Short blog this time, I'll post a longer one later.

Well, as some of you know I have EDS (Ehlers Danlos Syndrome) and have been having issues with my work because of this, well as of wednesday of this week I quit my material handler job and am now just working at the club as a barback and apprentice bartender. Feels soo good to finaly be around my family once again, and I never thought i'd ever say that. In other work related items of note, I was offered a job at a gun store near me, odd thing is they i never applied to them nor approached them about job opportunities. They simply took the word of one of my good friends that works there and called me up offering me the job. Of course I said yes, however the job position won't be open till mid february to the middle of March, so i have to find something in the mean time to make ends meet while i wait for that job to become active.

So yeah, that's pretty much it for now. Way to tired to stay up for the amount of time that will be required to post everything that I want to. So farewell for now, and may tomorrow be a better day for all of us

Good evening SG land, I hope all is well. Sitting at home bored and alone eating a late supper and kicking back a few MGD's. I thought I'd get on and write a bit but nothing seams to want to spill out of my mind and through my finger tips. Oh well, creativity can't be forced. So yeah, really short blog...more like a blurb really.
Oh, yesterday (the 22nd) was my bday. Did absolutely nothing and loved every minute of it.



most recent picture of me


one of the coolest bartenders ever!


Got this Pheonix done in January and just now realized i never posted it on SG


Anywho, Peace SG land, i wish you all the best

So today is shitty day, one I went to orthopedic specialist today to find out about my shoulder and low and behold, i have a hereditary genetic degenerative disorder called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. A.D.A.M. Medical Encyclopedia . In a nut shell my tendins and ligaments stretch out and loose their ilasticity which causes my joints to basicaly come apart. It's affecting both shoulders though its in an advanced state in my left shoulder, as well it is also acausting both knees and most likely my back too. This explains alot, as i have always been able to pop joints apart rather easily and have always had issues with my ligaments and tendins in my shoulders and knees. So I go back to work and meet with my boss about it cause it basically means i can't do my job anymore cause it will accentuate and increase the degeneration of the tissue in my joints. He is understanding and willing to look for another position to move me to. Good on that front. Then his boss finds out and is on the same page as my boss. Good on that front too. Then it all falls to shit when the Operations Manager finds out. Her only response to all this is, word for word, "oh well looks like you won't be working here then." She said this with a smile so i hope and pray she was joking. If she wasn't however, then I am fucking pissed and majory pissed as i have already wracked up quite the medical debt finding out what's wrong with my shoulders. So monday i get to find out if i still have a job or not.


So yeah, today sucks like hell.


Then to top it off I find out that my friend Jae lost his fight with cancer today. He died around 1:30 today. He was a great friend and entertainer as well as a fenominal photographer and artist. He will be dearly missed. I had the honor of knowing him for the past 2 years and it has always been a pleasure and adventure being around this guy. What a heart, and intelligent as hell.

Today can basicaly be summed up by the song Wet Leather by Woods of Ypres



Life is just Pain and Piss, it's nothing that I will miss.....

Time for an update.

First off, my mom just had her last session of chemo therapy yesterday, hooray for that, however the last few have made her really sick. The previous session of chemo, though it had been reduced by 25%, basically rendered my mom a walking corpse. Hurt a lot seeing her like that. But aside from the chemo makin her life shitty she's doing really well. She goes in for a cancer screening in three months then again six months after that, and if all is clear her cancer will officially be in remission which is great cause that will also mean that it wasn't in her blood like the doc's were afraid it might be. My dad is doing great as is his cancer is remission and he has also lost a hell of a lot of weight. For the first time in my life that i have any memory of, my dad is a single flat line from chest to belt. He looks amazing; a completely new person. I'm proud of him.

