not much is new. i havent been working for two months and just cant find a job here to save my life. ive just been reading, sleeping, and chatting online mostly. i have been planning on going back up to ohio for a while to work. hopefull i will be able to handle two jobs, save up alot of money, get these bloody bills paid off, and maybe even take a few more classes. tim is kinda okay with it, but he wishes it wasnt going like this. especially since im taking the car. i will still look around here for a job, but if nothing happens in the next week or two, i will probably be in ohio.

other than that, i have put in a few hours volunteering at jacobs ladder, therepudic riding center. i cant get over how much i love being with those horses! i used to be afraid of getting to close to one, but not anymore. i actually had fun helping the disabled kids, and im suprised cuz i really dont like kids period. but being with the horses made it all okay. i just wish i could go out there more, but right now it seems she really has all the help she needs right now. so maybe if im around in the summer when kids are out of school ill get to help more. i even took an hour lesson myself! that was fun and scary, but i cant wait to do it again. and if i end up in ohio soon then i will definately take lessons and try to volunteer there in troy too! i just wish i had gotten pics of my first time on a horse!

well i think thats about it for my update. i said i was gonna be gone for awhile, and since then i have cancelled my account. i dont know if i will be back. my account is supposed to shut off in a couple days i believe. for anyone wanting to keep in touch:

myspace

deviantart


am i forgetting anything?

...think i might be gone for awhile guys.....

I HAVE CHICKEN POX!!!!!

WTF?!?!

im really fucking itchy and it SUCKS!

wow. remember that pic of the hole ichigo chewed out from under her arm??? well i know exactly what happned now. when i left for ohio it was pretty much healed up. when i came back here, a huge tumor had grown in its place. i noticed yesterday that even tho it wasnt hurting her, it was still getting in her way it was so big. i wanted to take her to the vet to have it removed but just cant afford it. well now i dont have to. its gone. she chewed at it til it was all gone. yet again there is no blood, she seems to be in no pain, and she is keeping it very clean. so what had seemed to be an irritated nipple from nursing her little was the forming of the tumor. i already knew it was very common for rats to get benign tumors, but i had no idea that they would chew them off. im amazed by this and im glad that she is taking care of herself when i cant. she also seems to not be viscious with me anymore, as long as its not feeding time! its also hard to spend time with all her kids individually to get them used to human interaction.

i was watching animal planet the other day and the best of pet star was on. i saw some pretty neat tricks. but what blew me away the most was a dog that could count all on her own! you could ask her any simple addition, subtraction, or multiplication problem and she would gently pat her answer on the ground. amazing i say!!! there was also a mini horse that would answer in the same way after seeing two dice rolled, adding them up. so cool! oh and after throwing a ton of change on the floor, there was a dog that would pick out the state quarter of your choice! god i love animals!!!

the toads are starting to come back out. and i just heard a bat in my neighbors tree.

i feel very sick right now. i need some ginger ale really bad!

well i did leave my job a week before being laid off so i could take leave up to ohio with tim. i still havent gotten my paycheck yet. i am really worried about that. my holidays did not feel like the holidays at all. i didnt put up any decorations in my house before i left and i couldnt really afford presents for anyone. i myself recieved some cds, a puzzle, a kick ass tarot deck ive been wanting for years, really pretty windchimes ive been in love with, pretty little paintbrush set, the tiniest peanut butter cups ever, a shirt, and some bullshit odds and ends from my gramma cuz she just doesnt give a shit about what i might possibly want or like. the puzzle is so hard too, its gonna take me forever to finish it. i really want to use the celtic dragon tartot cards but ive never used tarot before so im really scared lol. but i guess i have to bond with them sooner or later. well i spent my entire xmas vacation with my sister which was really nice for a change. it was nice not running around like crazy trying to see everyone in such a short amount of time. none of my family had put up any decorations either so that didnt help with the holiday spirit. my 4 year anniversary was on the 28th. we watched king kong and tried to eat dinner at olive garden but it was so packed and the wait was too long so we went over to outback. oh we had to take our new kitten up to ohio with us cuz he was sick and even tho alex was staying behind, we couldnt trust him to keep up with the meds properly. he could barely even keep up with the house itself. he even tried to refuse cleaning the cat box for us. we currently have five cats in our house with two big litter boxes and he was just gonna let them shit on the floor if the boxes got too bad. grrrr. and yes the rats are getting almost as big as mom. ten of them are boys and i separated them from the girls and mom before i left. they eat so much i cant keep up! ichigo is still very viscous and now the two daughters are becoming that way too it really sucks. well i think that pretty much brings us up to the present! i was planning on flying out to OK see some friends from misawa but they had to push it back to april. thats actually really good timing cuz i absolutely have to get another job asap!! we are really behind on bills! i need to figure out how to make a good resume to give to the animal care department at the park and get in touch with best buy to see if they are still interested in me. also ive been thinking about my photography and possibly modeling, so we will see what i can pull off. i need to do something cool with my hair....any ideas? oh and i finally got back into a gym today and tim even worked out too! yay!!! and its a good thing they checked my id at the gate today cuz my military id expires tomorrow!

why does MySpace have to be such a bloody bitch all the time?!

bloodthirstyvampirekitten: he takes darvaset and vicadin
bloodthirstyvampirekitten: these weird shark pills
bloodthirstyvampirekitten: sometimes
daffodill314: shark cartilage?
bloodthirstyvampirekitten: yea thats it
daffodill314: aaah yes, very good for bones!
bloodthirstyvampirekitten: lol
daffodill314: we had it at gnc :3
daffodill314: very popular
bloodthirstyvampirekitten: doctor kangaroo....*cough cough* i think im sick....touch me here ^_^

THEY HAVE EYES!!!!!





YAY!


and this is not yay:


mommy hurt herself. its hard to tell in this shitty pic but its really deep. but i never saw any blood and its not bothering her! apparently one of her nipples was irratated, so like many wild animals she chewed on it...till the gland was gone! it is healing up very fast too thank god. oh and mommy finally has a name its Ichigo, japanese for strawberry

heres my babies!!

a couple days old




starting to get color!


and a week and a half today!


i cant wait for their eyes to open!