Hmmm... An update from li'l ol' me. Nothing terribly profound lately, other than the fact that Christmas is still hard. It's been fifteen years since my brother died, and there are times when it seems like yesterday. My family has long traditions for holidays, and every time one rolls around, it's a reminder of what we've lost. This is not to say that holidays are miserable, but we make an effort to remember him and the others we've lost over the years. It's never been a religious holiday for any of us, but we've got at least five generations on both sides' worth of tradition. So we do what we can to honor their memories.

Some personal issues as of late, but overall, my quality of life seems to be slowly improving. I've started to realize that I am in control of what happens to me (for the most part), and it's a good feeling. Now just to point myself in a direction where I can not only have a great life for myself, but more importantly, help those around me fulfill their wildest hopes and dreams. Those that know me are often surprised that I'm an optimist, but I have to be. Been through many levels of hell, but I always manage to come out in one piece. Never thought I was that resilient, but it looks like I am. It's comforting in many ways.

Probably one of the best things in my life lately is the fact that I'm mostly off-the-market, as it were. There's an irony in the fact that I've been doing web stuff since '94, but only recently have I gotten involved with online communities. Met an incredible girl in Cali, and we'll be meeting in April. So odd to be able to type at someone for hours on end, day in and day out, and always have something new to talk about and learn of each other. Phone's not bad, either. Obviously we're not "exclusive" at this point, but there's hope for the first time since 2001. Last girlfriend ended up with a perjury conviction after attacking me, so I've been sorta gun-shy about getting involved with anyone else seriously.

Hmmm... An update from li'l ol' me. Nothing terribly profound lately, other than the fact that Christmas is still hard. It's been fifteen years since my brother died, and there are times when it seems like yesterday. My family has long traditions for holidays, and every time one rolls around, it's a reminder of what we've lost. This is not to say that holidays are miserable, but we make an effort to remember him and the others we've lost over the years. It's never been a religious holiday for any of us, but we've got at least five generations on both sides' worth of tradition. So we do what we can to honor their memories.

Some personal issues as of late, but overall, my quality of life seems to be slowly improving. I've started to realize that I am in control of what happens to me (for the most part), and it's a good feeling. Now just to point myself in a direction where I can not only have a great life for myself, but more importantly, help those around me fulfill their wildest hopes and dreams. Those that know me are often surprised that I'm an optimist, but I have to be. Been through many levels of hell, but I always manage to come out in one piece. Never thought I was that resilient, but it looks like I am. It's comforting in many ways.

Probably one of the best things in my life lately is the fact that I'm mostly off-the-market, as it were. There's an irony in the fact that I've been doing web stuff since '94, but only recently have I gotten involved with online communities. Met an incredible girl in Cali, and we'll be meeting in April. So odd to be able to type at someone for hours on end, day in and day out, and always have something new to talk about and learn of each other. Phone's not bad, either. Obviously we're not "exclusive" at this point, but there's hope for the first time since 2001. Last girlfriend ended up with a perjury conviction after attacking me, so I've been sorta gun-shy about getting involved with anyone else seriously. But this is looking to be deeply satisfying...

Life is good.

- gordon