Man this CRPS shit sucks. I also have a horrible cold. belch I miss you all.

It is official!! Tyson's "other dad" signed away his rights allowing Jason to adopt Tyson. Now Tyson's name is Tyson Thomas. I almost cried when the judge said his new name!! This has been 7 years in the making. I'm so happy we're a complete family in the eyes of the law! I feel so happy i'm sure i'm glowing. What a wonderful time to have something so rewarding!!

Hi my loves!! Today i got a nerve block to try and help the symptoms of my CRPS. It hurt like hell and wore off in 7 hours. I'm schedualed to have another next TUes. I'm not sure if i'm going to do it or not. Right now i'm really suffering the pain seems almost worse then before the block. On the plus side I have white/blonde hair right now!

OMG I haven't posted in almost 5 months!! SO much has happened and so much hasn't happened. I broke my foot on Christmas, I mentioned that in my last post. What I didn't say was that in May it was decided that I needed surgery. They used a bone graft from my pelvis and put that around a screw they used to hold the bone together. Unfortunately about a week later I had a HORRIBLE PAINFULL staph infection. For that I needed 2 more surgeries AND after about 5 days in the hospital I had a PICC line placed. With that I could go home and treat myself twice a day for two hours with a high dose antibiotic called Vancomiacin. I tell you the stuff is tough!! This went on for five weeks. Over ten casts and three or four splints. Lots and lots of pain. The bone is nearly healed now. But I'm still in a load of pain. I saw a specialist today and now they've decided that I have something called RSD Look it up. It's not fun. IT's a neuro. disorder where you're pain receptors kinda go out of control and make you think you're in pain all the time. So that's what's been going on with me. OH BTW I also lost my job because I didn't heal fast enough for the HOSPITAL that I worked for. Gotta love it.

I've missed you all!!

My black cloud has returned. I guess you can't really call it post pardum depression when you're baby is over a year old. SO I'll just say I'm depressed. THere are several things contributing to that. Number one: Work SUCKS ASS!! I'm constantly schedualed with these two colleage students who spend most of they're time fighting with each other and when they aren't fighting they're doing their homework. Wich means I end up doing most of the work. I used to love my job now just feel like I'm constantly getting dumped on. Number two: Tyson's birth father has contacted me. After 6 years of no contact he wants to meet him!@ This is the same guy who abused me and drank and drugged our money away. IT was one of the hardest things I ever did leaving him and I never want to let him back into our lives. He claims he's clean and sober for six months. Wich isn't long enough for me. He has another child that he now sees after a long time of no contact and a third child that I don't think he's ever seen. Well I told him absolutley not. I said that when tyson was old enough to ask to see him I would let him know. Tyson's only nine and a very sensitve boy. I don't want ryan to screw him up. Number three: My sister moved out of our house. She was renting the apartment we have in our basment. I knew that it was only going to be for a short time but I really injoyed her living here. So there's my sob story. Just wanted to get it out.

new pics of the kids!

Wow ok I don't know where all the time went! Joy and Tyson have both started school. I can't believe Joy is in school i can still remember when I was pregnant with her it doesn't seem that long ago! Her poor teacher has only taugh for three years. I thought about "warning" her about joy. But I figured after a week or so she'd get the idea. Fletcher is doing so well! He's really mastering walking and getting into all kinds of fun now! Hes a big boy too he's wearing 18 month clothes. Still working on the talking he does say the name of our girl cat LiLu it's really cute. Today we were shopping and he leaned out of the cart and said HAAAALLLooooo! to a lady passing by. His only reall problem is he keeps getting ear infections. Thats not so much fun. But he's still the most well behaved baby i've had. Even when he's sick he's pretty good. Things are going ok at work. Our managment still sucks. But I work all PM shifts now so I hardly have to deal with them. My sister Nee Nee has moved into our apartment downstairs. After having the TERRIBLE tennants she is a breath of fresh air! THe only "problem" we have is that she asks me to feed her cat alot in the AM if she stays with her boyfriend. And thats not a problem I like her cat. Ive missed you all!! Let me know what you're up to!!!

Wow it's really been a long time since I updated. Things around hear went kinda wacky for awhile. But the dust seems to have settled and hopefully will remain calm for awhile. The baby's birthday is next month. I can't believe a year has passed since his birth. He just happens to be the sweetest baby on earth! We are very lucky.

Life is good I'm no longer sick. My sister moved into the apartment that we rent out. YAY no more crappy tennats! It's nice to have her so close. I'm still working PMs. The baby is getitng HUGE. I can't believe he'll be 1 in 2 months!! The time has gone by so quickly!! I'm so happy with him. He's a lovely boy. I"m just content with life right now.