My health is improving but my state of mind isn't. I don't find joy in the things I used to love. I think having cancer has screwed with my head.
I got a new cell phone today. I dropped my old one and broke the display screen the other day. Thank goodness I have been with T-Mobile for so long because they sent me a new phone for free. Cool.
I just finished Fast Food Nation. I know, most of you read it a long time ago. I started it in treatment last week and found it interesting. I think the author draws some erroneous conclusions but the substance of his argument is valid.
I just finished Fast Food Nation. I know, most of you read it a long time ago. I started it in treatment last week and found it interesting. I think the author draws some erroneous conclusions but the substance of his argument is valid.
The latest lab results are in and the news isn't good. The cancer continues to spread. The bright note is that it isn't spreading as quickly. One must look for silver linings wherever they might present themselves.
The tropical storm is here. Rain and high winds all day. Good times.
I had a flyer in my door from the company that manages my apartment complex entitled "HURRICANE PREPARATION STEPS". It was printed on bright red paper.
Item 1...
"Do not use the pool during the hurricane."
Item 2...
"The free coffee typically available during office hours may not be available during the hurricane. Please call ahead to make sure coffee is available before coming to the office."
What idiots......
I had a flyer in my door from the company that manages my apartment complex entitled "HURRICANE PREPARATION STEPS". It was printed on bright red paper.
Item 1...
"Do not use the pool during the hurricane."
Item 2...
"The free coffee typically available during office hours may not be available during the hurricane. Please call ahead to make sure coffee is available before coming to the office."
What idiots......
So I am terminally ill and have met the girl of dreams. Go figure.
Jennifer is on the left.
Jennifer is on the left.
Just when I thought I had life figured out...
I was getting treatment yesterday and started to chat with the person in the chair next to me. For those that don't know, most cancer patients go to a clinic, sit in a big room in a big comfy chair with other patients, and have radioactive chemicals pumped into their arm. Once you are glowing in the dark, most cancer patients go on about their daily routine - work, school, whatever. Depends on how sick you are. Anyway, a lot of patients like to chat amongst themselves and with the staff to pass the time.
Anyway, I had promised myself that I was not going to chat with other patients any longer because I had seen a few of them pass away in the last few weeks. One girl in particular died from leukemia and her passing hit me pretty hard. But yesterday we had a new recruit, a woman with breast cancer, and she seemed nervous and like she wanted to chat. We had a nice conversation and realized that we had some mutual friends in the area.
Well, through those mutual friends she got my number and callled this afternoon to invite me to dinner. I was floored. Going out on a date has been the furthest thing from my mind - for so long - that it didn't dawn on me that I was being "asked out" until she made her intentions clear. I am still a little taken aback by the whole thing.
So, cancer boy is going on a date. Wish me luck.
As I type this there is a HUGE storm passing through the area. I love storms - the more violent the better. And we have some GREAT storms here in Texas. My two dogs aren't loving it though. So they are snuggled up on the couch with me wanting me to protect them.
I hope everyone is well and happy.
You are each a blessing to me. May the Lord bless you and keep you, cause His face to shine upon you, and give you peace.
I was getting treatment yesterday and started to chat with the person in the chair next to me. For those that don't know, most cancer patients go to a clinic, sit in a big room in a big comfy chair with other patients, and have radioactive chemicals pumped into their arm. Once you are glowing in the dark, most cancer patients go on about their daily routine - work, school, whatever. Depends on how sick you are. Anyway, a lot of patients like to chat amongst themselves and with the staff to pass the time.
Anyway, I had promised myself that I was not going to chat with other patients any longer because I had seen a few of them pass away in the last few weeks. One girl in particular died from leukemia and her passing hit me pretty hard. But yesterday we had a new recruit, a woman with breast cancer, and she seemed nervous and like she wanted to chat. We had a nice conversation and realized that we had some mutual friends in the area.
Well, through those mutual friends she got my number and callled this afternoon to invite me to dinner. I was floored. Going out on a date has been the furthest thing from my mind - for so long - that it didn't dawn on me that I was being "asked out" until she made her intentions clear. I am still a little taken aback by the whole thing.
So, cancer boy is going on a date. Wish me luck.
As I type this there is a HUGE storm passing through the area. I love storms - the more violent the better. And we have some GREAT storms here in Texas. My two dogs aren't loving it though. So they are snuggled up on the couch with me wanting me to protect them.
I hope everyone is well and happy.
You are each a blessing to me. May the Lord bless you and keep you, cause His face to shine upon you, and give you peace.
So here is the latest. The cancer has spread to my brain and is inoperable. I just spent the last few days in the hospital trying to find a solution. We weren't successfull.
But I am committed to making it through the end of the the next college football season because I am convinced that the University of Georgia Bulldogs have a damn good chance of winning it all. A silly reason to fight? Perhaps. But the reasons don't matter. The fight does.
My thanks to everyone. Especially Jozsef, Magpie and Loretta.
Have a shooter for me the next time you visit a bar.
I will be here as long as I am here.
Peace and love to you all.
Paul
But I am committed to making it through the end of the the next college football season because I am convinced that the University of Georgia Bulldogs have a damn good chance of winning it all. A silly reason to fight? Perhaps. But the reasons don't matter. The fight does.
My thanks to everyone. Especially Jozsef, Magpie and Loretta.
Have a shooter for me the next time you visit a bar.
I will be here as long as I am here.
Peace and love to you all.
Paul
The surgery went as well as can be expected. The cancer was Stage III (out of four stages). Not the news I was hoping for. So, after I after I recover from the surgery I move on to the chemo and radiation. Those will probably last for at least six months.
And the beat (and fun) goes on.
Thanks for the well wishes from everyone. They mean a lot.
And the beat (and fun) goes on.
Thanks for the well wishes from everyone. They mean a lot.
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