In times like this its really hard to know where I belong in this world I've loved and lost and loved again only to lose again my friends have all either moved away or have dropped me out of there lives so here I go again on my own...
Today would have been my wife's 36th birthday.....Im dealing with it the best i can trying not to lose it....
For the first time in a while i broke down today crying i really don't know why? I feel so alone right now and I really don't know how to deal with it. I'm afraid......I don't want to lose her so I want to give her all the space and time she need's but that's where I guess i'm scared. Maybe she will discover she dosent really love me and not want to be with me anymore.More than likely i'm just being a whiny bitch......Well i just needed to rant hope everyone is doing well in s.g land.......SIC
Well once again im alone Jackie needed time with here parents.....i love her with all of my heart and she will only be gone a month but it seems like an eternity...
Well got jackie packed her stuff in the u-haul we hit the road in the morning sights to see people to meet I can't wait...I love her so.
Time to really get busy moving today I go get jackrabbit next week let our life together be a long and happy one we deserve it.