And now for more shit to throw on the table. I dislocated my shoulder a couple weeks ago and after having it reset i was fine a for a few days then outta nowhere it began hurting like hell again. I went to the doc thursday this past week and he was really concerned and said that I may have torn my labium but that we wouldn't know for sure until we got an MRI done of shoulder. So now i get to deal witht the pain for a few more days, chomp down Vikoden, and still work 60-70 hours a week till noon on thursday next week when im scheduled to go in for the MRI. So im crossin' my fingers and prayin' its just some bad muscle cramping due to it being dislocated but time will tell and either way i'ma pay for it which sucks.


Beyond that, I have nailed down my next tattoo


i'm going to have this mirrored on both of my shoulders then my spine piece which i'm still working on will be bordered by the inner wings.

that's pretty much it, other than my ex basicaly confusing the shit outta me and never saying or denying that she wants to get back together but whenever we are together, everything she does and says screams that she wants me back. I'll be honest, i've thought about simply asking her straight out, but then if I hear her say "I don't care" one more time, i'ma fall apart and it's gona be bloody. Soooooo.....that being said I'm once again reminded of the fact that ive been engaged twice but never married. Really kinda pisses on your parade ya know? So right now i'm writing this blog update and kicking back a six pack of Harp Lager.


Goodnight SG land and all my SG Loves, you are amazing.

So S.G. land, time for another blog update

A lot has happened since my last blog, my gf and I split up cause i'm just one of those "good guys," I randomly decided to fly out to New Jersey with my buddy Mike for a wedding he was in and because of that received two job offers, one for Atomic Design (www.atomicdesign.tv) and the other for doing freelance photography for a publishing house in Philedelphia. Not really sure what I'd like to do for sure, but i'm leaning towards the photography gig. Anywho, my mom started radiationg last week and now this week she starts chemo. My brother was almost killed which stressed me out and scared the shit out of me.


Gah.... fallin asleep typing. will update later on

Ok, time to vent. So to kick things off let me just say this: Ladies, when you're dating someone and love them, or at least claim to, don't make the joke that they should date your best friend cause they both have so much more in common. ......It's not funny, it fucking insulting. That kind of sarcasm will only drive a wedge between the two of you. Oh, and let's not forget, there are actually guys out there that truly mean it every single time they say those three words "I love you." Regardless of how frequently, or infrequently it is said. And on top of that, when you say "I love you" to one of those genuine guys out there and you don't mean it, it's pretty damn obviouse, way more obviouse than if it was plastered across every billboard across the nation. Lastly, when your boyfriend asks you if you want to get together for dinner or something, DO NOT SAY that you don't care. If you do say that, you have no room to get pissed when we take your answer as you saying you don't have a desire to see us or spend time with us. Ok, this is the last of this, the genuine guys out there, will never be any more distant from you than you are from them.



Ok, no onto something else.....


Honestly i could keep going but it really doesn't matter what I say cause the one who needs to hear this isn't gona read this and won't even carry a conversatoin with me. It's like pulling teeth with a rusty pair of needle nose pliers. I'm all ears and engaged in conversation when she has something important to say, but when i have something to say, nothing about her speach or body language says anything to support that she actually cares to hear what i'm trying to talk to her about. Then since she won't listen to me, i talk to my friend Jenn, who is also my gf's friend, and try to figure out why she won't listen to me. She's gets all pissy with me that I talk to her about what's going on between us and that I should just come talk to her. FUCKING A!! I've tried talking to her about a dozen times in the past five weeks, carefuly minding when i try begining the conversation in hopes that she will actually listen to me. Breaking up isn't an option, she's worth more than that, I just wish I if she felt the same about me, or at the very least, showed that does.


Anyway, update on my folks and their cancer battles. Both parents had surgery last week to remove the cancerous tumors and spots and it went really well. My dad was went to the doc today for a followup appointment and the doc said he was totally clean and that they would see him in six months. My mom goes next week for her follow appointment.

And now, goodnight SG land and all my SG lovelies and friends

Time for an update.


