoured i am.
with a fort.
which isn't really a fort.
but shhhh.
don't tell.





http://suicidegirls.com/media/members/4/81/187814/55180/740516.jpg

i feel protected in my fort.
a fabulous place to hide.
if something comes in my fort, be it toes or otherwise.
i may feel the need to pounce on them.
but that feeling is best repressed.

after being a complete and utter poser girl.
who's mushy for a "fort"

i laughed.
and pretended to be a gorilla.
which failed immensely.
because i just cannot look that dashingly manly.
but i tried.
and am amused.



that was my best effort.
boo-urns at that.



really, i am but a clothing stealer.
but bunny hugs feel best stolen.



maybe he wants it back?
maybe he just thinks i'm a ridiculous fool.

but that's fine.
'cause i am.

alright you big bullies.
i'm updating, i'm updating.

i have been going to school.
damn right.
i'm officially a student.
school is quite good.
since i have a little bit of a talent in the area in which i am ..studying?
studying doesn't really count for make up does it.
but yes.
i am happy with that.

car accident is still slightly rattling my nerves.
but i did get my first massage today.
and i have been dealing with a codeine addiction.
heh.
and icbc has been phoned.
even though they are scary.
most scary.
my, how frightening icbc can be.
but that done...
except now i actually have to go see them.
but that doesn't come until later.

i am currently the owner of a dramatical heart.
it is fond of crescendos.
but i think that has always been the case.

i miss my friends.
mostly the cute ones.
i miss taking pictures with them most of all.
but soon that could be rectified with a second annual
[and i believe our fifth actual anniversary]
anniversary photo shoot.
[i think it's cute i have an anniversary with someone..who i'm now all shushy feeling about mentioning who]
so yes.

school is good.
missing people is bad.
i like cherry mania gelato.
ohmygoodness.
and i will soon post the ever late[r] sushi pictures.

now shush about my updating.
EDiT:
oh and what's an update without a picture....



loveliness. sweetness and light.