aaargh I hate revision! I have a complete lack of motivation. Thankfully have 3 days til my first exam, plenty time for cramming, which allows what I feel is a well deserved night off tonight, sitting on my arse eating chicken wings and watching a DVD. Not the most exciting thing I know, but anything to take my mind of Construction Planning and River and Coastal Engineering.

I hope everyone had a great old years night, and I wish you all the best for the year. Mine was pretty good...quiet piss up at a mates flat, and headed into town for the bells.

However....it could have been oh so much more eventfull had I realised my psycho ex had come to my house on new years eve! Thankfully...or maybe not as it resulted in my getting a lot of shit off him... he saw me get into a taxi with a friends boyfriend, assumed I had a new fella and was so distraught he left. Only to give me a hard time about it earlier this week. Man I know how to pick em!

oh dear...

I joined after vanishing off here while I was away in Africa...and after oooh, about 3 months of being a rubbish member I am finally writing a new post. I really am useless at times!

So much has gone on over the last...um...7 months or so. I've been to Uganda, Kenya and Tanzania, worked on a building site again, came back to uni, had a soap opera style personal life and am now back to being wrapped up in good old winter exam stress!

Hope everyones well. Need to have a bit explore and think of something intesesting to say in my next post.

Love and hugs xx

Where have the last 3 weeks gone?! Its the middle of May!!!

I seem to have had no life for the last 3 weeks. Well....thats a bit of a lie... I have done nothing other than go out on the piss with mates (a lot) and enjoying the freedom of being able to without having to explain myself to the ex...then sitting in my room wading through mountains of coursework.

Anyway I hope you're all ok...I'll try and do a proper update on whats been going on at the weekend.

*hugs*

After being sent home early at work on Tuesday I had to spend my entire afternoon re-arranging our charity abseil. Am starting to realise our so called group leader is completely incapable of organising anything at all. After telling us all the abseil was sorted and sending out sponsorship forms to everyone he contacted the local news for publicity. It then turns out he didn't get in touch with the Police, and they can't cover the event that day. If it was a minor oversight I wouldn't mind, but it was second on his list after hiring a company! He then went off to France… and I got a call off another group member asking if I could meet the local news crew the next day, as I'm the only one currently near Newcastle. I was so annoyed. Turns out the news people wanted to put the whole group on TV, but of course we're all home for Easter. So that took some sorting out, and a lot of 'thanks but no thanks' just hope they'll give us some coverage in a months time.

Then I finally got another date sorted for the abseil, and got shit off other people because it falls in exam period! It's on a bloody Sunday! Does it really matter if it means that we raise a grand or more? And half the group will spend all day Sunday in bed anyway. It's really getting to me now. Out of a group of 12 there are only 4 of us putting the work in, and the other 8 are just sitting back while we bust a gut trying to raise all the cash for the trip. Ugh… anyway…

Wednesday was not quite so depressing… Although I did end up full of holes after having injections in both arms for my vaccines, a filling at the dentist and dye put in my eyes at the opticians. I'm really gutted about having a filling. Never had to have one before and always had perfect teeth. I didn't even have toothache! Thankfully it didn't really hurt too much, was worth not having a jab, think that would have hurt more than a bit of drilling!

Thursday was a pain at work. Had so much to do to get the place ready to open today, but couldn't get on because the fitters were still in the kitchen. The company is just stupid…why fit new kitchens and serving counters just days before opening when the place has been shut all winter?!

Friday was even more hectic, but at least we could get stuff done and I was back in the restaurant rather than pricing and putting stuff on shelves in the shop (I was doing that all day Monday and Tuesday…the second most boring days work ever…and only second to the time I spent a day sitting on scaffolding watching a tower crane). Had to stay late to help get everything prepped in the kitchen. Was good to be back doing stuff in the kitchen, I enjoy it. Somehow we got everything clean and ready in time to open today though!

And guess what? After all that work Saturday was so quiet all day! Had nothing to do saying as everything had been cleaned and sorted by us already! I was nice though. It's really chilled out compared to the other restaurant up the road where I normally work which is also owned by the company.

Yesterday was busy, really busy. It was good fun though. Most of the customers were really nice and polite. There were loads of bikers … seriously half the car park was full of bikes. Heard on the news this morning though that two people were killed and two more seriously injured in the area yesterday after coming off their bikes. I hate to say it, but I have very little sympathy for them. They ride like absolute idiots up here, with no respect for the people living here or other road users. And what about their families back home? Sure get an adrenalin rush racing along a country road… good for you… but what about your wife who mite have to tell your kid dad isn't coming home…yeah… it really annoys me… anyway…

It's been such a beautiful weekend. I am so lucky to work where I do. The view is amazing, especially on days like today. You can never get really bored when you've got sail boats going by which you can just sit and watch. It's really relaxing. My ex came up last night, picked my dog up from my place and met me after work so we could go for a walk. It was lovely. The lake was so calm and still, wish I'd remembered to take my camera.

Hmm quite a long post there about not much… sorry guys, haven't done much other than work this last week! Working all this week too. Am in a better mood now though, so my next post will hopefully have fewer pissed off ramblings in it

Oh yeah... and please if you sent me a friendship request will you message me and say hi, tell me something about yourself... make conversation...?

I've been sent home from work early because there's nothing for me to do. I really should be excited by this but I really could do with actually working and making some money.

But it is an absolutely gorgeous day so I might take the dogs for a walk.