So last week has to be the worst week of the year so far. On Tuesday, lovely Valentines day, as i'm sitting down to dinner with my girlfriend Ashley my father calls me and informs me that he has colon cancer. Great way to kick of the night, which went downhill from there. Fast forward to friday, my girlfriends birthday, i'm on my way over to her place for a night out on the town with our best friend Jenn and my dad calls me and informs me that they just found out my mom has breast cancer. FML!!! friday night was bitter sweet, fun then rocky then fun again.


Soo then i get to find out what extreme stress does to my body. Apparently i have excess fluid around my heart which is causing me to have an irregular heart beat, which cause quite a bit of pain. FML even more!!

So yeah, life sucks right now.

Here ya go Kraven

I must agree with your last comment, it is about time i posted a new blog.

Oh where to begin... Ahh, so since my last blog I have been promoted and demoted at work 4 times, but somehow I am now second in authority in my department, shipping that is, however I have no title. This strikes me as a tad odd but oh well, I get all the perks and payscale so whatever. Work has been stressful to say the least. Over the past 5-6 weeks our department has expanded our floor stock space by reducing the aisle widths to about 108 inches, which is the cause of a much of my stress being that the tow-motor I operated is 88 inches wide. Yeah, do the math. Major pain in the ass. So that's that, and with that we have had to reorganize the entire stock layout, more to the point, I reorganized it. However stressful and aggrevating this job has been for me it has also been quite rewarding. For the first time in my occupational carear my talents are being utilized to their full measure. Nothing is worse for me than to feel as if I have no use at all to a company or person.

*Theatrical exclaimation * Onward! (side note, if you haven't guessed yet, I'm....welll, a goof-ball and I love it)

So I have been designing and working out placements for my next few tattoos and I am psyched about getting them. My friend Beth, who is basicaly the other half of my brain in a female body, is working on my chest piece which is a dyre wolf's head crested on a tribal stylized celtic knot. This will go on my right pec and the bottom left side of the knot will change into wave like patterns that trickle down behind and around my side piece to the top an outside of my right hip. In addition I am starting the sleave on my left arm, however i'm still not sure which piece needs to be done first. Also, i have been working on a few more designs that will be revealed later since they continuely change and it would be counterproductive to explain them.

Piercings. Ok so I have double lobe piercings in both ears with the lower piercing gauged to a double zero, an industrial in my left ear, and the left side of my lower lip pierced. My friend Jenn has suggested that I get snake bites which I actually really like, however I also like the way spider bites look. What are your thoughts?


So on a bit of a personal note, this is what is going on in my life these days. You know that scene from Boondock Saints when after the whole scene where Rocco enters the hotel room, his colorfuly, awed expression at the work of the Saints would be a really good example of how things have been, except way more pissed. The stress from work coupled with how aggrevating my family is has basically placed me in a postion where I have no desire for human interaction once I get home from work. However, I still hunger for it, which is why I will befriend anyone who will befriend me. And lately it has seemed more and more than those who call themselves my friends, are simply nothing more than convience friends; that is to say people who are only my friend when it is convenient or benefits them in some way.


Ok gotta move off that or I'll end up punching someone at work. Side note, it takes quite a bit to get me to the breaking point when i lose my temper, (i'm talking mutiple weeks, even months), but once the fuse has burned all the way down, God have mercy on anywho my anger gets directed at, cause I won't have any mercy on them. I hate that about myself, simply because I hate pain and I hate causing it even more. I pray I never lose my temper again. the last time it happend I nearly sent my ex-fiance through the windshield because I slammed the breaks all the way at 70 mph. She wasn't wearing a seat belt so she slamed into the dash board then stopped. I have never seen such terror in anyones eyes as I had seen in hers when she looked up at me.



And lastly, SUICIDE GIRLS NEEDS TO PUT Kraven'S RUBY RED ON THE FRONT PAGE!!! please

Got a new tattoo a few weeks ago and I just got my new camera. Bored as hell all week. The Dove was done by Och at Studio 13.