I don't have a whole lot to write about this week. I guess that is a good thing?

I got to do some riding yesterday.....bit chilly, but nothing leather couldn't handle!!!

I got a new couch, chair and ottoman for my living room today!!! Lori says that I am getting ready for her to move in, but to tell the truth I need new furniture anyway!!!

I am going to the doctor next Friday and get started on my surgery. I need to see my family doctor and get a referral. Then make an appointment with the surgeon for a consultation. Then get a psychiatric evaluation to make sure I am not totally crazy!!! After all that see if my insurance will pay for it. I will have to go through counseling for a long time before and after the surgery. I guess that is to make sure that I have steady support and that everything is ok, both body and mind. I would say soul too.....but that is lost already!!!

I miss Lori, but hopefully I might get to stop in Corsicana Texas and see her this week!!! I might go down there in a few weeks and make a long weekend and take her out and have some fun!!!

Until next time........<Hugs>

Well, did I keep you all in suspense? No, no one is pregnant!!! It is quite a good thing........
I have decided to let my ex move in with me. 2 reasons for this.
1 is so that she can go to truck driving school and begin a career that will make her happy; financially, physically, spiritually, and emotionally!!! She has dreams and needs a path that will help her dreams come true. I will also train her and we will run team together until she gets sick of me!!!
2 is because I have decided to undergo Gastric Bypass Surgery. If you don't know what that is.......this might help.

I have been thinking about doing this for years, but until now it was for all the wrong reasons. I finally love who I am......and some of you who really know me, know this. I love life and want to live a long healthy life. I will be out of work for about 6 to 8 weeks after the surgery and Lori has told me she wants to help......she even offered to pay for it if it would make ME happy!!! The Surgery costs about $19000 USD. She had no Idea how much it would cost, but by saying that........it was the biggest gift of love anyone has ever given to me. We do admit that we love each other......but we're not "in love" with each other. That may change in time, but I don't look for that to happen......call me pessimistic!!! I will always be there for her and her for me and that is good enough!!! I just feel real lucky to have her in my life!!! We always have a great time together......but I try not to kiss and tell!!!

Got some news that I will post later.........must go to bed now!!! The news I have is good and has to do with a certain 2 people.

I had this big long blog written out.........then hit back. What an ass I am!!!! Ok, here are some pic's from New Years!!! Hope you like them!!!

Lori and my Stepdaughter Sharoll

Guess who!!!

Hey party people!!!

The writing is on the wall.....

Bartender!!! Give me one of everything!!!

Me and the host/my friend Cary

fun, fun, fun!!!

Breakfast.....after a few hours sleep.

Partners in Crime!!!
If your not sure yet.......my ex the one in the long black hair!!!


I will be back sometime friday............off to El Paso TX!!! Miss ya!!! Myspace.com for more pic's!!!

I am home again!!! I got to see my exgirlfriend again yesterday on my way home thru Texas. Is was just lucky timing I think!!! She when to eat at this BBQ place in Hillsboro TX and I just happened to be about 30 minutes from there so I stopped. I might go get her Sunday and bring her back to Arkansas for a New Years party......I would be nice to ring in the new year with her!!! We always have a lot of fun!!!

I will write more later.......I am damn tired!!!

Didn't even leave the house on Christmas day........good to have a lazy day where I still get paid for doing nothing!!!
Happy Boxing day to those of you In the UK, Australia, Canada, New Zealand.......and wherever else it is celebrated!!!

I am feeling a bit nostalgic today!!! I guess you can say I have taken a long look at my own life and realized how fucking lucky and blessed I am. Not only am I a man that is living his dreams, but I have also seen the wreckage of my own past and survived to tell the tale! I have done things, been places that some can only dream about and yet I still sometimes take all this for granted......to tell the truth, I never expected to live to see my 30th birthday......and in the next year I will be 40!!! I have had a variety of professions in my life......starting from a Merchant Marine, a Soldier, a drummer, a drug dealer(the last 2 almost killed me), a farmer, a chef, a bartender, a bouncer, and finally a just a truck driver and part time bike wrench!!! I was talking with a friend today and we were discussing music and why I wanted to be a drummer. Well way back in 1976 a band from Canada came out with one of the greatest Albums to ever hit the rock genre.....now back then I was a huge Kiss fan, but this Canadian band or should I say the Drummer of this band changed my life forever! I was awe stuck by this mans ability to play......and I wanted to be just like him. I did have my 15 minutes of fame......but it was borrowed fame (I was a replacement drummer for a well know 80's new wave band). But that Drummer gave me a drive and a wish to learn that will stay with me forever. That Drummer is Neil Pert from Rush!!!

This classic tune is older than most of you on SG........but listen and watch the music as it is performed!!! It made me study and play music for over 15 years........then I just gave it up one day! But my friend has kind of rekindled a spark that makes me think about getting back into it again. Not for money or for fame.......just for the love of music!!! Also I am thinking it might take my mind off of certain events that have happened in the last months.......not that I ever will forget, but just to breath new life into me!!! Ok that is enough crap from me!!!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

Well.....where to start??? I just hope I don't come across to emo on this entry? I went to my ex-girlfriends house today and cooked dinner. I made chicken & Tortellini(cheese) with a cream pesto sauce and a pineapple cake for desert. It all came out fantastic.......of course it would since I am a professionally trained chef!!! The cake was so good and moist (I made a glaze out of the pineapple juice and sugar) I bet I could have made a ton of money from pot party!!!
But enough about my culinary skills........my ex is leaving for Texas tomorrow. I don't think I will be seeing her for a long, long time again. I just get that feeling.......there is an emptiness now that can't be filled. I can't quite explain it. I hope the best for her, and hope that she will always remember me........as I will always remember her. I have spent a lot of time talking with her and trying to see her when I can (or when we both have the time I should say).........I hate goodbyes. Now I know why there are so many songs about friends and lovers parting. I guess this song kind of makes more sense to me now.

Caramel
I wish the best for her and I have a feeling things might just work out this time........a part of me hopes she will come home.....I can't lie! But I have always wanted the best for her........even if that isn't me!!! I call it selflessness......she calls it unconditional love. I don't know where I am going with this.......I just know that I am sad.......really sad!!! She always brings out the best in me.......I wish there were more women like her, but I guess she is and will always be special to me!!!

Don't have a whole lot to post this week......yet!!! I am off work until Christmas day and then will work the next 5 days. I will be off the entire New Years this year......since I had to work last year!!! It seems like every time I try and plan something........it just goes to shit!!! So I am not making anymore plans for New Years. I will just wing it and find a party somewhere!!!

I have decided that I am going to quit smoking this next year. I want to stop before I am 40. I also plan on not working so hard this next year......I want to travel more (Thailand) and do some rides with my friends. I have been chasing the dollar for too many years.......now maybe I can chase some fun, some girls, some dreams, and maybe catch a few!!!

I will see everyone back here next weekend!!! Stay warm!!! And remember a fat jolly guy is watching you......it's either Santa, your parole officer, or me!!!