just sitting here listening to the music i downloaded today..

Matt and me stayed friends.... which is fine.. i need him in my life..

i hope i get called for a job tomorrow.. i need to make money.. my brother's birthday is in a couple weeks.. i need to get a present and card..

so lets cross our fingies and hope for a job to arise.

my heart was just ripped into pieces... and all my happiness has gone..

this will be a ruff week for me

I went and ran my errands today.. like going to La Senza and getting extra panties, getting some extra socks, film, batteries... and had some cash changed over to the British Pound so I can have some cash on hand.... $120 only got me 57 pounds oh well... at least I'm able to take out money at bank machines there.

My mom is going to drive me to the airport along with my brother who's coming along to say goodbye. There's like no shuttle buses to take me to the airport in Toronto.. it's all special shuttles I had to pay a limo company $70+ for.

I'm getting super stoked though, Matt already planned a bunch of stuff we'll be doing. I'm still nervous about having extra pudge. The trip will let me have a chance to eat less and probably workout somewhere.. like crunches or something.
Homies seem to like me.. they stare at my ass and stuff. My friend told me before I have ghetto booty which I think is funny.

When I come back I need to find a place that can order me in The Carmen Electra Aerobic Striptease, I asked at Cheapies and Scott gave kinda a funny look and then checked... but they don't carry it :/ but when I go back to work I should be able to just get a credit card and then I can order it online.

Well I'm overloaded with thinking about what I need to pack... I hope I can access SG from the hostel.. or did they block it? ... either way I'll probably update by the 6th of Sept.. I'll be at Matt's house staying in his room.

going tomorrow to go pick up extra panties and stuff for my trip.. yah!

my new top came in the mail today.... jeez I need to lose weight :/

looks like i might have to crash at a hostel for a week maybe more.. *pouts* that would suck... so hopefully I'll be able to stay with andrew instead of staying at a hostel.. or maybe by some miracle Matt's parents will be nice and I can spend my whole time with him... I <3 him so much.

still figuring out how to make some extra cash... but so far it looks like I'll for sure have places to stay.. so it's all good..

the local indie record store finally gave me my !!! poster.. heheh for free! Caught up with Simon a bit.. and just looking foward to be going on holiday soon.

bahhh I'm making no sense in this entry. :/

I'm soo bored right now.. bored bored bored! I need to figure out how to make some extra cash too for when I go to England in a week.. and I sold of my mom's old records, about 24 of them and I only got 10 bucks for 'em.
I rolled up all my coins and deposited them.. that was 24 bucks..

I'm lucky I don't get paid until next friday.. I wont have a chance to spend anything.. heheh.. maybe I'll find some stuff to pawn off.. and see where everything goes from there..

Now I'm tired.. I might have a lil nap this afternoon.. we'll see..

xo

well.. i postponed my trip.. for the 22nd of August.. but i wasnt able to tjust change it.. I had to buy a whole new one way ticket.. but use my original return..

soo I'll still be off there.. because I can't get a refund.. grr

oh well in 2 weeks I'll be off now

so things are falling apart with my trip.. I don't even know if I can still go... I wish there was a crying face.. it's way more how I feel than just a sad face.

the guy I'll be staying with... his parents freaked out at him.. and now we don't know if I can stay or not. He mentioned I can refund my ticket if I want.. but I don't .. and I'm waiting for him to come online so I can talk to him and we can figure things out..

if I can't go I know I'll die.