IPOD
RADIO
I had my assessment for the term yesterday -- and my (new) tutor failed me -- based solely on the fact that he didn't like my final piece for our self-portrait project. ALL of my work and research was complete -- and instead of giving me constructive criticism on my final piece he decided to completely rinse me in front of the other tutor on the assessment panel.
First he asked me if I knew what his job was upon returning into the assessment room. I knew instantly that this was a bad sign...and when I answered his question with a nervous tone in my voice he completely ripped me apart. I was told that my illustrations could have been done by a monkey, that I am relying too heavily on trying to 'look sexy' for male tutors to pass the course -- and in fact don't look sexy I look stupid. He told me that if I had had a female tutor doing my assessment that they would have been offended by my obvious desire to get a passing mark based solely on (again) "triying to be sexy" I was also told that my work is GCSE style bullshit, and that I should burn my work.
He didn't bother to tell me what I could do to improve my work -- or what about my illustrations/self portraits/photography was 'trying to be sexy but failing' and left me feeling like a big fucking idiot. I also know for a fact that others on my course didn't even bother to hand in a final piece for the self-portrait (and were also referred as I was) but didn't recieve any abuse at all -- they were just told to do the work that had been asked of them nicely and told that they would get a 'pass' when the work was handed in.
I'm so fucking angry and upset I don't know where to begin. I worked hard this term (maybe not as hard as I could have) but I know that I didn't deserve to be told I was unintelligent and a monkey. I don't want to let this shit get to me...but I can't stop crying and feeling like an absolute failure. I don't know how I'm supposed to bring myself back into class after Easter Holidays either because I feel like I've been subjected to abuse. I know I'm not the most talented artist in the world, and I don't claim to be...But I'm also not some ditzy slut who tries to sleep with their professors to get her marks...and I feel like I've been made out to be exactly that. I'm beyond disappointed and my confidence has been crushed all over again.
Art school fucking sucks.
MAR 15, 2008 04:48 PM
Thanks, sweetness! 
I shot and shopped the set, I'm so glad you liked it!
I'm so sorry to hear about your assessment. 
What an idiot tutor! 
Teachers are supposed to inspire students to learn and work hard, not tell them they are "monkeys"! I'm really upset about this too, and I know you didn't deserve that. Hugs for you, my love. 
MAR 16, 2008 07:12 AM
Awww sweetie, I am so sorry. What an ass! Is there a department head or someone you can talk to? He is obviously bitter, unfair and not really doing his job if he feels he can speak to students that way. I wish I could come hug you Keep me updated and I really hope there is a higher-up you can talk to about that prick
MAR 16, 2008 11:52 AM
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with it's twists and turns,
as every one of us sometimes learns,
and many a failure turns about,
when she might have won had she stuck it out,
don't give up though the pace seems slow,
you may succeed with another blow,
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit. 
You always make me smile! 
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
11
12
13
14
15
16
17
18
19
20
21
22
23
24
25
26
27
28
29
30
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
11
12
13
14
15
16
17
18
19
20
21
22
23
24
25
26
27
28
29
30
31
PAGE:
1 | 2