I'm different from the last time I wrote a post..
I'm Much happier.
life is moving on and I'm feeling inspired.
am I too old to follow my dreams?!
how is twenty too old?

Its been a while.

think I'll pay homage to all those we have lost this year!
♥♥♥♥♥
to all my lovely animals that are gone!And my best friend in the whole world!!

This year don't be eatin' turkeys just adopt one its a gooood thang!!

<3

this little one just passed.
she was my little tuska bear we brought her to the vet but she just died.
she will be sorely missed.,

my membership will run out in 8 days.
soon I am to be free.
delighted?????????


fuck yes!!!!!!

just for everyone who's asked and asked me to stay its not like I'm leaving on purose I just dont like suicide girls the first time I went anonymous and I'm just not renewing it no interst in it!!!

<<£££I love ye though.and I hope ye keep enjoying it!

I still miss my friend and seem incapable of doing things because of it.its been just over a month.
I should have mentioned that I used to go out with him.I live 5 houses down from him,5 minutes from where hes now buried and I don't like it.because everywhere I go I remember more things about him things I dont want to remember.
every little conversation ,every little tiny thing he did .how funny he was how much he didn't understand me.
he was going to be 21 three days after he died.he has an 8 week old son.
this is all irrelevant to others but to me I don't want to deal with mortality.
I have a job which I never get work,I have a great c.v. and no1 will employ me because I'm over qualified.
I go to sleep @7pm wake up @4am.
I have a slipped disk in my back and I'm very angry.
I;'m so pissed off at everything it should fucking fix itself right fucking now!!!!!!

this is what i get when i google my name.huh.<3

I feel good some of you guys are awesome.
I think ruby_slipups deserves a big shout out as I'd take bets on her being a good friend as shes always so unnecessarily nice!!

halloween is my favourite holiday I hate sharing it with others.
my house is beautifully decorated everywher with pumpkins,tinsel,bats,ghost...etc.
what are you all doing for halloween.???

much love XXX

sigh.....


p.s. I very very very much heart my buddy daisy shes the best<3
I shall be the 80's this halloween.

this is hard to articulate.
I'm usually nothing like this actually,but now I'm stressed tired and worried,I'm starting to look much older than I am which is unbelievable and, as I'm the vainest person around,its a problem.
everything was finally perfect with me absolutely perfect!
and now its not....
I think the thing that bothers me most is the bullshit.
there are people complaining that their lives are going so badly,people who know me!people openly doing it unfront of me when their problems arebasic!!!!
I understand completely that there are worse of then me but every now and again I deserve for someone to just ask if I'm okay??!
I asked someone today if they were okay when all I really need is for them to ask but did she realise or even think to ask??no.
and has she eve n bothered to ask at all period???no.



another girl I know completely screws me over time and time again and the problem now is that I dont understand how you just dont give a flying fuck about other people!??
what is that a personality disorder?

so finally thank you to everyones kind words when my friend passed and a hugge HUGGGGGE FUCK YOU!!!!
to those who didnt bother their arse.

there is only one thing in life you should get over and that is yourself.


-fin