Sorry for the brief update but I haven't managed to talk dad into getting wireless here so can't get online on my own computer, and this one is in the living room in plain view of the 'rents and every other waif and stray who pops round for a cup of tea. I can't be on with them asking why I'm looking at pictures of naked girls!

Ooh didnt get a set done either 'cause some mates called round and interupted me!

Man another term over. Where has the time gone? My bloody parents were right, time does go faster as you get older. Getting worried by the time I'm 50 I'll blink and miss and entire month!

Heading back home on Sunday. It's going to be strange living with the 'rents again. The novelty of having my meals cooked for me will wear off after a few days I'm sure. My kid sister is all grown up and never home now, in fact I think she's moving in with her boyfriend soon, I can't believe it! They're such a cute couple though. Its strange being back and not having her around though, especially as we actually get along now instead of fighting like cat and dog! I'll be out the house working most of the time though, or walking the dogs… or at the pub with dad. I'm such a daddy's girl!

I think being back in the country will do me good. Peace, quiet and fresh air to clear my head.

Everyone clears off back home tomorrow morning, so going to try and shoot a proper set saying as I'll have the place to myself. I'm a bit nervous about it. I don't have a photographer so am trying the self shot thing. Just hope it works. The standards of the sets going up at the moment seem so high, even if I found a mate to shoot it for me I think I'd have a job getting enough quality shots. We'll see though, practice makes perfect! Got some positive feedback off people in the hopefuls group (thank you so much all of you ) and think I've got the lighting and white balance issues sorted.

Went on a site visit yesterday. I got all excited, was like a kid in a playground. Yeah a bit sad I know…but hey… It's a huge project though, and all sorts of interesting things going on. It's a hospital and the main new adult ward is a massive 6 storey post tensioned concrete frame, there's random lift shafts shooting up being made using jump form, culverts being cast, we went down into the services corridor… yeah… its cool I can't wait to qualify and get out there all the time, see a project through to the end. I had a few walls which I looked after over the summer… and they were really big walls, but I can't wait to have a whole building that I'm pretty much responsible for.

Should be going out tonight to celebrate end of term but I'm just so tired and getting stressed about the amount of work I have to do (8 whole pieces of coursework set over Easter… yep… 8…bastards), the Africa group have stopped doing work recently and seem to have forgotten we now only have just over 2 months to raise a minimum of 11 grand My ex is doing a good job of getting me down too… I hate it when he manages to do that Going to sit and watch Friday night TV and eat ice cream instead

Ooopsy…just spent so much money in the shops. All the gorgeous sunshine (even though for the last 3 days it's been in between snow storms) has made me feel all summery so I had to buy some suitable clothes. That and I remembered the £60 of FatFace vouchers I have, so got a lovely new bikini and boardies. Also got a couple of cute summer dresses. Well Africa is going to be hot!

Saw a great programme last night on Burlesque classes. I wish they did them up here in the North! I can't see why some women have such low self esteem. Do they make themselves like that, or is it the fault of men? It's just ridiculous. I know some girls who will turn the lights out before getting undressed in front of their partners and some of these women wouldn't even be seen in their bras by the other women there because they were so uncomfortable about themselves. It's so sad that people are like that. Yeah a couple of the girls were big-ish (but not huge). I felt so good for them when they had done their burlesque show. They were buzzing. And rightly so, they looked great. Those old fashioned pin ups should be brought back. They promote a much better image for young women then the twiggy models and the girls from Playboy.

I also like the whole difference between being pretty and being sexy. I've always said I'd prefer to be sexy than anything else. Sexy isn't just about how you look, it's a certain presence some women, and men just … well… have. And its not always your conventionally attractive people who have this quality, I know a few guys who aren't the best looking but just ooze sexyness. I love it! Hehe

Last week at uni before the easter break. Time is flying by! Got nothing done yesterday, and I have about 6 pieces of coursework to do over the holidays, which sucks. Went out on Monday night with the company who sponsor me. I'm so lucky to get sponsorship off them! Was just sitting watching TV at 5pm on Monday when my boss rang to say that a few of them were on a course here and asked me and my mate (who is also sponsored by them) if we want to come along to join them all for dinner at the hotel! Free food and a free bar, how could I refuse! It's so nice to feel so valued in such a big company which I'm so new to. Saw a couple of the people I worked with last summer, and it was great to catch up with them, as I'll probably be on a different site this summer so wont see them.

Oooh last night was so fun went out for my mate Dan's birthday. Sports theme so dressed as a polo player ( I haven't done any sports other than horsey stuff since I was like 17 so none of my other kit fits me!). Had quite an excited moment in the Early Learning Centre when I found a kids croquet set I could use for my mallet and ball. Its ace! Mite have to go play croquet in the park when the weather gets a bit better

Went round to the girls' house and played ring of fire before going out, so was quite battered…well…very battered. Fell down the stairs in the club because I tripped over. Managed to slide down the whole flight on my knees and put a massive hole in the knee of my jodhpurs. Was very pissed off.

Cant remember coming home. For some reason I always forget leaving places. There's some kind of black hole in my brain where taxi journeys get lost. Its strange.

No hangover again this morning, YAY! Went though a patch when drinking would make me really, really ill after I had food poisoning last year. I'd be dead for a couple of days after. Finally seem to have got the hang of getting pissed again.

Only one week of term left then back home for a month. Don't quite know how I'll survive that long with my parents, but I need to go back and work because I'm seriously skint.

Thanks for all the nice comments about my new pics and to Jsecure who commented on my furniture!

Going to have a nice night in tonight chilling out with the flatmates and watching Comic Relief. Looking forward to doing nothing!