Okay.... So I've been a member for a year now and haven't done a thing about it. Every once in a while I'd check out the site but never got involved in the community. However, I think that I'm going to change this in the coming months. I need a way to find my confidence again and I think the SG can help me with that en devour. I'm going to try to brutally honest with all of you as well as myself to get out of this funk.

A little about myself.... I used to act and sing, but now I only have time to work and go to school. I was born and raised in South Dakota, a most peculiar place for a liberal like me from which to sprout. I did end up in California, one of the most liberal states, by way of finding a man here. He's great and always supportive. We have a great life together, but it's at times when everything is great that I feel I'm missing a piece of myself. I used to very confident, I felt talented and sexy... But since then I've gained weight and can't seem to free myself from it. I used to be on the fringe of everything appropriate in South Dakota, and in California what I thought was hardcore and intense is soft porn. People see me as a sweet do-gooder type that, although opinionated with fringe views, still plays the part of girl next door. I'm just tired of it! I want to break out and scream, "This is me! Don't you see who I really am?!"

I don't know.... No one will probably read this anyway and I'm just talking to myself.... But if you're out there and you were once where I am, please give some advice. How do I break this shell that I've made into my persona?

Harmony