Long time no blog...What's up everyone?!

Summer is in full swing...
I've been working almost 30 hours a week between my two jobs (considering I only work at the radio station for 4 hours a week b/c they had an extreme cut of hours)
That's not alot, but its more than my 15 hours I had been working during school.
I gots the bills to pay, just like everyone else in the US of A.

My girlfriend and I will be together 3 months on Saturday and I couldn't be happier.
She actually just left my house today, after spending a good 3 days with me and my family.
It's going to be weird sleeping without her tonight.

I've been addicted to Twitter latetly. Oh my goodness yes.
It's awesome..if you're on it...follow me..username: ktfromhanover
You won't be let down with my random thoughts that get put on there.

I gotta start working on toneing up my body so I can get your guys some more nudes.
I miss taking pics. I might have my girlfriend take my photos this time, so they'll be a little more classy.

Hope all is well with all you guys!
I'm going to attach a picture of me and my girlfriend Gabby!

HI!
I haven't posted in awhile.
My life has been like a roller coaster ride, and I finally landed at my home destination.
THANK GOD.

I had a lot of figuring out to do.
I am so happy with everything, I have my girlfriend, Gabby and I love her more than anything on this earth.
My mom and I have gotten closer.
My dad and I put out differences aside, for the most part.

I joined a new gym, and I am working on new pics for you guys.
I got all my hair chopped off. I have a tinker bell cut now.

I have been writing poetry and getting addicted to Twitter!
http://twitter.com/Katie_Moore07
Get at me haha.

Hope you all have a good Easter or Passover or w/e you celebrate.

<3

I hate winter...let me just throw it out there.

In NEPA, its a common thing.
But I was so looking forward to going out today, getting some coffee and hitting up the gym.
But nnnoooooo we had to have some nice freezing rain.

I wanna move somewhere warm, with no hurricanes or tornados.
Any ideas?

Other than that, I hope you're 2009 is going well!
<3

So last year I believe I made all superfical goals...like lose weight..this and that.
I dont feel I need to do that anymore.
I have been thro a lot this year, like the things I'm not afraid to talk about anymore like suicide attempts and eating disorders.
Life comes at you fast, and some people don't know how to handle it...myself included.
Therefore I put some time and thought into my New Year Resoultions, so here we go:

1. Stay healthy: not lose weight, not stop eating, but work out and take care of my body. God only gave me one, I need to take care of it.

2. Save money: every week, or two weeks I hope to put some money into my savings account. I used to have lots in there, then I started to use it
So my goal is to work it back into an actual savings again.

3. Give up bad habbits: Whether it is thinking twice before I light up a cigarrette when I am stressed, or not throwing myself at men...I need to start looking at my life and realizing, Do I really need that?
I want to become a better person in mind and spirit, and I need to think.

4. Stop dwelling on things I can't change: There are just some things in a person's life you can't change....like being gay or what happened in the past.
Live life, and enjoy the people around you.

5. Move out of my parents house: If I don't get out soon...I'm going to end up going 100% crazy. I am 19 yrs old..going on 20...and they treat me like my friends got treated when they were 15 yr old.
I need out.

That is what I hope to accomplish...There are no..lose 20lbs, or quit smoking. Because I quit smoking haha, and I don't need to lose 20lbs. I need to start looking at myself in a positive light, because this dim negative light is only making me a negative person.

I hate the cold.
But it means Christmas is coming soooooon!

I have been confused lately...sexually.
Here is my issue: my ex bf/love of my life (haha) tells me he is gay and thats why we broke up.
One little issue..we have sex on a regular basis....??? We have tested this theory...and he honestly can't get it up for other girls...am I lucky or is it something else?

How about I am really interested in women lately? The ex is only one that turns ME ON!

Any suggestions...ideas?
HELP...we might have two closet gays that fuck each other..help!?

I feel so alone. The only days I don't feel alone are the days I spend at Kings.
Like it comes out of no where. I was driving to work this morning, and I started crying...and I was texting one of my best friends....TOTALLY NOT ALONE.
I used to think everyone hated me. Like I always thought Kevin's friends couldn't stand me, but I realized they actually like me, and I like them.
Then I think ahead to when I graduate college...the one person I have become dependent on will be gone from my life. Should I just enjoy his company now?
I am so lost. Like I don't know what to do.
When I have a major breakdown, I don't remember what happens. I just wake up and I'm like 'wow, last night was bad.' And I need to read my sent/received texts to realize what was said and what I did.

I seriously can't go on like this anymore, and it hurts me. Like I feel like I can be in a room full of friends, but I am alone...I am empty inside.
Its a pain I don't like...and I can't explain to anyone.

I was talking to a friend last night, and I asked him to fix me, get me better. But this is the thing I can't even grasp. If its a 'good' day for me...I can't talk to a counselor...because I don't think anything is wrong with me.
I only breakdown at night, and a counselor is not there for me at night.
I feel bad for relying on friends, am I slowly pushing them away with my unstable emotions?
I don't know what to do. I still am lonely, and getting a cold. I just wanna go lay in my 'second' bed. It would feel so good right now to get a hug.

So...
School has been in full swing.
I just recently broke up with my boyfriend of like over 3 months, and he was shocked.
The guy seriously didn't see it coming? WTF! I stopped calling you, I gave you one word answers in texts...something was up?
He thought I was stressed from school.
YEA right.
I am currently with my ex, who if all is well is the man i want to be with. But it doesn't seem like that is going to work out, so I am just going to enjoy his company for now.
I am not looking for somoene to spend the rest of my life with, I am looking for someone I can't live without. When i succeed in that field. ROCK on.

I hope everyone is doing well.
I bought a web cam, so we can expect more pics up from me.
I love you all and thanks for all the awesome comments.

Live strong and live hard ppl.
<3

get this.
get this!!!!
ok...so i dumped my boyfriend on Monday, for a guy who I thought was UBER amazing...
i get word today that the guy i thought was so amazing had a girlfriend for 8 months.
but its like she NEVER existed...WTF?!
so we both confronted him and me and her are kinda friends now...CRAZY?!
i think so.
men as assholes.

poop.
never a good blog when i start it like that.

broke up with my boyfriend on Monday night in the same place I met him.
it was only a month relationship...but poop.
breaking up is never fun.

kinda moved on with someone else rela quick...not saying a cheated, but when school starts again..ill have someone.
i am scared of rejection. who isnt? i mean a girl can only have tough skin so much...some wounds can be deep when rejected.
especially the time i spent with this guy were the best 3 days of my life.

IDK!?
Ill get over it...but all my friends are like "stop worrying...he likes you..."
but guys can be pigs...i cant help but freak out.
they always say the best things come from to those who arent searching for it....maybe?