I am content. Working on me...thats what I need to focus on. Me.

My husband says he loves me but doesn't know how he feels about us, not sure if he wants to be together but doesn't want a divorce....just keep on dragging my heart around I have all the time in the world, right?

I started watching Dexter...via blockbuster online. I love having someone send me rentals! No late fees! Or crazy Gas prices!

I have comprised a way to eat good and healthy and to bring your food bill down. Being that gas prices are up and that means higher grocery prices....

Well QUIZNO'S Has 5 dollare subs and if you have a significant other and you split a 5 dollar sub that is 2.50 and some tax per person to eat a should be proportional sized meal.

Subway has the same deal Sunday to Sunday....

Sushi places usually have a before 7 deal.... like 1.50 sushi rolls. We have a place right down the road and if you get there before 7pm they are 1.50.

Ruby Tuesdays has a great veggie salad kinda buffet

Olive Garden has the all you can soup salad and bread stick thing going on and in the evening all you can eat pasta which you could split with a partner....

There are soooo many places, especially local places that are trying to compete with your dollar!

Our average food bill a week is about 50 to 60 bucks depending if we get crazy or not... thats for my husband and my son and I.

Another thing we do is we make a meal plan for every two days only buying exactly what is needed for those meals.... That way we have no left overs and food doesn't waist. Or if you have a big family...... Buying two days of food but more than you will eat and having left over for the next few days will save money.
If you buy more than two days of food you are more than readily to change your mind on that meal and then it sits and possibly goes bad or you leave it in your pantry for looooooooooong periods of time and you never use it and well you end up buying it again down the road.

I dropped off the face of the earth.... I am stilla live, thankfully.
I think my husband is un in love with me....le sigh. Its cool.



^With my friends the other night. I think I get drunk on these nights because I want to be somewhere else.




^My beautiful little boy, what drives me nuts and keeps me sane everday.

I feel better now.... sorry for just dropping off the face of the earth. I have alot on my plate, my mother is in the hospital now and is very sick with some virus that just attacked her organs and started shutting them down really fast. I am stressed out to the fullest. She is such a good person, I hope God pulls her through this.
XXO


Here are some pictures though,

I'm really depressed, I felt like killing myself last night.

long day and its not even close to being over.... I took on a refinishing project for some extra money and the girl wanted this crackle paint put on it. Applying crackle is not the hard part its applying the top coat after the crackle dries..... It looked like shit to me so I just stripped it, that has been an all day event. ugh.... I could only do it while the little ones were sleeping so I still have to go in and sand it down and start over... not happy.... Not to mention I took on a futon from another lady to refinish and then another lady is coming Tuesday or Wednesday to drop off a dresser and a chest to be painted black which I don't mind but its just alot and after this I am done.... DONE. No more painting for a while.... Money is not that important when your hands are raw and you don't have a beer.

Been working out and went Vegan all together, overnight decision! I know this sounds grose but I can fit in my skinny jeans on my period... yea yea yea I know...eeeew right but I have been working hard and making lifetime decisions for my health and mind so I deserve the fact that I can wash and dry my skinny jeans and slip in them and not have a muffin top anymore!




So this was last night went out to celebrate two years of happyness and not killing each other...lol We are more in love now then we were when we got married... yes we have our tiffs but who doesn't....
Him and I have this awsome bond of till death do us part, seriously.... the only way out of this marriage is death on your own part, i.e. old age your own stupid account or death by the other meaning you leave in a body bag because I slit your throat and made you bleed out in a bath tub of salt and liquor. Cheers lovey dovies!

We went to Carolina Beach over the weekend and had so much fun just escaping the jville life for a weekend.




Oh and Today I have been married for two years!!!!!
My husband and I listen to Dave Ramsey on the Fox Network
He is a financial guru!
So instead of buying your typical anniversery gift
We....decided to pay off our credit card and our truck payment early and then we will only have our ford loan left and that we will either sell to get out from underneith and just get a to and from car, like a little old honda or maybe a volvo...lol being debt free is an awsome feeling and we are so close. I am so proud of us being able to do this!!!!yeah!!!!!

My two gents!



I have Verizon Wireless and my husband and I do the family plan which is soooo freaking expensive.
I am getting ready to cancel my plan and go to TMobile, I think.... I like the slider phone but I keep thinking wait until this fall and get something better that comes out... What do you think I should do?