Wow.....I have internet.....yeah baby.....so I am able to check this shit more often. Surgery went well and I am now working two jobs...oh and I am saving to move to Chicago in about 9 months. I am leaving Ohio to go to somewhere colder in the winter time. Smart, huh?

I am not gone forever. I have finally got my own place and I can't afford to get internet so I can only come online when I am around a computer. I will not give up on being an SG member so I am keeping this shit going. I am working on getting the money saved to get the internet and I hope by the end of September it will be up and running. For those who have known me for a while and know about the stabbing shit, I hate to say this but at the end of this month I will be going through surgery number 3 on the tummy. I am a soldier and I will make it through it will just add to the many lovely scars that are already there. I hope all of my lovely SG people are doing well. I miss all you guys.

I want to wish all you loves a Happy Fucking New Year....I hope this one is better than the last for everyone.

She turned away, what was she looking at?
She was a sour girl the day that she met me
Hey! What are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me
She turned away what was she looking at?
She was a sour girl the day that she met me
Hey! What are you looking at?
She was a happy girl when she left me

How can I forget you,
Disregard how I feel,
Silently listen,
To the words I can't see.

As long as I have tried,
As low as I can be,
I will never resign myself,
From the trial I seek.

Why should I forgive you,
After all that I've seen,
Quietly whisper,
When my heart wants to scream.

For as long as I have tried,
And as low as I can be,
I will never resign myself,
From the trial I seek.

There's no time to rest,
Or to reconsider,
For this cruel unsaid,
Won't concede.

For as long as I have tried
And as low as I can be
I will never resign myself
From the trial I seek.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.... i have not slept more than 2 to 3 hours with out waking up everynight for over a week. My sleeping aids are not even helping. And why the hell does it have to be the same flipping time every night. I need sleep before someone gets hurt.

Sorry guys been awhile since I could get on the computer. I log on and have four requests that pretty damn cool. My daughter's big birthday bash is this sunday. She turned 2 on Aug 4th but due to my fam never being in the state at the same time but all want to attend her birthday party we had to postpone it. I guess it is ok for now cause she is too young to realize that we are late at celebrating it. I told the fam when she gets a little older they are just going to have to suck it up and miss her party if they are not in town because what kid wants to waite three weeks later to get there gifts.

Well I will be heading out to San Fran next week. I almost thought I was going to have to cancel the trip due to money issues but I have came up with it last minute and it is still in the plan. It always seem like when you start to save your money for something, something else happens and you have to spend everything you had saved on some bullshit.

I promise that I will update more often. And DAMN i so need to update that pic, it doesn't even look like me.

Much love to all of you

Yeaahh... Nikki is coming back... I miss you girl.
Things to look forward to......
Bento night and hopefully Willy Wonka Night with Nikki
Kings Island trip...rollercoasters and water rides
Daughter's 2nd birthday...wow 2 years who would of thought
Late Aug going to San Fran for the first time

Hasnt been such a bad summer too far.....

Yeahhh Cedar Point with SG........Bring it baby!

I hope everyone going is going to be safe.

Nicole I miss ya girl and I wish you were going.

See ya there

On a positive note. Aesop Rock show was the shit. The simularity between Jofixx and Aesop is uncanny. I must say that I am looking forward to purchasing Jofixx new album it has been along time coming. Anybody that has not checked his shit needs to do so...NOW..Do it why you wasting time on the mic get your ass over to his journal click on the link and check it.